Just nipping on!
Hello all you lovely people
HOpe you have all had nice weekends.
SO please you are back home Kew. ( i'm even tempted to offer you a hug!!! )
Steppie- I wish i'd seen it. I saw it advertised, and for some reason, thought it was a repeat of last sunday's edition! Why? What on earth was I thinking? so, i missed it. I saw an interview with Richard Wilson and the merlin actor who is also a scottish actor being english btw! it intrigued me. Was it godo then? I thought your DS would be insisting on the X-factor being on.
OK, sorry, the next bit is long... and probably boring, but could do with some advice... I know I ought to put it in Relatioships, but don't quite feel up to the criticism I'd most likely get. Sorry.... I promise I won't keep going on aout my boring H issues.
SO...
I got very tough with H today. Still no phone contact. JUst some emails. He sent a ridiculous one telling me he wasn't reading mine as they were too long, (i reckon they're half a page at most) and could I cut and paste the essential bits!!!!
I basically told him where I would be sticking the cut and pasted paragraphs. That I had had enough, completely of the whole thing. Of being walked all over. Etc etc.. and that for the time being, and certainly for the near future, I was out, of the whole relationship. that is wa up to him to make the effort. To prove to me that I mean more than shit to him etc.. Broke my heart typing it, but I had to. For my own sanity.
Just had one back, begging me not to be angry with him. That he's just been drowning in work and worrying about how we will all manage etc... Then saying can he come home tomorrow, after work, and that he will get of early and drive down, and would like to stay the night and go back to derby in the morning... I don't know wether to reply or not. Or if I should say no, its not ok. I don't want to play games, I would love to see him, but I don't want him to think that it's that easy anymore. That he can treat me so terribly, and that one visit will make it all ok. Don't know what to do. Having said that, I don't really have any way to do anything, as his phone is still off and he won't be in office to get his emails. hmmm, so confused. Glad he's taken me a little seriously though.
Hmmm, anyway, do hope you are all well.
Anyone fancy getting together some time this week. IF the weather stays like it is, Kew would be gorgeous. Or of course, as always, anyone is welcome to come here.