I’m going to have to face the fact that something is very wrong aren’t I?

[Losing]

I had my first positive HPT on the 29th of August.

I had pain on one side on the 7th of September that I went to A&E with on advice of my GP. My bloods were taken then (507) and 48 hours later on the 9th (1070). They had doubled and the pain had stopped so I regained some hope that all might still be well.

A scan this Tuesday revealed an empty sac that might have had something in it, but they couldn’t be sure. A blood test from the same day showed a hcg level of 4013 (should have been around 8000 if it was doubling by then) and one yesterday, that I just got the results from, is only 5308.

I have to wait for a phone call on Monday to book another scan as they are worried it may be ectopic. I’m on strict orders to go to A&E straight away if the pain or heavy bleeding starts.

This is my last shot at this as I just can’t face it anymore (three previous miscarriages, one at 18 weeks).

I keep frantically googling, hunting for any slither of hope that I know deep down is not going to be true. I’m also now terrified that it is ectopic and that any moment now I’m going to rupture.

I just want it all over but feel I am stuck in limbo.

Keep your chin up. I hope everything goes well for you today .

Good luck

Good luck OP 💛

Best of luck this morning @Losing xxx

Good luck, I'm really wishing good news on you x

Good luck for today OP. It is entirely down to what you can stand, but I'm glad I didn't stop after four rmcs as that's when I had ds. Agree with pp that seeing a specialist is likely to help. I was fortunate in not having any loss as late as yours though, I really am very sorry for all your losses.

Good luck today!

Good luck x

Hoping and praying for good news for you today OP, you’ve got lots of us holding you in our thoughts

Best of luck to you op. Thinking of you x

Good luck today. I've got everything crossed for you

Good luck

Good luck OP. Heartbeat isn't usually visible till 6w 3d onwards so hopefully you will see that flicker this morning 💐

Have got everything crossed for you @Losing

Good luck

Thank you for all the virtual handholds, apart from DH no one else knows about this, it has really helped.

Sat outside the scan room now waiting. DH isn’t here (his DM has fallen ill so he’s trying to get her seen) so hoping I can keep it together if the worst happens.

Good luck!

Good luck @Losing x

Good luck x

Good luck xx

Fingers crossed for you x

Not good news I’m afraid.

The image was very grainy and they couldn’t find anything really.

The sac had grown about as much as they’d expect it to, but they couldn’t see any baby or heartbeat, or even the 3.3 mm fetus that the private scan showed. There was glimpses of a large yolk sac ring but nothing conclusive.

Just waiting to speak to someone about the report but they want me to wait another week and have another scan.

I may see if I can get an appointment at the private clinic again (their scanner seemed to get a much clearer image) to see if I can finally get this over with.

So sorry to hear that op. My thoughts are with you. I was in a similar position and it was devastating to see an empty yolk sac. I started bleeding soon after

Everything crossed for you xx

I hope you're okay. Its just awful that you still haven't got a definite answer yet as to what is going on.x