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i am that thick that i cant even end it all properly

108 replies

UselessWasteOfSpace · 17/01/2008 23:49

im a regular poster who has name changed.

tonight, i decided to end it all. i got all my pills together and took the lots (around 80 or so) and guess what........im am still here. i am that useless i cant even kill myself. i used to be a self harmer then my life changed.

now it has gone downhill yet again.

my dp has just told me that it is all my fault why he has been online cybering with women. hes told me that i am a crap mother and dont deserve my child.

he is always telling me how lucky i am that i am with him, living in his house. well you know what, i dont fcuking feel lucky. if i was lucky these pills would have worked.

and just for the record, i have not just posted this for the attention which i am sure you all think. i know i am a pathetic excuse of a human being. i just need to put it all in writing just to prove to myself how worthless i am.

i am really sorry to you all if this is burdening you you. i really am. im forever saying sorry in my life but sorry doesnt make things better. sorry doesnt make life better. and sorry doesnt make me better

OP posts:
bero · 17/01/2008 23:57

don't leave your child alone in the world with your by the sound of it arse of a 'd'p. Your child needs you. Please get help.

controlfreakygobshite · 17/01/2008 23:58

what were the pills? if you dont want to phone 999 then you need to phone nhs direct who can contact poisons unit to find out what are lekely effects of what you've taken. your posting on here makes me think you dont want to die leaving your dc's.... think of them and act.

ZippiBabes · 17/01/2008 23:58

some anti depressants speed up your heart rate dangerously in overdose

whatever you need help

notjustmom · 17/01/2008 23:58

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bero · 17/01/2008 23:58

I've contacted MNHQ too.

expatinscotland · 17/01/2008 23:58

would you prefer one of us to ring 999 for you?

S1ur · 17/01/2008 23:59

Why on earth wouild you think yourself so shit?

You have a child. You think you are a good person so clearly love your child and try to show it and look after them.

Your dp has been a twat.

Why would you want to never see your dc again?

fortyplus · 17/01/2008 23:59

Life is precious - we are all loved. Your children love you and you'd have to be totally selfish to make them go through life knowing that you've killed yourself. I know people in that position and they can't come to terms with it - it has screwed them up forever - don't do it to your kids - call an ambulance - GET HELP please

Original poster
UselessWasteOfSpace · 18/01/2008 00:00

oh god what the fuck was i thinking, i cant leave my baby, i have just gone and made myself sick and now on the phone to nhs direct. i dont know what i took, whatever was in the cupboard.

i dont even know why i started this post in the 1st place but in a way glad i did as i can how how fucking stupid im being

OP posts:
BoysAreLikeDogs · 18/01/2008 00:00

Please god she has got herself to hospital

controlfreakygobshite · 18/01/2008 00:00

we will all try and help you but you've got to let us do that....

southeastastra · 18/01/2008 00:00

this is awful please post op

madamez · 18/01/2008 00:00

Hang in there girl! YOur DP is a shithead. Tomorrow is another day to kick him to the kerb and start on the path to a better life. Get some medical attention RIGHT NOW.

expatinscotland · 18/01/2008 00:01

FUCK NHS DIRECT!

Phone 999 NOW

ShinyHappyPeopleHoldingHands · 18/01/2008 00:01

Does anyone have any of any Mumsnet HQ person's contact details. eg phone number?

I think now would be the time to use it.. this is someone's life..

"Useless" are you there?

notjustmom · 18/01/2008 00:01

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fairyfly · 18/01/2008 00:01

If you have msn go on that and somebody will ring 999 for you

S1ur · 18/01/2008 00:01

Don't make these decisions about life and death when you are feeling like this.

Just phone.

You need help so that you can try again.

Life can be better and if you give up, you don't get a second chance. PLease call for help.

BoysAreLikeDogs · 18/01/2008 00:01

x post

You are doing the right thing by phoning for help, but time is of the essence, dial 999 for an ambulance, please

stuffitall · 18/01/2008 00:01

being sick good start
are they sending anyone for you
stay talking

expatinscotland · 18/01/2008 00:01

dig out the boxes and bottles of whatever is was you took for the paramedics.

expatinscotland · 18/01/2008 00:01

dig out the boxes and bottles of whatever is was you took for the paramedics.

controlfreakygobshite · 18/01/2008 00:02

keep posting. tell us what you're doing. you know you have to get medical attention don't you. that is the priority.... everything else can wait. is dp in the house? you need to tell him what you've done.

controlfreakygobshite · 18/01/2008 00:03

have you called an ambulance?

S1ur · 18/01/2008 00:03

Good. You are on the phone. PLease, give them your address and go to hospital, being sick isn't enough. sorry.

Your baby needs you and so do lots of other folk ion this world.

Your life might be hard at the moment but it is worth living and fighting fopr.