Just Surf, feat Lost and The Small Mercies

[ILostItInTheEarlyNineties]

Hello and welcome to our support thread for anyone struggling with cocaine. Whether you want to quit, cut down or are someone whose life is affected, all welcome.
We offer non judgemental advice, tips, some silly chat and most importantly lots of support and encouragement.

Come and join and we'll all help each other surf the urges!

Hope you're alright today too Hooch?

How you doing Ping? If it's any consolation I feel pretty shite too and also have some left. Only did a bit but drank vodka, smoked fags and had 3 hours sleep. I've had chest pains in the past but still here. I've been doing it in and off for about 18 years! Did it a lot more it my 30's, I'm 48 now but still once or twice a month. I had to have my heart checked this year for something unrelated and got a clean bill of health so all those years haven't damaged me yet, not that it makes it ok.

You will be fine, as the others said you're anxious and panicked and that's making it worse. Try and have a dose on sofa in front of tv and take lots of slow deep breathes. If you're really worried call 111, I once had the emergency doctor out in middle of night after a session cos I thought I had an ectopic pregnancy, I am the worlds worst hypochondriac keep posting on here if it helps today xx

Not too bad thanks Lost. Felt horrendous earlier but made it into work and have been mainly staring at my pc blankly ever since. Should save the rest until I see Mr Rehab tomorrow but just want it gone so I never have to feel like this again... famous last words...

Well done on making it into work hooch!

Good luck with your Big Night Out tonight Serial! Hope you have a game plan... avoid that first line, everything's fine...play the film to the end.. and don't forget to enjoy yourself (in moderation)

All this talk of terrible comedowns is making me crave some tonight. I'm clearly an absolute nutcase.

Oh and have a good time with your friends tonight Cleaning. Hope you have your sensible head on!

I have a cold! I'm almost happy about it - no sniffing will be happening tonight! Am treating myself to a fag though. I'm not a total saint!

I think saints are allowed a fag now and again. Sorry fate has intervened with a cold though!

At least I have a legit reason for a red, runny nose!

Thank you for all your replies and advice. I really do appreciate it. You have all made me feel so much better. Currently sat drinking prosecco waiting for an Indian take Away to arrive. So far so good. Feeling so much better than I did this morning! Have been looking up my friends noses 🤣 I’m sure mine is worse than theirs ha. Hope you’re all having peaceful relaxing evenings xx

I have gone massively overboard. Sorry everyone. Am currently drinking beer so that I can actually lie down in bed. Sleep won't happen. I'm going to feel really shit tomorrow aren't I?

Oh Lordy Serial that was a surprise. Hope the beer helped you get in a horizontal position at least!
It's impossible to have a couple of lines and stop eh? I'm the same, one sniff and I'm thinking In for a penny, in for a pound and go mad.
Take it easy today

I stayed on board but some friends came over and I got really pissed. I think I was drinking as a displacement activity as craving it like mad last night. Argh my head.

Hope it's a good morning for everyone else.

Happy Birthday Rholst enjoy your day.

The beer did help. God bless Dr Lager. Had the obligatory 3 hours of sleep and feel like shit!

Mr Rehab came over a day early, we finished it and got more. I may have slept at some point. I am a chain smoking quivering wreck. Thankfully DS not back until tomorrow. Toying with the idea of a dry November. Hugs to you Serial and well done for staying onboard Lost. I'm off to curl up in a ball somewhere

It was inevitable Hooch if you had some leftovers..concentrate on making yourself well today Early night tonight!
Just summoning up the will to do a huge Tesco shop with the hangover from Hell.
This thread is carnage this morning! Hopefully Cleaning is quiet because she's out jogging or something.

Yesterday was clearly mad Friday! Am feeling more human now. Hope everyone else is doing ok.

Hello Hello!

Sorry my phone was playing up. I did dip my toe in last night, we split a g between 4 of us so the damage was relatively limited. We were offered more but didn't take it. Slowly but surely I see little signs of progress.. I drank a lot on an empty stomach tho, silly girl.

Glad you're feeling better Ping and Happy Birthday Rholst

No jogging for me- on the sofa with my boys watching movies

Passing up the offer of more is great progress in my book Cleaning. You're a stronger woman than I am! Once I'm on it, I'm on it.

No jogging here either, I've collapsed in front of the tv. The dc are out at a Halloween party.. but I've decided not to turn into a halloween coke fiend while they're out, which is progress.

How are we all doing today?

Morning, have slept a lot and feel a bit better, although rather dazed and in despair with myself. Even the cats are giving me dirty looks! Mr Rehab is still here and wish he would bugger off so I can start putting this weekend behind me. I need to not see him anymore and find something else to fill my time when DS is away. Have deleted my only dealers number so that should put pay to making calls whilst drunk. I also need to stop drinking so much, I may have done 5 weeks without but my drinking is still far too much. Anyway self pitying rant over. Hope everyone is ok, have a good day all x

Feeling quite good here after a lorry load of sleep. I need to overhaul things a bit too Hooch. I'm in danger of replacing one vice with another really but let's think positive and proactive!

Inspired by how clear headed I feel today, I'm aiming for another week clean and cutting back on the booze. I think I'll start with not drinking spirits and sticking to beer and wine on my cornflakes ha ha joking.

If that goes well I'm trying for my 1 month surfing badge, which I still haven't achieved!

Deleting numbers is a bold move. Now put on your running gear and tell Mr. Rehab you're going for a jog. That will probably get rid of him.

Have a great Sunday all x

Loads of sleep here too! Feel 100% better than this time yesterday. How can something that makes you feel so good make you feel so bad too? Still trying not to smoke, if I gave up wine too I think my body would go into shock!

Sending you all

I think that’s the key - remembering how shit you feel after the high.

Honestly, despite too much booze ladies , my moods are so much more even . I think I am .... 6/7 weeks in?

My dealer is in town the weekend after next. For the first time in 6 years I am NOT going to pre order any.

Also think cutting out the spirits is a grand idea!