Diary of a commitment phobe

[fairyfly]

I have not seen my boyfriend for 2 weeks.
He just picked me up.
I sat in his house and asked what was going on.
He said, why don't you just get the hint. You are a needy hassling nag. When i dont see you for two weeks it is because i dont want to be with you. Get out of my house. I began to cry, he said see........ you just fuck me off, go away.

I dont think i want to go through a shagging phase, it was pretty crap, i thought though if i could just do that one thing it would make me further away from him and kind of give it some closure.

It didn't work, it just made me feel like a slapper.

Hmmmm, i spent Christmas day waiting for him, it was horrid.

I think beetroot to be honest about the good looking thing that he is just at the same level as me.

Sometimes strategic sh*gging around can get you out of a rut ( in my experience) and remind you that there are other men out there... though everything in moderation

Any time you are tempted to call him remind yourself how he made you feel on xmas day.

Yes, there's no empowerment in cheap sex..no matter how many times we see it on the telly

The one thing that makes me panic and not stay strong is the thought of him bewing with someone else, that definetly makes me want to cling on.

Funyy how we torture ourselves with these thoughts.

It makes me want to be sick.

You sound so like me FF. Try to focus on your boys..I know that's easier said than done. Can you go away with them on a little holiday maybe now terms up?

I know exactly how that feels, used to make me want to hurl
But that passes I promise.
Do everything you can not to think about it... and remind yourself off of the men you used to feel like that about-- and don't anymore.

Anyway it sounds like you got in there first with the scottish bloke

They are at school, i cant afford it either.

I will just keep busy, and post a lot, it's stopping me ringing him now.

The corrective is to think of him pissing them off as well - and thinking 'christ, I'm well rid!'

ff I want you and the boys down here in the summer. Please.

And theer's no chance of you becoming friends again?

I cant be his friend, not yet, he's hurt me too much.

The weird thing is he adored me for years and years and chased me, the worst mistake i made was telling him i loved him back, it ruined it!

I would love to Anorak.

Let's make definite plans for that.

ok, something to look forward to and i promise i will keep my nickers on..

I really feel shit.

I'm waiting for something and i dont know what it is, i'm just walking from room to room looking around.

when the kids back

Half an hour

put the sond of music on and sing

He's just texted he still loves me, funny way of showing it.

fucvking hilarious

exact expat..

Well my head is well and truly fucked with.

Aaaargh. He is never going to make you happy FF he is always going to f*ck with your mind like this. Don't weaken. Get rid.