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[MaryAnnSingleton]

step this way dear ones...the trolley will be here in a sec...

Thank you very much for all your kind words. Yes being in a medical professional does make it much worse particularly when you are given one plan and then it changes you think about why you would change the plan.
I have a complex range of autoimmune diseases that I suspect complicates the issue. It feels like one thing after the other I have had two new autoimmune diagnosed since ExH left.
Someone sorry can't remember who and I'm on a phone so can't look back. Mentioned about nipple changes due to one of my autoimmune conditions it is impossible to tell as my nipples are colourless and misshapen anyway. As I say these complicate the issue.

gigs most common reply was "oh my heads the wrong shape, it would look terrible, but you have a lovely shaped head" or variations but our favourite was "Oh it would be a disaster, I have such big hair" as she waved her luscious blonde locks around in the manner of Miss Piggy of course it was her moment of triumph having been insanely jealous of my obvious resemblance to the young Julie Christie pre Cancer Looking forward to some more to add to our collection, this is your mission should you choose to accept it.............

pen not entirely sure you can blame Victor Meldrew syndrome on Cancer. It seems to come to us superior beings all. I think Mumsnet is just inviting temptation sometimes.

jchoc it's a bit of a cycle isn't it? You get a new job and are scared, then you master it and enjoy it, and then you start to get fed up. The bit when you are still a bit scared, and have almost mastered it is best. I would say I know the pool well except when I swam in it it was the old and mouldy one they demolished, though possibly now would be seen as a 30s? architectural gem.

Had lovely time with DD, whilst we were looking at a video of David Beckham sleeping ( in National Potrait Gallery so artistic rather than voyeuristic ;-), not usually much of a fan, but this, except more endearing . ) a very posh man came up behind us and brayed "what a load of old tat". I think he may have missed the point

It is still the old and mouldy one, they never got around to demolishing it... Thing is it was not built to be used in the winter, it had a removable floor which they put in and danced the winter away which explains the doors halfway up the wall!!
at posh young man.
lone it does get better once you find out. Either it is benign and you celebrate or not but even if you have to have treatment, knowing is better than not knowing iyswim. You need distractions while you are waiting and plenty of fbs.
I fell asleep with the cat on the sofa again so have only just come to bed, arrgh. nighty night.

jane am sure you'll soon settle in new job - as copt says,there's a point where you've almost mastered it think I'm about there with this new job

Mooooooorning !

Glad to report I had an excellent nights sleep. I have been sleeping on the sofa as it is softer and more supportive and I managed to sleep on my side with the back of the of the sofa supporting my front. No leaks and feel refreshed for the first time in 3.5 weeks !! Who ever thought I old get so excited about sleeping !!!!

Being taken out or lunch today by a work colleague. I invited topsy but he has another mad friend coming round to her house so we will go out next week.

gigs you have to report on hair comments and I will report on any "wonky knocker" moments like some people have said " oh you can hardly tell" .... Haha one boob points north and one points south .... It s Sooooooo obvious !

lone you will feel I much better once you know ... Stick sound here, it's a very friendly and safe place to be.

Hi to everyone else this morning

Hi hnd another one who slept on the sofa last night :) glad you are feeling refreshed. I'm working from home today so mustn't spend too long on here... but time for a anyone?

I am sure I will feel much better once I know and if it needs treatment have a plan.
The one good thing is it has galvanised me about ExH, well this an OW saying to DD on the phone that she need to find OW'sDD's coat at school today - I told DD it was not her responsibility.
So I have e-mailed my solicitor and will be pushing that through.
I also have two lovely cats who sleep with me, there hot water bottle facility is very comforting.

jchoc Glad to hear the pool survived! I remember them laying the floor after we had been swimming with the Guides on Friday nights!

Finishing off the week nicely laid up in bed with the trots, well more the gallops. (Sorry if that is tmi) Really frustrated as lovely old friend from Hong Kong, now living elsewhere in the world is over tomorrow and we had walk and Asian meal planned, I was sooooo looking forward to it.

Copt hope you recover quickly to go out with your friend

Hi all, hope you feel better soon Copt, can you get some of that instant immodium stuff?

HND - sleep and no leaks is definite progress

I decided to go to my keep fit class today - which meant getting a bus at 7.30 a.m. (next bus is at 10 a.m. and class starts at 10 a.m. - ludicrous rural bus service!) so I did that, then did a load of grocery shopping, - I had a wheelbasket full and a rucksack full of groceries, God it was heavy - I bowled around town in the gnome position bashing people's ankles as I went.

Dh and i have been invited to 1920's gangsters and molls night in April, which involves dressing up (which I like doing, but DH will need some convincing). What do molls wear - flapper type dress? (probably because that's the least flattering style in the world for a hip-heavy middle aged woman )

Love to all x

long cigarette holder, nice shingled hair - ooh,exciting !!
Hope you feel better v soon copt
Japanese drawings done and I hope they'll be acceptable.

hooray for no leaks hnd !

