Anyone know how CvQ is today? Has she been in touch with anyone?

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She was in a bad way in the early hours of this morning, has anyone had any contact with her at all today? Am quite worried about her.

want to talk or be distracte?

i want o talk

what you over thinking?

J asleep?

worried about you - where have you gone?

stuff i dont even want to think about.but i seems to be verywherr i look and earlier i fuond myself actually feelinf jealous.i keep looinat j an djust thinking how beautiful he is but can i carry on givng him wha he needs.

i just want o wash my head out

the only thing he really needs is for you to love him.

And from what I read in your posts you do - at times through the tears you definately love him

The more your little one develops a personality the more distanced he will be from the monster who attacked you.

at the moment he is such a small baby that you can project all the feelings about his creation onto him, but once he is being mischievious and giggling and telling you you are a great mummy it will be easy to separate the two.

you have been doing fantastically keeping it together. No one doubts how difficult things are for you but it will pass, you just have to hang on in there.

have you had a drink?

i know j but oh i dont know im just not very good at night.it worries me and then i get in a state.i worry about whos outside my house.i lay herea t night somtimes thinking about 'him'.and if im thinking of him does he think about me

no ihavent but im upet and cant see the keys properly

Sweetheart - I don't know if he thinks about you - does he know that his actions resulted in J being born?
is your Mum still with you? Please don't worry about anyone being outside, can you try to think about something else?
it is totally understandable that all this is still very raw.

mums here
i cant takl about this afer all

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Hi NS been a bit distracted ... I'm sorry.

Was J upset this morning?

How have the other breastfeeds been?

Did you get you tablet?

{{HUGS}}

sorry honey I REALLY didn't mean to upset you
I will bow out now.. so I don't make things worse..

I am so sorry..

JJ

j its not you
please ill be alright

We will be here after she goes to bed, make sure she gives you a tablet.

she heard me crying
got tablet aswell

talk to her NS

Please talk to your mum and cry to her, you need to get some of this anger out of your system and a really good sob at someone can be strangely cleansing. Let us know how you get on. Your mum is there to help you, she knows that you are going through a terrible time and she is there to help you, even if it doesnt always feel helpful

she only heard me because she came up to use the bathroom.ill try
sorry

Please do talk to her, she will find it as hard to listen to as you find it to talk about and if she leaves the room it is because she loves you and is trying to deal with it herself, do keep talking to her, either whatever pops into your head or have a topic you want to talk about?

I have to go but i will be back in the morning.

Sleep hun {{HUGS}} xxxxxxx

she is probably waiting for you and just doesn't know how to ask. You said you wanted to talk, doing it in RL is better than online(although thats pretty good too)

Hi ns, are you still on line? have you had a talk with your mum?
Am here for a while if you want to talk
(((((hugs)))))