I cant help it, I need you lot, dp died yesterday, I cant stop seeing it, it hurts so much

[TrinityRhino]

everything hurts, I cant close my eyes without seeing it happening
he collapsed at home
I did chest compressions till the ambulance came
they tried for ages but he was gone
I cant stop seeing it
my arms hurt, my heart hurts
I'm exhausted
I cant do this again

Yet another one here who had to check the date.

You don't know me but I too know your backstory.

I am so very, very sorry that you're in this dark place again.

Just one breath at a time.

Christ. I don't know what else to say.

Giraffes - you are ace, you really are, keeping some 'fun' in the girl's day is just brilliant, after all of this, they must be confused as to whether they can carry on or not.

Should they sit and cry or can they be themselves, do what they normally would be doing on a Saturday afternoon? Will Trin be upset if they're not sad all of the time.............. gah, it's just so unfair and feckin awful! I know she wouldn't be upset with them, not at all, not ever.

But this isn't the first time is it? I know they were younger then, If only we could turn back time, or all had a magic wand, or could stop bad things happening to nice people. If only.

Pillow amazes me. I hope her mum is okay, she has so much on and yet is giving back too. How wonderful. :)

I'm glad you guys are there xx

I'm so pleased that MN exists and is the place that it is. The support is unconditional when things like this happen. It blows me away.

I am so, so sorry Trinity xxx

So so sorry Trinity. My thoughts are with you and your family.

Trinity - I'm so so sorry. You've dealt with enough already x

de lurking and, as, everyone else has - I checked the date, thought it was a bad dream you had had and then realised. Just - no words. So so sad for you all.

I,too,am honoured to be a member of this mindblowing community that is Mumsnet

Big hugs Trinity xxxx

Fuck sake Trin. Not again.

Tears here for you.

Girrafe and pillow, if I can do anything, provide lunchboxes for the little ones, sort school uniforms etc let me know x

No way :( how utterly unfair and awful. How can this happen twice :(

So sorry trinity. Glad to hear you have friends with you in RL.

I am so sorry to read this, how awful that this has happened to you again.

Life is so cruel.

My thoughts with you all

OMG Trinity, how bloody unfair.

Like others, I read your OP & double checked the date.

So sorry for you.

Fuck I also thought this must be a resurrected thread.

So sorry there are no words. Much love to you and your family x

I'm so very sorry trinity (((hugs)))

so very sorry. You shouldn't be going through this again.

As others have said, the images from last night will fade. But please ask for help from GP if they get too much.

Oh trinity, I am so so sorry :(

So sorry Trinity my thoughts are with you and your family. x

I can't believe that one family has had something so awful happen to them again.

That's just beyond being shit and unfair.

Giraffes and purple, thanks for being there for Trinity and her girls. If the rest of us can help in any way at all - holler!

Xxxx

I'm so sorry for your loss-I'm another one reeling in disbelief that more shit has come your way

Trinity - so sad.

Please believe there is nothingmore you could have done.

Truly awful, I can't imagine what you are going through ((hug))

Don't try to get away from your emotions, feel them all in their entirety, grief, anger, happiness (at nice memories), sadness etc. Don't fight it.
Sleep/eat when you can. You are probably on auto pilot right now anyway.
Ask for help if you need to

Giraffes, you are amazing! An angel with invisible wings

My sympathies, too, Trinity. Wishing you as much comfort as you need to get you through.

Oh Trinity, I'm so sorry to read this, my heart breaks for you and your DC. Thinking of you xxxx