Totally's GRADS...lets handhold thru this....

[boodleboot]

Ok girls....time to get started....

lee stressy amyboo totally

and of course any other ladies who have recently had a Big Scary Fat Positive and will now literally be counting the days to healthy babe in arms, welcome y'all

i have no idea how i am going to make it but i know that i will need handholding....and knowing lots of you already i know you will too ha ha

{Totally's conception thread got me thus far with lots of handholding and i love them for that....}

BRING ON THE BABIES.....

Heya ladies,
just sent off that article. It's not 100% finished and I am by no means happy with it, but it's presentable and will have to do.

Now, as every time, vowing to not do things at the last moment next time. I hate myself for it, I know it makes me produce inferior stuff (inferior to what I COULD do), and it utterly shatters my confidence. Why is it that I always end up at the same place, although I know it's so bad for me?

Rant over. Off to bed. Finally.

btw good to hear from you MrsRigby, and Lee too - you have been away for ages!

Hi all hope everyones well.Friday again YEH!!!!! Weekends nearly here!!!

Hi MRSR , Welcome back *MEITA" and "LEE" lomg time no hear!!!!

I m exactly the same as you META always leave my work to the last minute!!!!

I m fine everyone at work were soo happy about my scan , even had "cheesy chips" to celebrate!!!!!!
Feeling very tired again, been a funny old week!!!! Nauseaus intermittently again.Off for lunch see you all later

Hi just popping in. You DO sort of know when all not well don't you?

Took myself off to the EPU this morning; the immortal lines "there isn't an eleven week pregnancy here"....

Baby had stopped growing at nine weeks. There's quite a wait for ERPC (I was lucky last time as got "done" the very next day).

So sadly signing off from the grads, and at some point will get back in the saddle on the TTC thread.

Wishing you all happy and healthy pregnancies, I will pop back in to check you're all blooming. Off to cuddle my gorgeous little boy... whether he wants a cuddle or not! x

Oh Jollster.. I dont even know what to say.. except that I know so awfully how you feel..

how hard to find this out this far along the line.. I'm so sorry..

thinking of you all the time and if the other thread has become a bit anonymous and it wasnt too upsetting for you, you could always hang out here

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Jollster, I am so very sorry.
I was thinking of you all morning, somehow I didn't have a good feeling, was dreading your news. Want to give you a big hug now. Though I know that wouldn't help. Nothing really helps at this time.

Everyone, I always find it so sad when people disappear from pregnancy threads due to MC and they are just deleted from the list and leave no trace. I have seen on other forums that sometimes they keep a seperate list, sort of commemorating the losses. It could be like this:

We share the pain and mourn the loss with
Jollster, MMC w9/11, 26th Feb

What do you think? Obviously only if you feel good about this, Jollster.

In the mean time, attempting at updating the list. Cheepz, Effilump, MrsRigby, (hope I haven't missed anyone) please jump on if you feel ready.

Friday:

Amy - BOY - 36 weeks - due 02 April
Hoops - BOY - 36 weeks - due 02 April
Jacanne - girl - 30+1 weeks - due 29th April/6 May - maternity leave starting 26th Feb
Memorylapse - Girl 30+3 weeks - due 4th May
Meita - baby #1 - ??? - 15+3 weeks, due 17th August - MW 4th March, 2nd scan 1st April
Boodleboot - baby #3 - ??? - 11+1 - due? - next scan 1/3/10
TFLS - baby #1 - 9+2 weeks, due 29 Sept
LeeWT - Baby 2 - 1DD 2yrs - 9+1 weeks, due 30th September - 12 wk scan 18.03.10
SamanthaB123 baby #3 6+3 weeks EDD 20th October 2x DD's (11 & 9 years)

We share the pain and mourn the loss with
Jollster - baby#2, MMC w9/11, 26th Feb

The babies are arriving! Huge congratulations to
Totally with daughter Faith Juliet, 9lb5oz born Tuesday 16th February 2010

I think thats a lovely way of doing it Meita.. i felt that way about my two lost ones too that i would have liked to remember them..

just changed my scan date as they are really oversubscribed they cant take me until then..

Friday:

Amy - BOY - 36 weeks - due 02 April
Hoops - BOY - 36 weeks - due 02 April
Jacanne - girl - 30+1 weeks - due 29th April/6 May - maternity leave starting 26th Feb
Memorylapse - Girl 30+3 weeks - due 4th May
Meita - baby #1 - ??? - 15+3 weeks, due 17th August - MW 4th March, 2nd scan 1st April
Boodleboot - baby #3 - ??? - 11+1 - due? - next scan 1/3/10
TFLS - baby #1 - 9+2 weeks, due 29 Sept
LeeWT - Baby 2 - 1DD 2yrs - 9+1 weeks, due 30th September - 12 wk scan 26.03.10
SamanthaB123 baby #3 6+3 weeks EDD 20th October 2x DD's (11 & 9 years)

We share the pain and mourn the loss with
Jollster - baby#2, MMC w9/11, 26th Feb

The babies are arriving! Huge congratulations to
Totally with daughter Faith Juliet, 9lb5oz born Tuesday 16th February 2010

jollster so very very for you honey. Nothing to say that will make any difference at all. Shedding a tear for you. xx

I have been checking back on the old ttc thread and there are alot of new faces and its abit of a dark place at the moment so let us now if you want to hang elsewhere, although viv and zayja and barrenb still very much there.

meita what a wonderful and thoughtful thing to do.

