I cant help it, I need you lot, dp died yesterday, I cant stop seeing it, it hurts so much

[TrinityRhino]

everything hurts, I cant close my eyes without seeing it happening
he collapsed at home
I did chest compressions till the ambulance came
they tried for ages but he was gone
I cant stop seeing it
my arms hurt, my heart hurts
I'm exhausted
I cant do this again

Still thinking of you here Trinity.

Lovely to see joyful photos of a special man. X

Trin, he looks like such a lovely, cheerful happy chap! Exactly what you deserved after your dh died and you did NOT deserve to lose him too.

Your photos are so lovely and natural. You all look so happy and relaxed.

It's so wrong that this has been snatched away from you all.

How has you all been today? Have you all managed to eat?

Please do say if there's anything that we can do to help. I'd happily get a supermarket order on its way to you if you'd accept it Trinity

Oh Trinity, I am so sorry. How dreadfully unfair. He sounds so lovely, as do you. I have seen my share of the universe doing terrible things to wonderful people these past few years; but how I wish it wasn't like this and nobody had to suffer like you are now. Love from the other side of Scotland.

Hun i am so sorry to read this. I really dont know how you must feel just now. hugs

I've eaten some wonderful homemade lasagne
and some homemade chicken curry

both brought over by amazing friends

I have chicken, pots and veg lined up for tomorrow from the awesome Purplepillow

I've managed to sleep a little

Glad to hear that you're being looked after.

Trinity. We've never 'spoken' on here but I'm a constant namechanger/long time lurker and know your story.

I'm so sorry that life is so unfair and so unutterably sad for some, and I'm sorry you are bearing the brunt of that truth.

Eating is good, sleeping is good, and the support of friends is good. Sending love to you and your family. Take each day as it comes, what else is there to do?

xxxx

Still thinking of you. Glad you are managing to eat.

Photos are lovely, he looks a great big bundle of love and fun.

Eating and sleeping are all you need to be doing right now.

I'm pleased to hear that your local friends are being so practical and supportive.

Xxxxxx

Eat , sleep and one foot in front of the other bloody foot . I am so , so sad for you. I hope you can get to the stage when you can lie down without your ears filling with tears . Take heart from the fact that you filed his life with love.
Best wishes to you all both big and small. XXXX

Oh Trinty... I cannot believe it. I am so sorry for you and the childrenas I kept seeing you around on here and was thinking "things are improving nicely" for our TrintyR. Bugger. Arse. It's not fair.

Thinking of you and your gang. X

Another one who had to check the date. So very sorry to hear this awful news. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

I've added a couple more photos
I'm snuggling into bed now with my girls
A very close friend of mine arrived this afternoon from far away
she is here for the foreseeable future
I'm going to try and get some sleep

thankyou to all

night, Trin, i hope you get some sleep.

I'm pleased you will have someone with you
The pictures are lovely, I cannot believe the size of gecko, I remember her being born, DP looks like a lovely man.

I hope you can get some sleep.

Night Trinity.

gecko looks so like you, and the ring is gorgeous. I'm so glad that you can wear it.

You have some great friends and I'm relieved to hear that you have someone with you.

Xxxxx

What a beautiful ring, he must have loved you very much. Hope you all get some sleep and enjoy the snuggles- look after each other xxx

Goodnight Trin. I hope sleep finds you and eases your grief for a short time xxx

the ring is beautiful, Trin.

Night pet xxx

Wishing you restful sleep tonight.
Glad you've got food and friendship to sustain you.
Good night x.

TrinityRhino I just wanted to be another one saying that the images will fade. It does take time - to start with it's like a tape that plays in your head every time you close your eyes and you feel as though it's driving you mad because you can't get away from it. But gradually it lessens and eventually stops. Then one day you'll be able to think about it without seeing the vivid pictures - it turns back into a '2D' memory instead of one you're actually experiencing. I hope that makes sense. Hugs to you (I don't really do online hugs but you deserve one you poor dear thing) xxx

Trin xxx

I cannot tell you how sorry I am to hear this. I actually said 'what the fu..' when I saw the date of your post.

We are here for you. We stand behind you, along side you and with you as much as we can.

My sincerest condolences darling. I wish you strength for the next few days.

xxx