Hey ladies
Seems we are all going through horrile nights again with LO's! Last night was the 6th in a row, ( loosing count might be more, or less ) when Izzy was up many many times. I'm sure its her teeth, sure of it. I'm just SO unbelievably tired. I dont think it's any coincidence that my pain has gone up, as have my pain killers as a result. Just getting no rest at all of any kind.
DH didn't bother to call at all today, was supposed to be here. I ended up sending a pretty shitty text, after a few nice ones, saying I can't believe he's done this again, after we had sorted so much out, and I was finally feeling happy again, an a bit more secure.. the arsehole sent one back saying he was sick of me calling and sending texts.He'sfeeling really unwell,and has been in bed all day, and cant I just leave him in peace to be ill!
How the feck am I supposed to have known he was ill? Psychic? telepathy? He'd not answered the phone or a text ALL day, he's not told me he was ill, and woudn't make it home! I spoke to him for2 hours on his way back to B'ham last night at about 11pm it was SO nice...Now this, again. FFS! I was so upset. I obviously don't have any issues with him not getting all the way home if he's ill,but he could at least tell me, surely? He knows i'd have been really sympathetic and loving and soppy. Instead he treats me like shit again, and talks to me like shit too. ( rare, actually)
Sorry,selfish post, just so pissed off, feeling really shit myself, upset ad sore. Izzy has only just gone to sleep, been up since 5.30am again,and she didn't sleep this afternoon either. I put her to bed and she just sang, loudly for an hour or so, on and off. I left her in her cot as she was happy, but I couldn't snooze with her awake.
Un-intetionally fell asleep on the sofa at about half 4, woke up tipping my coffee all over me. Izzy picked up her jumper and started wiping me and the sofa with it! So funny!
So, we had a lovely bubble bath together,and a long story, and lots of cuddles. A ince girls night with out arsehole daddys!
She also did about 5 steps this evening on her own! I was so pleased, she's done a couple here and there but these were so strong and brilliant. shame DH missed it. Won't be long do you think? Is this how they start off? She's been cruising for months and months around furniture, standing alone for a few months, and taken the odd step in the last week or two. Will she just take more and more, or will she do this for ages too? Can you ask all your veteran walkers please??
wilkie the benefits are great,especially maternity leave sick pay good too,I've been in my post for a while now, so i've accrued 5 moths full pay 5moths half pay. I htink thats what you get after 2 years... not so good before that. Erm... pension really good too. apparently one of the best, if not the best, as they put in a huge amount as well as your contributions.
E&H I'll let you know in time then, when I might be coming down.Difficult as I still can;'t drive, so would be when mum is visiting my sister.
Ratty Hope you are ok today? still talking about stuff, and looking more positive.
PC Izzy is going for her MMR next week, I decided that she'll have them all together, as the research that claimed all the problems, has been totally de-bunked, and proved otherwise, with much better research. He is also facing being struck off, f not already has been, which is a fairly serious reason to not take any notice of it, IMHO.