The Brave Babes Battle Bus - A New Year, A New YOU!

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New Year Resolutions Anyone?

Welcome one and all, I'm Mouse, nice to meet YOU. :)

This is a thread for those who want to give up drink completely, or are maybe thinking about doing controlled drinking, or cutting down slowly, it's all up to you.

You know your limits, you know what is required, it's in YOUR hands.

Whatever your goal, you'll find unconditional support here. Always.

There will be talk of drinking quite often and those who fall off the Bus will post about it, so if that is going to jeopardise your chances of complete sobriety, then maybe the DRY threads would suit you better, as they are complete abstainers, but EVERYONE IS WELCOME HERE :)

There are no hard and fast rules, other than the support here is unconditional, it may be in the form of tough love at times, but it's always meant with the very best of intentions.

There are two sayings that we rather like here -

1. • The Vulnerable Need Our Support, Not Our Judgement
2. • Alcohol Fosters Inertia

For those of you who'd like some history, here is the very first thread and the reason that we're all here now. FIRST THREAD

And here is the lastest thread, which you can scroll back through to see the other JOURNEYS SO FAR

The Bus may be 'mythical', but the support is real, it is honest and it will help you to achieve what it is that you seek, as long as you are honest with us, but mostly, YOURSELF

See you soon. x

Afternoon gorgeous babes

The bus is moving really fast again but I'm determined to get back on. So I'll say hi to beaches and soc and annie and obrigada and fairie and looking because they have all posted today!
Big wave at everyone else and a squeeze for anyone who wants one.
hello to scu and I hope you get lots of great support here from.

I'm doing my best to get a grip.I've fallen into the habit of having a couple of glasses of wine on friday night. I'm not sure how I feel about it all yet because it's new. I don't think I want to be totally sober but I suspect that my drinking will start to creep up on me again. I need to find out for myself despite listening to everyone in aa point out that this is what drinkers do when they get to a year sober.

I took out some of books from aa and read bits of them this morning which helped me to feel focused and calm. I'm going to try to post on the bus everyday and to be honest when I'm looking at a bottle because I think it will help me to decide what I want to do.

I'm sort of trying to post about how I feel because you can say anything on the bus and I am very open to listening to advice. This feels like yet another new start for me- either I learn how to moderate eventually or it really does need to be sobriety for ever. If I choose to be sober then how will I sustain it,aa is not for me long term. (It was AWESOME for a very long time so I do not say that lightly and am not going to critise)

I am not going to drink today : )

How did she get on hope? Luckily glasses are so fashionable now that even people who don't need them get them with clear lenses just to look good.

Sorry chipping,I have no problem with aa. I don't go anymore for personal reasons- ie. my feelings changed over time,not because I think that aa is a cult.There are lots of ways of getting help in rl,aa is just one of those ways.

Here's how you leave AA chipping : Don't go to the next meeting.

And when the AA van pulls up silently outside your house or place of work, try applying more tinfoil to your hat, and when the emotionally manipulative texts like, "Are you ok"? start coming in from the cult leaders, just text back, "I'm fine, not feeling it today and maybe I won't ever want to go back, thanks for asking", and then if your cult enforcer your sponsor gets involved, "Just say you don't want to go anymore".

Then don't go.

It's spam guggs. Report it. I did. If everyone reports it will come to HQ's attention quicker.

How are you doing why?

I'm sort of okay, thanks faire. Court next week my lawyer thinks.

Hang on in there why. There can't be that many more hoops to jump through x

'Lo there why and faire

Will report.

guggs Hey there lovely lady.

Oh no, there's many more hoops to jump through. Even though I have unsupervised contact, and all SS reports are calling for reunification and the court itself is calling for a review of the entire removal process, child services have in their wisdom decided to oppose me and my child being reunited. So more court.

But really happy to hear that you can unsupervised access why. How old is he now?

He will be 1 at the end of the month. Social services are happy to see this all wrapped up and to go away so then focus on cases where children were actually at risk or abused or neglected. My case does not fit that criteria. But as I've said before and my lawyer has said before, this is a case of lawyers cutting their teeth and that one vindictive little cow at SS.

My lawyer said I am in the best position she can have a client.

It's really just paper work at this stage.

Oh fingers crossed for a happy reunion for his first birthday, or very soon afterwards. What a year you've had x

It has been a watershed year for me alright. I can tell you that I feel as sea change in me.

I don't know that it is a good change and its hard to explain.

I don't think I will process it all (or even any part of it) until I have my son back with me.

Some part of me has died. And I don't know if I should grieve it or celebrate it. And I don't know what part of me is left. I don't know if its new me, or stripped down old me. I don't even know if it is me. And I don't care.

I just know that every day my son is healthy is a good day.

I know what you're saying why, it's like you have been left on hold for a long, long time. Unable to make plans or decide your own future. It will take a long time to come to terms with. That's why it's best to just take each day as it comes for now x

A day at a time is no way to live long term though.

No, you're right. Just to get through the rough bits, but not a long term solution. No good for mental and emotional wellbeing. Once you have all this behind you, hopefully things will come together for you why and you can start to take your life back.

You sound a little low today, are you ok? Or at least as ok as you can be?

Just another horrible nightmare last night. They were taking my baby away from me when he was living with me. I felt horror in the dream and it seemed to last for hours, lots of screaming. Threw up when I was awake. Cried for an hour after realizing it was a dream.

This happens about 4 times a week. The psychologist has diagnosed me with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.

STOP POSTING - NEW THREAD ON THE WAY AND IF YOU POST I WON'T BE ABLE TO LINK!!!

SORRY!!!!

NEW THREAD!!!!

Sorry Babes, I had to get Nemo to bed. I see we had yet another visit from Chipping, well I'm glad it's on the last page, so we can leave it behind.

FFS

Why - massive squidges to you xxx

Right, Gerald is ready when you lot are

See you over there gorgeous Babes xxx

why stay strong. Only takes 1 ss bitch to derail things. I KNOW that.
You have jumped through many hoops, you can jump through a few more.
Keep jumping, keep going forward until your baby is back for good. Big hugsxx

I want a new start on the new thread so I'll fess up here. My 2 bottle limit
went out thew window this weekend. Nuff said.
In the sidecar tonight.
See you all tomorrow on the new thread in WW fighting mode.
Night babes xx

Right you lot - over we go!! xxx