That was just no (usual) overnight leaks ... I still have the very attractive 3 drainage bags filling up regularly each day .... Was so nice to wake up in dry pj top though

Made it to Mum's. No internet here :( have phone but won't be on much. Brother should be here soon will be nice to catch up. Have a lovely Friday night, lovelies xxx

Shoot
HND got me drunk again ...

It's ok though , her luffly DH gave me a copy of Freefall/downfall/sky fall whatever the frick it's called with the fantabulous Daniel Craig to watch in bed tonight !

Medical question time .
I appear to have developed some lymphodema under my mastectomy arm .
I was mastectomied in June 2011 .
(And full node clearance)
Can lymphodema set in that long post op ?

KK
Fab Flapper Party !
Think Bugsy Malone and channel your inner Tallulah !
If flapper girl doesn't suit you , then I reckon sexy gangster will !
(Wide shoulder men's suit , big tie , violin case)

Jane
Aaaaaargh
No tinternet ?
Surely against all human rights ???

I know I'm paying lots , but iPhone doesn't allow for my creaky memory
It won't allow me to scroll back !

How is everyone ?
Gigs I can't believe you are going back to work . You are super woman !
(Although am sure DH will test your patience with the rugger starting back tomorrow . My DH has the tv commandeered from 1pm tomorrow when the Ireland coverage starts)

Gracie did I hear you talking about a return to work too ?
Bet you are suffering just as much with the rugby !

Big snogs to Smee , Amber , Ned , et al .
Please forgive me for not naming everyone .
A) I have a crap memory
B) I am awful at remembering names (ask HND , she always has to tell me what people are called !)
C) I am hammered (again , do I have a drink problem ?)

Anyhow , goodnight , god bless .
Luffs you all xxx

Posting not paying ...

I did not get topsy drunk .... I merely invited her round for Friday Night bar snacks and she arrived with a bottle of wine ??

oh dear tipsy again...hope you have restorative things in the house.
Am sure lymphoedema can happen at any time though - best see your bcn for advice- think a friend of mine got it in her breast after WLE.

I believe you hnd- you are in no state to hold tipsy down and pour wine into her. How are wounds today?

I may well be mad about work but let's see how it goes- it is mainly a help as gives me some routine to do my ou stuff and work rather than faff.

So far on comments had the hair looks nice, shape of your head and you look well. Also the you look so thin- to which obvious rep,y is I can't really recommend this diet.

Shoulder been strapped now and got stronger painkillers (I do get GPS attention as there was no appointment then miraculously was one when I said my name ).

Cooking now and rugby later - yes our house too is given over to it

And lymph oedema wasn't someone who didn't regularly post saying hers appeared some Years later topsy?

gig the actual wounds, an eye shaped graft on the front and the 'seam' from where they took the graft from the back have healed really well .... there are just the three little sites where the seroma is escaping that are a little bit soggy the front drain bag failed last night and I woke up in a pool - yuk .... thankfully i have been sleeping on the enco pads that the hospital gave me (waterproof but soft) so the sofa was saved.

I am finding that the immobility has given me a dead patch on the outside of my left leg which can be painful if i lay on my back - am iI the only freak that has had this ever ?? I had it when I was pregnant too so imagine it must be a nerve thing ??

I saw tipsy going off with her DS to go to her friends to eat really yummy homemade cakes and drink coffee horse riding this morning ... still cna't believe she blames her drinking on me !

Morning all, - how's the head topsy? I thought you were going to suggest I channel my inner Fat Sam for the flapper party

As far as I know, lymphoedema can crop up at any time after surgery, - defintely have a word with BCN - there is probably a lymphoedema clinic at the hospital where they can drain it if it gets troublesome.

Gig - glad you've got stronger pain killers for the shoulder, hope they help. WE too have to watch the rugby this afternoon, - unfortunately DH is Scottish so there are always going to be tears after the match

HND - hope the sogginess eases soon, drains are vile things, so I hope they take them out for you soon and you can start to feel normal again (well as normal as anyone who lives next to topsy can be )
I don't know about the dead patch on your leg - is it a pressure sore? - I had one of them on m elbow when I had to keep my arm in one position in hospital for a week - but it was very red and sore rather than numb. I'd ask the district nurse about it when she comes out.

Morning MAS - how are you today?- how has this cycle been for you?
Well done on getting the Japanese job done - that was quick work!

It's been snowing here again - not lying though as its too wet. The car has returned -£90, - less than we thought, but still too much!

DD is off to see the new tarantino film this afternoon, she's gone to her friend's house bearing a four layer lemon cake she made last night as it is friends birthday - it looked very yummy.