I'm scared

[Underthesea65]

I know there's no magical answer but I just need to get my thoughts out. Sorry. I'm terminally ill. I'm 38 with an amazing DH, one adult daughter and one nearly adult daughter (19 and 17). I've just spent three weeks in hospital getting blood transfusions and iron infusions and currently I head to the emergency day procedure every three days for more. I have scope tests amd another procedure next Sunday. I'm in agonising pain, even with the highest dose morphine. I can do nothing for myself. I can't stop crying. I know there's people in far worse positions than me but I'm just struggling so badly at the moment. I know this thread is completely pointless to everyone reading it, but I just needed to vent, sorry

Just wanted to update you all that I'm home again. Drinking lots of lovely cups of tea and just resting.

That is lovely news x

Glad to hear OP. Your DH sounds like a wonderful man. I hope he gets a little break too.

He really is. And yes, we've had a pretty chilled afternoon. It's been nice

That sounds like a MUCH better day!

Nothing like a cup of tea! xx

How's u op?

Hi all, I'm not doing too well the past few days. So I'm sorry I haven't been on. I'm struggling so badly with everything

@Underthesea65 sorry to hear this, have you been well enough to eat and drink? Have you had any decent sleep? X

@Underthesea65 , well I want you to know that, whether you post or not, U have changed everyone on here for the better. We are all sending you our love and strength, and we will all think about U always.xx

I've been able to manage one meal a deal but I'm always terrible ill after it, but I know I need some food so I'm trying my best. Drinking plenty, so that's a plus. Sleep has been awful. Nightmares every time I close my eyes.

Awh thank you so much. That really is so kind of you to say. Thank you ❤️❤️

@Underthesea65 well, it's true. I think about U every day and I'm sure we all do. Uve made an impact. And a good one.🤗🤗🤗

That really is one of the kindest things that anyone has ever said to me and thank you for thinking about me. It really does help knowing I have people who don't even know me, that care about me 💕

@Underthesea65 everything I've said here, I genuinely mean.🤗🤗🤗, so thank you for making me smile and care and feel helpful
Xx

God love you. Sending lots of love and hugs.

I missed your original post so just caught up now.

You are incredible - strong, brave and warm. I hope you get some rest. ❤️

@Teasie123 lovely posts! Sending best wishes op x

Thank you all so much 😊❤️

Ah @Teasie123 you wee love!

@Underthesea65 since you mentioned crunchies they've had a bit of a resurgence in my treat cupboard and my wee boy has autism - complete with the American accent, ear phones and being a famously fussy eater. But like most he does love a bit of Cadburys and he went rooting and decides he'd try the crunchie unbeknownst to me.
I heard a very distressed (remember the American accent) "mommy! Mom! Hey mom! What is this yellow bastard doing in the chocolate?" 😂

He's just turned 6 🙈

🤣😂🤣😂 oh my goodness, you have made me laugh so so so much. Thank you!! I needed this so badly tonight. I have been crying for the past 2 hours and felt so hopeless. Your little boy sounds absolutely amazing!! 😍😍

@Lwrenn
That's hilarious 🤣😂🤣😂

@Underthesea65
My little Daisy dog sends snuggles

Awh she is just the sweetest little thing!! 😍😍😍 What age is she?

She's 9 weeks old and full of mischief

I'm typing this under the covers so she doesn't see I'm awake!!!

@Lwrenn that made me chuckle! Bless him. How are you today op? Hope you managed some sleep. @Tilllly daisy is gorgeous. We lost our pooch just before Xmas it broke my heart x