Just an update - as it’s been a while.
Unknown gender baby boy was born 7th May early hours. I didn’t think a birth could be any more traumatic then it was with my first son but apparently it can!
I was over 40 weeks when my waters broke morning of the 5th, no progression so was induced that evening. Had epidural but had back labour so wasn’t pain free. Then midwife wasn’t topping epidural up so ended up feeling full blown contractions for hours anyway.. baby was back to back but I did get to 10cm dilated and was pushing for 2 hours.
Baby was in awkward position and wouldn’t move down so ended up in another emergency c section which was the last thing I wanted. I had extra blood loss and my bladder was fused to my uterus..
Basically just a horrific ordeal. Recovery has been hard, especially with a 2 year old. Starting to feel better now but panic is setting in about how I’ll cope with a newborn and toddler come next week when OH goes back to work..
Baby boy is healthy though which is the main thing and he was 7lbs 8oz! He’s gained weight every weigh and is already out of newborn clothes.
I really wanted breastfeeding to last longer this time (managed a few weeks with my first) but after a few days the pain from my section and the pain in my nipples was just making me cry constantly and was miserable, so for my own mental health I had to go to formula. The mum guilt over it has been just as bad as it was the first time round but I make myself feel better by saying I gave it a good go both times and they both had the colostrum and milk the first part of their lives.
I hope everyone else is well.