fwiw, jt, i think your response, i.e. not wanting to have any man near you, is a perfectly rational and logical respose to your experience.
it may well be that in time you might find one of the many wonderful men out there. but imho, you wouldn't be human if you doubted that right now.
imho, that's where a counsellor could be of real value - helping you to make the journey from where you are now to a future where you could envisage an equal, loving, non exploitative relationship.
sorry, i'm not a counsellor, just my 2c.