I am adding to the list. Brave enough to do it ... just. As normal my OCD has led me to do some standardisation.

Friday:

Amy - BOY - 36 wks - due 02 April
Hoops - BOY - 36 wks - due 02 April
Jacanne - GIRL - 30+1 wks - due 29th April/6 May - mat leave starts 26th Feb
Memorylapse - GIRL 30+3 wks - due 4th May
Meita - baby#1 - ??? - 15+3 wks, due 17th August - MW 4th March, 2nd scan 1st April
Boodleboot - baby#3 - ??? - 11+1 - due? - scan 1st March
TFLS - baby#1 - 9+2 wks, due 29 Sept
LeeWT - baby#2 (DD1 2yrs) 9+1 weeks, due 30th Sept - 12 wk scan 26th March
SamanthaB123 baby#3(2x DD's 11 & 9 yrs) 6+3 wks EDD 20th October
Cheepz - baby#2 (DS1 2.8) 6 weeks, EDD 22nd Oct, dr appt 3rd march, early (7wk) scan 8th march

We share the pain and mourn the loss with
Jollster - baby#2, MMC w9/@11, 26th Feb

The babies are arriving! Huge congratulations to
Totally with daughter Faith Juliet, 9lb5oz born Tuesday 16th February 2010

Oh Jollster

I'm so sorry. There are no words - it is just so awfully sad. Please don't feel like you need to sign off. We are all here to hold your hand and listen to you cry, scream, whatever. Am thinking of you and wish you as much peace as possible at the moment. xxx

I think meita's idea is lovely.

jollster I'm so sorry .

Sorry to hear your news jollster. Sending you lots of virtual hugs.

Nice to see MrsRigsby on here. We're getting to be quite a bunch now!

Just a quick correction to the list - much as I'd love to be at 36 weeks (if only to bo one week closer to no longer having a head in my ribs), hoops and I are only at 35 weeks today...

Amy - BOY - 35 wks - due 02 April
Hoops - BOY - 35 wks - due 02 April
Jacanne - GIRL - 30+1 wks - due 29th April/6 May - mat leave starts 26th Feb
Memorylapse - GIRL 30+3 wks - due 4th May
Meita - baby#1 - ??? - 15+3 wks, due 17th August - MW 4th March, 2nd scan 1st April
Boodleboot - baby#3 - ??? - 11+1 - due? - scan 1st March
TFLS - baby#1 - 9+2 wks, due 29 Sept
LeeWT - baby#2 (DD1 2yrs) 9+1 weeks, due 30th Sept - 12 wk scan 26th March
SamanthaB123 baby#3(2x DD's 11 & 9 yrs) 6+3 wks EDD 20th October
Cheepz - baby#2 (DS1 2.8) 6 weeks, EDD 22nd Oct, dr appt 3rd march, early (7wk) scan 8th march

We share the pain and mourn the loss with
Jollster - baby#2, MMC w9/@11, 26th Feb

The babies are arriving! Huge congratulations to
Totally with daughter Faith Juliet, 9lb5oz born Tuesday 16th February 2010

jollster really sad news , please be kind to yourself, we are ALL feeling your pain.........

amy you beat me to it, was going to change list too, nice wishful thinking though hey!!

Had to go to antenatal ward today for Blood Pressure check, seems me seeing DP for the first time in nearly 7 weeks sends my blood pressurein turmoil!! Was ok though

How is everyone else getting along?

that is so FUCKING unfair Jollster. I am so sorry.

i almost hate sharing this but i caved and had a private scan ahead of my scan on monday. I was just getting too freaked about going into a maternity dept not knowing if bubs was ok....anyway all is well with baby but i'll leave it there for now.

once again Jolls....so gutted for you.

