The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Carry On Past The Christmas Party (part 1)

[TheMousefaceBeforeChristMouse]

Hello.

Welcome to The Brave Babes Bus. I'm Mouseface and I used to abuse alcohol and to be honest, there is always a risk that I'll do it again.

This is a bus journey for those who drink too much, or drink now and then, not at all, or actually aren't quite sure what their drinking means to them.

Come and meet the other Brave Babes, everyone is welcome.

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JWN's original thread

Just had a lovely chat with my 2 DC about life, the universe and everything - off to bed a happy mum
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Knew I wouldn't be able to sleep. Puts me in mind of last night when DD couldn't sleep and I kept saying to her 'you just have to keep on trying love' - what bloody useless advice is that - and I've got to flippin work tomorrow. Ah well as MIFLAW always says lacking a bit of sleep won't kill you.

xxx

Aha - just realised I am now into day 2 of sobriety.

Today I will not be drinking xxx

Silver I hope you got some sleep and are feeling ok. Were you drinking enough to need Librium, given that you said you have in the past?

I have a babysitter booked to go to AA tonight. No more slipping for me I hope - but one day at a time. Have been finding it seriously tough lately. DP is coming over for serious talking on Wednesday and I am a bit worried. ODAAT though - today is enough to deal with for now. Am enjoying my new job and new house though, so feel mostly very lucky.

Hope Nemo and the little twins slept ok.

silver well done you.

noteven good morning. Hope meeting goes well. What time is your partner coming tomorrow night? Can you prepare with nice soft drinks and some treats and maybe a new film to watch and distract you don't feel the need to drink if he upsets you?

Christi thank you - those are good suggestions. How are you? How are things at home?

morning all!!

got a usual manic sort of day here, trying to keep up with my deadlines so we can all get a resonanable bit of time off over christmas - i havent got to as many meetings as i would have liked but im doing ok - i shall be going tomorrow, i have planned the day so that i can go.

silver, hang on in there - the sleep will come eventually!

Morning everyone:)

Morning everyone

Well done on AA Silver

Hope things go OK today Thurso - fingers crossed

How is today demented after your row

Hello everyone. I am a happy person this morning - the tiles for my bathroom have arrived at last . The deliveries have been chaotic because of the snow and the bathroom chappies have been waiting for a week to get on with the tiling. Maybe I will have my new bathroom ready in time for Christmas. At the moment I am ashamed to see the 1970's beige toilet and sink sitting in the skip outside out house - it looks really horrid, especially because the toilet has got all grimy and so it looks as though we hadn't cleaned it .

noteven can you ask dp to take the ODAAT approach with your relationship - so no pressure from long term promises or threats, just get on with communicating and supporting each other on a day-to-day basis. I thought Christi's suggestion was very good - planning drinks / activities to keep you sober if things get emotional. I will add that to my list of tactics.

Hi to JWN witchity wasindie silver red and all others, and a special hug for mouse and nemo for a wonderful family christmas-time together.

Morning all.

Balls to dieting, it's Christmas!!

Today I have a doctor coming out to see me. He is from CMHT (Community Mental Health Team).

My own GP is kind of at a loss as to what to prescribe me as I don't 'appear' to be improving in terms of panic attacks and depression.

Anyway, I'm shitting myself. I'm scared to death that he'll have me sectioned or something. I know that's me just being daft but still. I didn't sleep a wink!!

My GP has stopped my meds in prepartion too so I think I'm on a bit of a knife edge anyway.

Sorry, I have no idea why I'm waffling on about this. Maybe because I really want a drink. But I know that if he smells booze on me, he won't prescribe me anything.

So, I suppose I'm asking you all to keep me company for a while. He's coming here at 2pm. I will be pottering, dusting etc, making sure the house is as tidy as possible......

thurso - thinking of you xxx

Silver - hoping that day 2 is an easy one and that you can get some sleep tonight!

Hey desire

Washing machine is calling me.......

(It's clever like that! )

Morning Mouse:)
Hope you managed to get some sleep Silver

I will be here all morning to keep you company Mouse, least I can do!

