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Right you can do this snowball we are all behind you! Load some of baths, sleeping and eating to refuel your body with what it needs. Keeps posting here! Can you delete his number and ask him not to contact you at all that would maybe be easier for you.

Good luck today snowball. Get some rest.

Honestly up for this. Currently pacing around the house! Absolutely no reason why except I know there is nothing here.

Normally I'd be fine but that's because I knew it would be coming xxxc

Try to stay in the moment, snow don't think too far ahead. If you're restless then distraction is best. Keep busy to keep your mind occupied; tidy up, watch tv, read, make a cake or go for a walk (borrow your mum's dog?) or it sounds daft but get some pens and colour something in!

If you can eat something like some warm soup or hot drinks it will help. You will soon start to feel better.
I know it's fucking hard

Amazing snowball!!
3.30, and you've gone 8 hours!
Just have one hour at a time, try to rehydrate and lay in hot bath as long as you want.

Are you up for some trash tv?

Fresh prince of bel air is on Comedy Central

He is been supportive. Even asked if we should go away for a few days. But I'm worried that maybe too much too soon X

I got to say you might not be in the right head space to go away, maybe see how you feel tomorrow?

Glad he's being supportive, snow. Keep strong, evenings are worse for me but at the moment you're doing great. I'm massively impressed with your determination!

Going away is something to look forward to in the future. It's important to have things to look forward to because after a while clean you do start to think, Is this it? Everything seems a bit flat so days out or treating yourself, having other things planned, really helps.

Surf on!

God sorry, I do ramble on don't I?

I said this morning if I ask for anything just ignore me or say no.

About an hour ago I asked what he was doing and maybe I'm trying too much too soon and should have a plan b?

He said that would be the easy way out! I know he's right. X

Snowball Iv started watching the box set on sky scandal it's really addictive and helping me stay distracted at the weekend when I'd normally be climbing the walls.

You are doing amazing, well done. You do NOT need it. Plan a weekend away for a few weeks time maybe? You can go look for places to go just now to keep you occupied! I take it if you went away he'd just not take anything with him if you are off it? Does he take it?

He's my dealer.

Oh Gawd, you don't make things easy for yourself, snow

I think if he respects you, he needs to respect your sobriety. You are going to need real strength with this so make sure you put yourself first. You will be vulnerable until you get a handle on this. x

He is 100% behind me doing this.

We both joke on about it, saying stuff like drugs are for mugs! And then well it pays your bills and puts a smile on my face!

How you feeling snowball?

Has he called?

Snowball - how are you this evening?! Like lost says, keep in the moment.

Hope you're doing ok Snow, sending hugs. Do you do exercise at all? I took up running and it really helps to distract you and gives you a bit of a high afterwards. Not suggesting you go for a run now but something like that might help long term. Short term maybe have a drink to take the edge off? x

Hope we're all alright tonight.
I'm feeling really strong on my surfboard tonight so any wobblers can cling on to me! Sorry that sounds really smug, I'm sure I'll be wobbling in a few days..

Hi Hoochi I sometimes think about taking up running or something. The main thing holding me back is that I can't seem to kick the fags and if any of my party friends saw me jogging they'd probably piss themselves laughing.

You should try it Lost, it's quite addictive ha ha. I smoke a bit, only 1 or 2 a day and still manage it. Went today for first time in ages, ran/ walked 3 miles in pouring rain and felt so much better for it!

ran/walked 3 miles in pouring rain ...Sounds amazing

I'm only doing it in nice weather (wimp!) but thanks for the encouragement.

I've managed to sleep for a little while. I'm not going to put tv on, hope I can get maybe an hour or two.

Thank you all so much for everything xxx

Snow, rest, chill take it hour by hour.

Lost - don't laugh but I run and cycle!! At least 3 times a week! I'm not a super athlete - I do a 5k jog or 10 mile cycle. Wear all the proper gear too!

That first day is the worst and it will get better from here!

So happy you've slept and made it through today x

Snow some sleep will do you the WORLD of good! That is just what the doctor ordered. Massive well done today. You surfed good!

Serial I want to be you. You smoke, drink, party, surf like a pro and now you're telling me you're a fucking athlete Fuck's sake.

I'm consoling myself that you can't sucessfully wax your top lip

I'm not a proper athlete! I'm also incapable of plucking my eyebrows and at times resemble my boyfriend Liam!