Anyone know how CvQ is today? Has she been in touch with anyone?

[thumbwitch]

She was in a bad way in the early hours of this morning, has anyone had any contact with her at all today? Am quite worried about her.

hiya cvq, sending you love and ((hugs)) to get through the night.

Sorry you are not so brilliant tonight ns.

Wishing and hoping for a peaceful night for you.

xx.

im here.knew what would happen.at least im used to disappointment eh
and you wonder why i talk here

What happened? Did mum walk away?

She just needs to go through it herself; she's grieving for her happy girl lost too hun - give her til tomorrow and try again

oh sweetie, did you not get anywhere?

talk away, we're listening.

just coming to give you a (((((((hug))))))) before I go to bed.

she cut me dead said she needed to get some air.came back an said shall we tak about this tomrrow.i just lookeda t her and said i need tot alk about it now mum.she said its late and were both tired

she wont alk about it tomrrow.theyll be another excuse not to talk to me.i can see she struggling with this but what the fuck.does she not think i am.ill tell you what mum why dont we just not ever talk about it eh?would that fucking suit you

Would she talk to someone else about it? A GP or counsellor?

oh pet, I am sorry your mum can't listen to you. She seems to be doing the equivalent of sticking her fingers in her ears and going LALALALALALALA to avoid hearing your pain.

Talk to us instead if you can bear it - we'll listen.

Can I ask - and you don't have to answer if you don't want to - did you know the monster before?

lewis i dont know the answer to that.my mother is emotionally stilted.its almost her terms or nthing

thumbwitch.no

Would she read a book about it? I think she's trapped in the guilt (as weird as that sounds) and pain herself and she's avoiding talking because that means it did actually happen ....

I know my parents felt that way for a long, long time.

It doesn't help you though - but try to remember she's not doing it to hurt you

what are the thoughts that you were overthinking earlier - are you just replaying the whole thing? Or is it a lot of "why did this happen to me, why was I picked on" type of stuff?

she does read but it would be something she would just put away so she didnt have to deal with seeing it in black and white.shes not given up on me yet.i wont give up on her.shes my mum and i love her but if she would just break down this block she puts up we could help eachothr.i walk on egghells sometimes too afraid to acutally say whats going on in my head howver small because i know she wont just stop and listen.
we spoke for hrs once about all this many weeks ago but since then its like it never happened and her walls gone back up.shes struggled with me this past week..ive been hell to live with

i keep going over what happened and seeing his face.if im thinking about him is he thinking abut me
i said this to muma dn was told not to be so ridiculous

would it help either/both of you to go to counselling together? I'm pretty sure it is available for family members of someone who has suffered a trauma

i hadnt thought of that.not sure how that would work practically.she doesnt live near me and is only with me becuae of my accident

that's true - but she is staying a while longer, isn't she - i wonder if there is any chance you could get at least one sesh together before she goes back? Even if you have to pay for it?

thankyou.i will give that some thught
now if i could just stop crying i might standa chance of soe sleep.
ive ben lisening to this

powerful lyrics, now try to sleep xx

hi

thats one of my favourite tracks too

i nguess that s what he is sayin g

everybody hurts

i used to think of it as just me

even when i listened to it

i spent three months in a psychitric hospital in 1999

and played it a lot

and all apologies

lots of things

but you will

liSten HOLD on HOLD on HOLD ON

X

aah yes, I love that song in a strange way... I remember listening to it over and over at certain points in my life.
Try this one as well - pertinent to both you and your mum I think, and one of my favourites too. Perhaps a little more calming than REM?

love and light to you - I have to go to sleep now cos got to get up early to take my Dad to a hospital appt in the morning.

more(((((((hugs)))))))

oh thumbwitch that is just beautiful.am crying still but the wods are jsut so perfect
thankyou x

zippi yes i amholding on.with all my might.idont want to be this person so yes im holding on x

bless you lovey, I hope it helps to soothe you to sleep.
I'll be here later tomorrow evening
xx

im going to try and lay down aswell x