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I’m going to have to face the fact that something is very wrong aren’t I?

210 replies

Losing · 18/09/2020 13:13

I had my first positive HPT on the 29th of August.

I had pain on one side on the 7th of September that I went to A&E with on advice of my GP. My bloods were taken then (507) and 48 hours later on the 9th (1070). They had doubled and the pain had stopped so I regained some hope that all might still be well.

A scan this Tuesday revealed an empty sac that might have had something in it, but they couldn’t be sure. A blood test from the same day showed a hcg level of 4013 (should have been around 8000 if it was doubling by then) and one yesterday, that I just got the results from, is only 5308.

I have to wait for a phone call on Monday to book another scan as they are worried it may be ectopic. I’m on strict orders to go to A&E straight away if the pain or heavy bleeding starts.

This is my last shot at this as I just can’t face it anymore (three previous miscarriages, one at 18 weeks).

I keep frantically googling, hunting for any slither of hope that I know deep down is not going to be true. I’m also now terrified that it is ectopic and that any moment now I’m going to rupture.

I just want it all over but feel I am stuck in limbo.

OP posts:
greyblueeyes · 29/09/2020 21:32

I'm so happy for you, OP. I hope everything go smoothly from here on out. Congratulations!

Branleuse · 29/09/2020 21:36

Aww best of luck for it this time OP. Congrats x

NaturalStudy · 29/09/2020 21:37

Very best of luck OP, I'm keeping everything firmly crossed for you.

FizzingWhizzbee123 · 29/09/2020 21:44

What an emotional rollercoaster! I’m glad to hear you’ve seen a heartbeat. Will be keeping all my fingers crossed that little bean catches up soon.

NameChange84 · 29/09/2020 21:48

I’m so happy to hear your news and will keep you and your little bean in my thoughts and prayers. Congratulations x

2018SoFarSoGreat · 29/09/2020 21:49

@Losing, I think you should consider changing your name.

What a day for you. I so wish for all the best for you and flashing bean.

Verybookish · 29/09/2020 21:55

I am so pleased for you OP.

WeakandWobbly · 29/09/2020 22:15

Congratulations op. Look after yourself my lovely. So happy for you both xFlowers

TheFoz · 29/09/2020 22:23

Delighted for you! Sleep well tonight. ❤️

Cheetahfajita · 29/09/2020 22:46

Thank goodness you had the private scan, have a lovely night x

Chickydoo · 29/09/2020 22:57

Sounds very hopeful! Crossing fingers all will be well.

Rubyroost · 29/09/2020 23:55

Wow. Good luck, I hope it all works out for you.

JustAddCoffee91 · 30/09/2020 00:05

Good luck OP xx

Gentleness · 30/09/2020 00:31

I've been where you are - remarkably similar situation. I so hope you sleep well and can balance that exhausting seesaw of euphoria and fear.

One thing I will say: get therapy. I waited till 5 pregnancies later (3 successful thankfully) and it took a skilled professional to help me untangle the fallout from the rollercoaster.

coastergirl · 30/09/2020 00:51

OP I've had three pregnancies and measured behind in all three. I also had bleeding in two of them. Early scans in all three. Pregnancies one and three have resulted in healthy (bloody crazy) boys. Pregnancy number two was a miscarriage. I had a scan at 6 weeks and they could hardly see anything so I was referred to the hospital. Three days later I started bleeding and two days after that the miscarriage was confirmed with blood results.

I suppose my point is that you can have early scans that don't look good and still have a healthy baby.

Twickerhun · 30/09/2020 08:54

Ah OP you sound like you are doing so well to hold it together. You’ve got an army of MNetters wishing your tiny baby well.

Nestme · 30/09/2020 08:58

Yay! Great news. I wanted to post yesterday but didn't as I didn't want to give you any false hope. I had 2 very similar experiences and while one ended in MC, the other is now a large 15y old! I really hope this goes all the way for you xxx

WFHhater · 30/09/2020 09:57

Aw what lovely news to read this morning! It made me well up. So happy for you! Hope you got a good kip

Grumpy19 · 30/09/2020 10:32

Hi OP, just wanted to say how pleased I am for you and really hope the rest of your pregnancy goes smoothly x

YoBeaches · 30/09/2020 11:55

Fab news to see this morning OP. Hope you slept well. Take it one day at a time x

SirVixofVixHall · 30/09/2020 12:03

OP i felt tears prick my eyes at your update. I had light bleeding with Dd2, I was 42 and my GP said I was almost certainly miscarrying. I had a scan that like yours showed a sac and tiny fetus but no heartbeat. I had to wait another week to be scanned again and there was the tiny flicker of her heart.
Wishing you all the best. Flowers

Cafeaulait27 · 30/09/2020 14:43

This is great news @Losing xxx

glassbrightly · 30/09/2020 15:45

Lovely news !

FourPlasticRings · 30/09/2020 15:52

Congratulations!

Milsplus3 · 30/09/2020 21:10

Congratulations OP, what wonderful news, I’m so happy for you.