Anyone know how CvQ is today? Has she been in touch with anyone?

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She was in a bad way in the early hours of this morning, has anyone had any contact with her at all today? Am quite worried about her.

no havent seen her today, but i have only been on this evening, but thats still about 5 hours

yer she was on today

on same thread i think.had a few offers of support from people - MNP to help with routines still. and shesells...etc to come and stay for a few days.

not sure how she is this evening.

had she namechanged korma? I saw a worrying thread earlier - didn't occur that it could be CVQ.

oh no kc i didnt see that.

CVQ was on the thread about whether to drink with antibiotics at 10am

I think that was the same poster that I saw on a different thread. She was getting lots of support from MN thank goodness. Didn't realise it was CVQ.

yes, I saw that she was on at lunchtime on one of her threads - get confused about reading the times and dates sometimes!
korma, I think you're right, that looks like her. I hope she is ok

sorry

hi pet, are you ok?
Sounds like you had an awful time yesterday, how are you doing today?

the same really
my CICA money came through and i feel so dirty again

ah love, not good to have another reminder

but the money will be useful, no?

mind you. sometimes that's not the point - you don't even want to spend it because it feels like the money is tainted somehow, yes?

its dirty money

yes I can see that.
what are you going to do with it?

a friend said to live off the interest.not sure i even want to do that though.
great fun talking to me isnt it
ive been raped all over again in my mind

honey it's not about fun just now, it's about being here for you. You are naturally a funny girl, it has just been overridden for a while because you are going through a bad patch but we will still be here through it and after it.

Please, please consider trying the EFT (do you still have the link I sent you a few days ago?) - it WILL help to take the pain out of your situation and diminish your memories of the rape. It is still fairly recent and the trauma will still be relatively fresh in your psyche and biochemistry so it is not surprising that a trigger like getting the compensation money sets it all off again like it was yesterday.

I don't know what to suggest about using the money - you obviously can't use it to buy anything nice as it will always be a reminder of where the money came from, I understand that; but you have been given it for a reason so perhaps using it to fund therapy would be one idea?

(((((hugs))))) for you - is your mum being any help today?

i dont remember a link?
ive shut myself away but she keeps checking in on me.i dont want to be around anyone though.i just want to be left alone
i might go for a walk later

has she got j then? or are you keeping him with you? Or is he too strong a reminder as well?

Here is the link for EFT, the page on trauma and abuse (which is effectively what you have experienced)

Do you have an oil burner? If you do, please get some mandarin, lavender and roman chamomile oils and have those wafting around you - they are all calming, soothing and uplifting oils that will help your biochemistry to recover.

hes with me.this isnt his fault
thankyou ill look at that now

how are you doing now m'dear? have you had some sleep at all?

a bit

Hi CVQ, you are doing an amazing job, I am in awe of how well you are doing from reading your posts. Just wanted to tell you that xxx