Mouse one of my closest friends has suffered from depression for quite a long time and her experience of it, being a single Mum, is that they do everything they can to help you in terms of medication, extra help with childcare so you can get some 'me' time before they would think of sectioning so please don't be daft

How you doing today Zany, "walk of shame" over:):)

Yes thanks desire I'm OK until the boss walks in grinning at me

Been drinking a bottle a night the last few night which is annoying seen as I was starting to cut down. Decided I'm not going to beat myself up about it as I have been feeling low - I just need to make sure it doesn't continue

MOUSE - s/he will not section you, you loon! Depression is a complicated illness and there are so many different medications out there that maybe, you just need someone with more specialised expertise than your GP to diagnose you correctly and find the medication that works for you.

Keep busy Babe - 2.00pm will come soon enough.

On the note of Doctors I am going to see my GP tomorrow to sort out any medication I might need and tell him the TRUTH - which is that I have been too embarrassed to go back to him because I feel like I have let him down, when he was so totally supportive last time I stopped ( and I fancy the pants off him !!!)

BUT he is my GP and I need to get as many professionals on my side as I can to help me beat this thing so swallow pride and all that and admit that I need more help.

Anyway good excuse to have a secret leer (sp?) .

I'm at work today and then meeting tonight so might not be around too much but I love You All BBs xxxxx

Take some tissues with you Silver in case you drool

Serious question

Silver - do you think he will contact Social Services? Given what has happened to other Brave Babes of late, will he be obliged to involve them?

I have no idea how this works anymore so I'm just thinking out loud I guess.......

Hey mouse CMHT will be the people best placed to help you - they have both the time and the specific expertise to help you find the right combination of medication and therapy. Depression is a complex thing, and yours cannot be helped by your chronic tiredness and lack of sleep from looking after little nemo. Don't forget to tell them how it is for you on the worst days - it is easy to under-exagerate things and to say 'well mostly I'm coping fine' but tell them about the days and nights when nemo needs your almost constant care and you get by on very little sleep. They will NOT section you, but there is one thing that you are right about in your post - DRINKING WILL NOT HELP . At least you have a very postitive tale to tell - you have (at times in your life) used alcohol to help you relax, but now you DO NOT.

Do not worry if you feel emotional or cry when they are there. If they are doing their job properly they will have some time to listen to you, and it may be a relief for you to offload for a bit.

I am sure that once they see how demanding your day to day routine is that they will realise how well you are coping with things. If they offer any extra help then take it. I suffered from PND after my DD and very reluctantly accepted the help the health visitor offered and even baked a cake the first time someone from home help came round so that they could see I was OK, would then cry all afternoon after they had been as I was worried they would think I wasn't looking after the children properly. I have never met you Mouse but you seem an amazing Mum to me.

Mouse why on earth would they need to contact Social Services? Think about it - you are doing the very best for you family - you are not drinking - you just need to find the right medication - your children are in no danger whatsoever and that will be so obvious to him when he vistits.

I COMAND YOU TO STOP WORRYING RIGHT NOW

They are coming to help YOU. just be honest about how you feel - it is not abuse or a crime to be exhausted and you have the support of DH.

Go and watch some naff TV, make a cup of tea and put your feel up for half an hour (Nemo allowing) xx

oh mousy!!, you are a long way from being sectioned!!, you daft old tart!! - thinking about social services, i would imagine that you have so much contact with health visitors and that type of professional because of nemo, if there were any worries of that sort they would have been flagged up pretty soon after he was born! - they can all see you are a doing a great job in bloody difficult circumstances!

like venus says, make sure you tell the truth - there is NO shame in saying that sometimes you might feel total dispair! - tbh, i cant imagine loving parents not feeling like that sometimes when coping with a child with needs like nemo! take any help offered, as a family you deserve it! btw, in my area i do know that SS work with a charity that provide club facilities and things for siblings who may need a bit of break (im not saying dd is suffering in any way!)just that it might be nice for her to have a bit of fun with other kids who understand!

have a ((((( hug)))))) anyway!!

Hopefully my silly funny story will keep your mind of things Mouse

Before I start although I had had a few drinks this is the sort of theing I embarras myself with sober

On friday night I stood up in the bar to show my colleague's husband my tattoo seen as he has had a few done. I then overbalanced and fell, boobs head first onto my boss's knee. Lets just say he definately got an eyefull.

silver!, i believe that there are 2 Ms in command!!

ha ha!! got ya!!!!