Rushes onto bus...
Christi, I am so sorry about the job. I really hope that things turn a corner for you soon. Can you ask them to pass your CV onto other organisations and reccomend you or is that not how it works in your field? I just ask because sometimes when I recruited people I asked other organsiations for people who scored highly in interviews recently and took on a couple of people that way.
Admission time (of thoughts more than deeds)... decided to drink yesterday and got as far as putting wine in the fridge. I made a clear decision to drink. I was sick of the house stuff, arguing with DH, crying, worrying about DD, anxious about work, so I thought fuck it. Why the fuckety not?
Told DH that I would have a glass of wine. Then I said, its quite low alcohol, so I could probably have two really. As I was working out if three would be ok, I realised what I was doing and that I hadn't changed. Wine remains in fridge but I didn't drink last night. I don't know about tonight.
Everyone on here is having such a tough time to be honest I feel like a fraud for struggling. I have a lovely family. We are moving to an lovely house (well, it will be...) in a lovely area. I am healthy. I have my own business and am in demand (although taken on more than I can cope with). Money is a worry but we have identified how to cut back once we move. DH is lovely and supportive (he has now banned me from dealing with house stuff and taken over everything). So why am I anxious and worried all the time? Why do I still feel crappy?
In the meantime I shall slump near the back of the bus. Slight air of the teenage self pitying strops about me but once we set off I shall soon snap out of it.