Amy - BOY - 35 wks - due 02 April
Hoops - BOY - 35 wks - due 02 April
Jacanne - GIRL - 30+1 wks - due 29th April/6 May - mat leave starts 26th Feb
Memorylapse - GIRL 30+3 wks - due 4th May
Meita - baby#1 - ??? - 15+3 wks, due 17th August - MW 4th March, 2nd scan 1st April
Boodleboot - baby#3 - ??? - 11+1 - due? - scan 1st March
TFLS - baby#1 - 9+2 wks, due 29 Sept
LeeWT - baby#2 (DD1 2yrs) 9+1 weeks, due 30th Sept - 12 wk scan 26th March
MrsRigby - baby#2 (DS 15 months), 8+5 weeks, EDD 7th October
SamanthaB123 baby#3(2x DD's 11 & 9 yrs) 6+3 wks EDD 20th October
Cheepz - baby#2 (DS1 2.8) 6 weeks, EDD 22nd Oct, dr appt 3rd march, early (7wk) scan 8th march

We share the pain and mourn the loss with:
Jollster - baby#2, MMC w9/@11, 26th Feb

The babies are arriving! Huge congratulations to:
Totally with daughter Faith Juliet, 9lb5oz born Tuesday 16th February 2010

JOLLISTER Sorry,sorry,sorry X

Congrats BOODLE X

Thank you all for your lovely thoughts, wishes and words.

Boodle so pleased you have that had that reassurance. Can totally understand why you did it. If I get pregnant again am going to employ a sonographer full time to set up in the spare room and scan me several times a day.... . Pah, what's money...!

I love Meita's idea on the list. Truly lovely. Wonder what the convention should be on which number it is though.... I know we say TTC#2 (or relevant number) despite however many MCs we have had, but actually I have just lost baby#3. Or is that the pedant in me rearing her head after a couple of years away from the workplace where I was famed for it... . HOWEVER you decide to record it is irrelevant really, I'll leave it to you to decide the best way; it's lovely to be remembered on your list - thank you.

I will pop back in from time to time I promise, and really appreciate your invite to do so.

Well it's been quite a week; turned 42 on Tuesday, one of my closest friends moves back to Australia after 15 years in the UK today, and then I have the wait for ERPC and then due date for my first lost bean next Tuesday. Looking forward to March this year!

Take care everyone.

nowt wrong wiv being a pedant Jolls. Sounds like a good idea. Take care of yourself , sorry it is all so shitty for you at the moment....xxx

i am finally feeling like i am pregnant as opposed to 'waiting for the inevitable'....the scan yest helped in so many ways, totally worth the 80quid and wouldn't hesitate to do it again. I ejnoyed confirming it with some people this morning, who had suspicions but were too polite if it was just biscuits ha.

As the placenta has taken over now {i was shown that on screen} i am really hoping that the sickness settles down...haven't felt as bad this week and other than really tired am feelibng like fingers crossed i have turned a corner??

am drinking iced water by the bucketful in desperate vain attempt to not turn into a killer whale but seem to have a giant arse already....very about it....perhaps i should stop using the water to wash down creme eggs?

how is everyone else today?

Arh BOODLE like you read my mind!!!!! I m too thinking of paying for a private scan been conducting some research on line and found somewhere that conducts scans for £90 .I was going to ask you if that was about the same as you d paid?????

I m fine still feel shattered and a bit "crap" at times absolutely starving but then seem to gat full up really quickely!!!!!
Soo glad its the weekend, lovely to have time to chill out a bit.

Hope everyone else is well

Hi all,

I am so sorry Jollster .

Boo - I completely understand you having a scan, we are still thinking about it - my routine one will be between 9 and 13 weeks so I am waiting to see when it is first. You must just be overjoyed! That reassurance is priceless.

I'm fine really, I am moaning quite a lot I think. I feel sick all the time. I wake up in the night feeling sick. I teach all day feeling sick. I go home and feel sick. I'm sick of feeling sick! Food, almost continual eating, helps but I don't seem to like the sensation of it in my mouth. Ooof.

I will be glad to move through this phase...

I think scans in Belfast must be more expensive as they seem to be more like 200 pounds which given that I've been given two early scans. It is a whole four weeks til my official scan tho :-( I'll be well over 13 weeks by then.. If nothing else it's an extra fortnight I've got to keep hiding this in work! The paranoia in me says they know already between my abstinence of coffee and cracker eating!

Speaking of abstinence my dh is being royally neglected but I can't help it I just feel so crap all the time.. Much like how louiseh describes it plus heartburn..

Am on bedrest this weekend due to chest ifection I suffer from asthma do dr said to take it easy.. He would NOT have liked it if he'd seen me watching the rugby!!! What a match!!!! The lads brought it home big style - sorry England gals!

Boodle we have to make a plan to stop the eating.. I'll MSG you after my Indian tonight lol

hope u all having good weekend.. Meita did your article go ok? X

So sorry Jollster (((())))

jollster when people ask me how many children I have I say 1 and 1 on the way, but privately I believe I have 2 children and another on the way. The baby died, but it was still my baby and I gave birth to it.

My DH thinks I'm insane.

By the way, am I the only one who doesn't get morning sickness .

why wont my son lie in on the weekend??????

mrsr I had no ms with DS, do have nausea this time around but not crippling just yet

lee rugby rather got my adrenalin up - but for all the wrong reasons! DH is from south africa so rugby is a non trivial sport in this house - way more important than football!