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I cant help it, I need you lot, dp died yesterday, I cant stop seeing it, it hurts so much

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TrinityRhino · 11/05/2013 08:40

everything hurts, I cant close my eyes without seeing it happening
he collapsed at home
I did chest compressions till the ambulance came
they tried for ages but he was gone
I cant stop seeing it
my arms hurt, my heart hurts
I'm exhausted
I cant do this again

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Catrin · 12/05/2013 23:17

I cannot believe this has happened to you all again and I am so, so sorry that it has. Thinking of you all Sad

BewitchedBotheredandBewildered · 13/05/2013 00:36

Such a lovely ring.
Thank you for the photos, gorgeous girls.
I'm not surprised that you inspire the sort of friendship to come from far away and stay as long as you need.
Hope you all get some good sleep. xxx

MNPin2013 · 13/05/2013 00:41

Thinking of you Trinity.

The photos are beautiful.

Thumbwitch · 13/05/2013 00:45

Beautiful pics, Trin. Such a lovely man, and so clearly loved and loving in your family. Gorgeous ring too.

Very pleased to hear you have a friend to be with you for some time to come - I hope that she will help keep you eating and sleeping etc.

Hope you're sleeping now, in fact xx

sallysourire · 13/05/2013 01:12

Trinity, I am so sorry for your loss.

Your pics are beautiful, so many lovely memories. Take care of yourself.

Xx

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TrinityRhino · 13/05/2013 02:17

my head hurts
gecko and dd2 in my bed again
gecko very unsettled. Wakes up if I move I tiny bit. crying in her sleep.
poor lamb
dd1 is sleeping on my floor
dd2 sleeping soundly just now
its too quiet

no gentle bear snores Sad

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TrinityRhino · 13/05/2013 02:18

fuck it just hurts so mucgt

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MsIngaFewmarbles · 13/05/2013 02:21

Oh Trinity. I don't have the words. Sending you a hug xx

TanteRose · 13/05/2013 02:22

oh Trin Sad Sad

the photos are wonderful - what a beautiful ring

thinking of you and your DCs xx

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50ShadesofXmas · 13/05/2013 02:56

So very sorry for your loss - no words can help but so many hands to hold, we will help you through again xx

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TrinityRhino · 13/05/2013 07:03

ugh double beds are not made for sharing with 2 wriggly kids
I was trying to convince cliff that we needed a super king size bed for the morning cuddkes when all three girls and the dog wanted to climb into bed and have a snuggle

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ajandjjmum · 13/05/2013 07:04

Too true! Thinking of you Trinity.

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TrinityRhino · 13/05/2013 07:06

gecko had a rough night we saw almost every hour
she was just sobbing and clinging onto me whenever I moved too much
is that her brain finally processing it shes sleeping peacefully now and ive got up to the loo and she didn't stir

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financialwizard · 13/05/2013 07:09

Trinity, I wish you all the strength you need to get you, and your children through this incredibly difficult time xx

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TrinityRhino · 13/05/2013 07:11

all my girks love school, always have
so I asked them if tgey wanted to go or not
thry said they didnt want to go today but I let them choose because I wanted them to have a feel of control over something
also I know they wont not go for long

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TrinityRhino · 13/05/2013 07:12

even if gecko had wanted too she hasnt nearly enough sleep to manage it

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Thumbwitch · 13/05/2013 07:14

I think that's fair enough Trin, and a good reason to let them choose for today. Have you been able to let the schools know why? Or could your friend do that for you?

kneedeepindaisies · 13/05/2013 07:18

Trinity I'm so sorry for your loss.

I am thinking of you and your family and sending lots of love. Xxx

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TrinityRhino · 13/05/2013 07:19

the schools dont know yet
im going to ring them
how early do you think there is someone there?

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Sparklingbrook · 13/05/2013 07:22

Morning Trinity. If you wanted you could always email the school and speak to them later? Unless you wanted to speak to someone specific. x

Thumbwitch · 13/05/2013 07:24

I was going to suggest starting to phone at 8 as well - there should be someone there by then and if there isn't anyone who you want to talk to, then you could leave a message for someone specific to phone you back as a matter of urgency.