What life has come to?

[SnowyMouse]

The crisis team have just left, after 'encouraging' me to take my antipsychotics...why has it come to this?

Thanks all for your thoughts, I'll see how it goes tonight.

Good luck SnowyMouse, I know you can do it! Just remember that nothing bad happened when you took your meds before.

Do you have a diagnosis? I would really recommend reading up on your condition as it might help you to understand what is going on for you. The NHS website can be quite good for that sort of thing.

Also remember you are not alone in suffering from this, sometimes illnesses can make you feel like you are the only person with it and very alone, there will be lots of other people out there with the same issues as you.

I have had psychosomatic symptoms before. That is where you feel physical symptoms (I felt something was blocking my throat) but it was actually my brain playing tricks on me. There was nothing blocking my throat, it was caused by anxiety. It's not exactly the same as your situation but I understand how real the voices seem to you because I know how real my blocked throat felt to me. It felt completely real. But just like in your situation it wasn't real, it was my brain causing the issue.

I have non-organic psychosis. Thanks for your support.

You are welcome SnowyMouse, take care of your self.

I've got a medical review tomorrow, I'm dreading it.

What worries you most about it?

What they'll say - a couple of days ago they were threatening depots or admission.

What would need to happen to avoid that?

Do you need to take your meds to avoid admission snowymouse? Have you been able to take them? If you're really struggling to take them then maybe admission would be helpful for you?

They've prescribed me some prn to use.

How do you feel about that OP?

I'm not sure, I haven't got it yet. I don't know whether I'll be able to take it or not, but I can't take it if I don't have it.

That’s true! What’s prn? What stops you taking it?

Prn stands for lorazepam, to try to take the edge off things. The voices stop me taking it.

Have you went against what they said in the past?

The voices are why you need it. What do they say when you explain why you’re struggling to take the meds?

I do tell the voices no/go away/later, they don't always listen when they're loud. If you mean the medics, they say they understand but I have to take them.

You do. The voices can’t physically stop you. They are a part of the illness. Have you taken them today?

@SnowyMouse

I do tell the voices no/go away/later, they don't always listen when they're loud. If you mean the medics, they say they understand but I have to take them.

Sorry - my question wasn’t very clear - I meant going against the voices. It must be very tiring at times trying to please everyone (the voices, the medics). Does lorazepam help a wee bit?

Lorazepam takes the edge off, it can help. I've got 5 tablets worth.

How did today go.

Yesterday was really difficult, so is today.

You mentioned lorazepam takes the edge off. Are you able to take it today? What is making it difficult - are the voices louder or do you feel more tired?

Being tired makes it harder and the voices are more powerful when I'm tired.

They won’t be if you take the meds my lovely.