I cant help it, I need you lot, dp died yesterday, I cant stop seeing it, it hurts so much

[TrinityRhino]

everything hurts, I cant close my eyes without seeing it happening
he collapsed at home
I did chest compressions till the ambulance came
they tried for ages but he was gone
I cant stop seeing it
my arms hurt, my heart hurts
I'm exhausted
I cant do this again

Certainly by 8.15 probably by 8 . I have a school meeting at 8.15 this week to do a orientation before the daily briefing.
I will be thinking of you and sending you strength for such a hard conversation.

Should be someone there from 8, Trin.

And should be totally understanding about time off etc

oh Trin :( sending you huge fierce hugs

There should be someone there around 8 trinity.

I think a duvet day for you and the girls would be an idea, maybe some dvds and talking about your dp.

I really hope that you and gecko can get some sleep today.

Life has already flung far too much shite your way but I'm another who can assure you that the images fade and slowly they are replaced with images of the person you love laughing, or playing with the kids.

ill start trying at 8

Oh no...this made me do a double take and check the date at the top.... Then I remembered with sinking heart that the details were different last time......

Trinity I am sosorry for your loss. It is incomprehensible that some people seem to get singled out for so much pain and so much mental and emotional challenge in their life, and if I thought there was God responsible for putting you though this again, after all you have overcome and achieved since the dark days after your DH's death, I would climb up the ladder to heaven and kick his butt. Very hard.

Please remember that the love and support of MN has brought you back from the depths of despair before and everyone will be there to do it again. Stay strong. xxxx

You don't know me but I had to post as I have been thinking about you and your girls since I saw the thread. So, so sorry for your loss and for the unfairness of it all, thinking of you x

Is there anyone who could phone for you?

Trin - just checking in to say you're in my thoughts and I'm sending you lots of love and huggles from the MouseHouse xx

Am so sorry for ur loss,stay strong

Trin,someone I know has also lost 2 partners in the last 5 years or so. Her second partner was a widower so she is now caring for his two children too. I know she is a member of WAY, not sure if you are already a member but she is getting a lot of support there. Thinking of you and your dcs.

I know someone who has lost two partners far too young as well. It is truly an awful thing to have to bear.

I am sure a day at home is absolutely the right thing to do today.
It seems to have hit Gecko now, doesn't it? .

Here's wishing for a peaceful day today.

Sending you all lots of love

So sorry for your loss Trinity such lovely photo's, wishing you love & strength x

Checking in with you this morning. X

I've rung the schools
they are very understanding and shocked
never thought I'd be making that phone call twice

Well done trinity, making those calls was very brave and strong xxx

Ive looked at your pictures, he looks like a lovely happy man, the ring is lovely too.

Love to you and your girls x

I'm terribly sorry to read this and send condolences and much strength to you and your delightful girls.

Thank you for sharing your photos Trinity.

Your girls are beautiful and Cliff looks like a cracking bloke!

It looks like his heart was full of love for you and the girls.

So sorry to see your shocking news Trin. Your photos show a lovely man, happy with his family - I hope that those pictures will push others out of your head very soon. Another one virtual hand holding offering a hug.

Thinking of you and your girls. Xxxx

Oh Trinity, I've been offline all weekend and just seen this. I am so so sorry - it's so unfair.

Much love and hugs to you and the girls xx