Hi everyone!
Sorry I’ve just been completely AWOL, I had a lot of visits from family, work to sort out and generally feeling a bit low.
I know it's a couple pages ago but I really relate to all these bad body image feelings, I’ve actually been doing a body image course to try to rectify this as I really wanted to enjoy this pregnancy this time, and I found it difficult due to bad body image last time to do so. One of the things the course mentions is curating your social media so that you aren’t exposed to all those perfect bump instagrammers… obviously you can’t curate wedding guests or people in the street lol but it’s been a bit of a game changer for me this week I’ve noticed I’m less self conscious and also actually less addicted to social media (I think those images of perfection give me a hit of Dopamine or something….). Otherwise - I’m 100% on board with the post partum weight loss train! I put on 20kg (just over 3stone) in my first pregnancy and I never lost the whole amount (I had a stone left hanging around) and so I’m starting from that point and I am pretty scared that I’ll be putting on another three stone uffffff. I’m not tiny in the first place too so yeah - the thought of having some weight loss buddies post partum is great!
@stimpyyouidiot HOw was the wedding in the end? I agree with what everyone was saying - you seem like a gorgeous person internally. But I also get how bad body image can effect everything and making everything feel really crap in comparison to others, or how you used to look. I've also got weddings on this summer, one of which I'm opting out of as it's a month before baby is due and I just couldn't face my old friends most of whom don't have babies and plenty of time to go to the gym and calorie count :/
Otherwise it’s been lovely to hear about everyones 20 week scan, kicks and genders etc. I've had a lot of kicking since about 18 weeks and I can now see my stomach move (wobble) when the baby kicks, my son was the same very STRONG and a bit mad haha! I’ve started browsing for some cute things in online sales. We already have buggy, carseat, bath etc in a month I’ll start digging that stuff out and washing all the baby clothes (I honestly cannot wait to do this!) We also had our home birth midwife appt last week which is was really nice, and I think I'm convinced. Anyone else have a general birth plan in mind?