Anyone else sad and want to hand hold?

[Helplessandheartbroke]

Mumsnet has really helped me pull put of a possible breakdown and while I'm out of the worst of it, I'm still very sad. I'm crying to myself now so I can put on a brave face in the morning.

@hk1993x sorry to ask you but can you tell me exactly what they did during the ect at all please? My knowledge is very limited on the subject. Are you feeling any different? X

@Whycantgiraffesdance at least you managed some fresh air! Is your mum with you for the day? X

They just place 3 electrodes on to your scalp and medically induce a seizure that last about 30 seconds. I just have a headache etc so I'm unsure how I feel or if I want to carry it on. Going to discuss it more with my Dr x

How are u feeling now @hk1993x ? X

Just super tired l, headache died down. So looking forward to my bed now! How are you? Xz

Hope u get to your bed soon! When is ur next session? x I’m ok, also ready for bed!!

Friday, was a pretty quick procedure but I'm glad it's started now. I just have everything crossed that it will finally help me on the path to recovery! Going to make plans to see a therapist and do CBT etc. I'm so grateful for this forum. It makes me feel less alone ❤️

I’ve got everything crossed for you lovely 🤞🏻xx

Well done @hk1993x . Hope it helps in the long run.

Hope everyone's had an ok day. We had some sunshine at last, which made me feel a bit better, managed to get out with DP for a walk, but after that was really tired and just wanted to sleep. Now of course I'm wide awake again 😮🙄

Sorry ladies I've been up since 2.30am with ds so I'm half asleep. Sending best wishes to you all and will catch you properly tomorrow x

ECT is supposed to help with severe depression that doesn’t respond to anti-depressants. I have no idea how or why? I’ve been depressed for as long as I can remember (probably my early teens) I’ve been on antidepressants for years and have resigned myself to being on them for life now. I think I’m just a sad person.

Ds is up again!!!! I'm exhausted which will not help me mood tomorrow 😪 I could cry. This is the worst part of his asd for sure.

@headache I'm with you. I think this is me now x

I'm still up! I start work at 9 and I've so far had less than an hours sleep 😴 I'm so fed up. This definitely has a huge impact on my MH. I'm sat here crying now

@Helplessandheartbroke Is there anyway your dh could get up with your little one tonight so u can get a proper night sleep? I don’t do well with no sleep so I totally sympathise, I hope you get a chance to rest at some point today ❤️

I woke up again in panic mode 🥺 no matter what frame of mind I’m in the night before I just can’t stop the morning anxiety where it feels like everything is unravelling again 😔

Oh no! Do you have a partner? If so, could he take turns with nights, so you can get some sleep? Alternatively can you take a flexi day or holiday so you can catch up on some sleep while he's at school/nursery? Sorry, haven't read the whole thread so unsure of age.

I too think this is me now. I've been depressed for many years and on and off antidepressants for a long time. Certain situations (bad relationships, loneliness, winter) make it worse, but it's always there to some extent. These days when I try coming off antidepressants my mood dips, so I vary the dose depending on how bad I feel (in a responsible way I should say, not on a daily basis, but gradually reduced if I start to feel a bit better). Not ideal, but after all this time I feel I know myself better than my GP, who I struggle to see anyway! I can live with being in them for ever though, if they help a bit.

@Whycantgiraffesdance @upanddowns I'm staying with gp so they can help with childcare as it's Easter hols. I'm wfh from their house.

How are you both this morning? I'm working and I just want to cry.

What's your plans today? X

I'd forgotten it's the Easter hols. Maybe you can have a nap once you've finished working if the gps can look after him?

I'm struggling today. Have no motivation but bored, a stupid combination!

@upanddowns get Netflix on with a brew and biscuits. Homicide new york is a good watch x

Holding hands with both of u today! @Helplessandheartbroke @upanddowns i think that’s what scares me the most that I will feel like this forever! I can’t remember the last time I felt carefree and normal!! 😞

I’m waiting for gp to reply to my online consult and a nurse from perinatal is meant to be ringing this week too but no one has yet and that just makes me more anxious!

not doing great today, kids are out with their grandparents so I’m home alone… decided I was going to paint a wall in ds bedroom which has been needed to be done for ages but I’m so jittery not sure it was the best idea!

i too just want to cry 😭 x

@Whycantgiraffesdance let us know how you get on with gp. I know you don't feel like it but painting can be quite therapeutic. Were here for you x

I'm no good at TV 🙄 it bores me too. I need a new hobby, can't concentrate on reading at the moment. The idea of all hobbies bores me too though!

@upanddowns can you see if there's anything going on at your local library or church? Mine has coffee mornings, stitching, yoga etc x

Not much going on here. And then the anxiety would kick in if I found something and tried to go.

@upanddowns once the weather's better I'm going to try and spend more time outdoors. It's always makes me feel better x

Yes, me too. Sunshine helps and warmth.

Well I just laid on my bed for a bit and had a cry, and I feel a bit better for it!

u lovely ladies on here keep me going as well so thank you xx