Diary of a commitment phobe

[fairyfly]

I have not seen my boyfriend for 2 weeks.
He just picked me up.
I sat in his house and asked what was going on.
He said, why don't you just get the hint. You are a needy hassling nag. When i dont see you for two weeks it is because i dont want to be with you. Get out of my house. I began to cry, he said see........ you just fuck me off, go away.

True, MT. Easiest thing is to carry the condoms on your person somewhere. I always did .

Never met a one-nighter who wasn't willing to use one, no matter how drunk.

FF, do you think that you and this man would have a happy future together? Doesn't sound like it to me. Unless you think this is just a row that got a bit out of hand, it would be mad to go back to a guy who thinks so badly of you. If you did that, you would be indicating to him that you think so little of yourself that you would rather be with someone who doesn't like you very much than no one at all.
I've been single since my last relationship finished last November & it really isn't so bad!
Big hugs to you though - tough time for you.

I think you've got to be really honest about yourself as a person and know whether you could handle the rebound shags as well

if it makes you feel crap, don't do it. there's no shame in that if that's the kind of person that you are. you can get over someone just as well without using sex to do it

I'd've loved to be like expat and be able to enjoy flings but I realised a long time ago that I can't do the sex without involvement thing and steered clear of it to avoid getting hurt

and especially I'd not do it if it was just to get back at an ex. everything you do, from now on, needs to be for you and your child.

hmmm, i don't really need the discussion on safe sex. I must point out that i had sex as i just liked him, i was sober, i wanted to move on.
I didn't go out seeking a shag and company he just happened to cheer me up and make me laugh a lot.

I sent a text just before we started to kiss saying, enough was enough, im moving on, then i did.

The mistake was thinking it would help me move on and forget about him, it did nothing, i'm still yearning for him but now with added bonus of feeling like a bit of a slapper.

But the good thing about what i did is the realisation that i was capable of doing it.That i could actually physically have sex with someone else. It prorbably means i am not in love as much as i should be anymore. It may seem iresponsible and daft but for me it was very mature. I could have been begging my x not to leave me, drunkenly ringing him or turning up at his house, i just relyed on escapism for a day to get me through it. Otherwise i would have been in hysterics.

Theres no chance of getting brought down by another man as i'm not fussed about him, i don't really care. I'm not looking for anything so i'm wearing the trousers ( hypothetically of course, i've actually had them round my ankles haven't i)

No other man is important to me, i'm praying my x sorts his head out more than anything and trying to stay positive that he will, obviouisly i am still in love with him.

Hopefully some people will be thinking that by the time he comes round i will have moved on, who knows whats going to happen.

I just want to get through this lonely bit, he is everywhere i look and i cant imagine summer wothout him.

so when is your date?

Dunno, he just rang, i said i was busy and could he rang back later as i just haven't made up my mind.
I'm finding it all a bit embarassing.

how you doing mrs