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Anyone know how CvQ is today? Has she been in touch with anyone?

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thumbwitch · 29/08/2008 00:35

She was in a bad way in the early hours of this morning, has anyone had any contact with her at all today? Am quite worried about her.

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differentID · 30/08/2008 10:55

You are not dirty. Never, ever in a million years are you dirty. It is the dirty one and it is in prison. YOu've said you don't want to ue the money, but you have it. Could you not find a high interest savings account and then ignore it?

differentID · 30/08/2008 10:57

I see why you feel that way though.

LackaDAISYcal · 30/08/2008 11:10

ns, just caught up with this thread, and I'm so sorry you are feeling like this , but it's understandable that the CICA payment has brought it all back to you.

I can only imagine how you must be feeling, and although I don't feel that I've got anything to add to what has been said to you already, I just wanted to let you know I'm here if you need me....you still have my email, yes?

Maybe, we should get together with Knickers for a coffee, or something? I'd love to meet you both

needsupport · 30/08/2008 11:11

i dont know what to do with it.i never thought i would feel this way about it.it was supposed to help us but its destroying me

needsupport · 30/08/2008 11:12

im not up to seeing anyone.im truly not.i havent left the house in days

LackaDAISYcal · 30/08/2008 11:13

I can only suggest that you stick it in a high interest account and forget about it until you feel that you can deal with it.

It'll still be there when you need it

differentID · 30/08/2008 11:16

If it's in a bank/building society account, you can leave it until you feel able to cope. The money won't be in the house and you can start on the path to coping again. You weren't expecting it when it arrived and were already not sleeping so it was the final straw. Then, when you have J sorted with his feeding and sleeping and have begun to get some rest you will feel a bit stronger. After that, you can decide what to do, if anything, with it.

LackaDAISYcal · 30/08/2008 11:16

I think you need to get out though, even if it's just to take J to the swings; all this turning inwards can be very destructive. I do it myself and it just gets me further and further into a rut and feeling more and more depressed.

But, my depression seems like a drop in the ocean compared to what you are going through

MatNanPlus · 30/08/2008 11:28

Morning NS,

your having a tough time but you are doing great with J, he is getting into the plan and tho you feel in a bad place you are meeting his needs and putting them above your own, that is true mothering.

Can you take him for a walk today? No where special just to get the 2 of you out for a bit?

Is the RW helping?

Put the CICA into an account and deal with it at another time.

Am here for you. xx

needsupport · 30/08/2008 11:41

thankyou.i need to try and rest.js asleep.thankyou.

MatNanPlus · 30/08/2008 12:38

Rest, sleep if you can and don't think ahead to much.

needsupport · 30/08/2008 14:34

ive slept for nearly two hrs.my head feels fuzzy but im alright

hazygirl · 30/08/2008 14:57

ns hope you are alright,big hugs and i just wish so much that we could all make everything right for you,your strenght amazes me,

needsupport · 30/08/2008 15:02

so do i
but thankyou for being kind
im hanging in there.its all i can do

hazygirl · 30/08/2008 15:07

they are hard work aint they ,my granddaughters are 11 month ,3 years and 5 years and littlest has just started to crawl,i need extra hands now x

differentID · 30/08/2008 17:13

hiya, ns. glad to hear you managed a nap. Hanging in there is good to start with. You are such an amazing woman- I don't know I could have dealt with what you have.

MatNanPlus · 30/08/2008 17:26

Great for napping NS yes, i always get a fuzzy head when i get extra needed sleep it is normal so don't let it put you off catching as many naps as you can, i find the best way of dealing with the fuzziness is to get up and have a face wash and tooth brushing weird

needsupport · 30/08/2008 19:02

im feeling so fucking angry
if i could id cut myself into a thousand bits

triffictits · 30/08/2008 19:04

what are you angry about ns? talk to us if you can

needsupport · 30/08/2008 19:09

the world.myself.'him'.my father.my sister.i just want to scream and never stop.
i want to cut bits of myself and throw all the bad bits away

triffictits · 30/08/2008 19:10

you sound in such a bad place at the moment - can you call crisis?

needsupport · 30/08/2008 19:16

no theyll take me away

triffictits · 30/08/2008 19:21

i know you are scared of that darling, but you really cant carry on like this - you need some help. That isnt you failing yourself, it is you needed someone to help you and taking there support

differentID · 30/08/2008 19:22

you're hurting so much,

differentID · 30/08/2008 19:23

I wish I could take all your hurt away. Why would anyone take you away?