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Not sure I am very well

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messyoldmess · 30/12/2006 22:43

Some of you may know about my drama with H & my separation etc. I have always felt I was dealing with things ok, but over the last couple of days I have totally lost the plot!
I don't feel I am control of my own head & feel the pressure is too great. I have experienced several panic attacks, tears & now just feel my head is really going to explode & I need to scream or something!
I know this may sound dramatic, but it is truly how I feel. I am scared I am going a bit mad.

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QuootiepieTheNewYearsAss · 31/12/2006 12:23

I read that as being messyoldmess's post - sorry!

QuootiepieTheNewYearsAss · 31/12/2006 12:23

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messyoldmess · 31/12/2006 14:31

I'm sure you're not a weak character, mellowma.
Going to try & lay down now that DS2 is having a nap, as I feel very zombie like!

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QuootiepieTheNewYearsAss · 31/12/2006 14:32

hope you get some rest xXx

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messyoldmess · 31/12/2006 22:20

I rested, but didn't sleep. Been to see a friend tonight & we have had a dance round her kitchen, which barmy as it sounds, really made me feel better!

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QuootiepieTheNewYearsAss · 31/12/2006 22:20

oh good! About the feeling better, not the not sleeping xXx

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messyoldmess · 31/12/2006 22:22

80's music & alcohol is a lethal mix for me!! Did feel better for it though, even if it is bonkers!

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messyoldmess · 31/12/2006 23:14

Feeling bad again, but that is because of H.

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QuootiepieTheHogmanayAss · 31/12/2006 23:15

why? Whats up? xXx

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messyoldmess · 31/12/2006 23:16

He's just an arse, who is trying to get to me, as usual. Sorry.

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QuootiepieTheHogmanayAss · 31/12/2006 23:17

Dont be sorry! how are you feeling?

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messyoldmess · 31/12/2006 23:18

Like crap! Am crying again.

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QuootiepieTheHogmanayAss · 31/12/2006 23:18

oh no. Can I ask why?

QuootiepieTheHogmanayAss · 31/12/2006 23:19

you feeling "bad"? Like shakey or panicy or anything?

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messyoldmess · 31/12/2006 23:21

A bit panicky, but that is because H can get me like that. Very tearful & all over the place.

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QuootiepieTheHogmanayAss · 31/12/2006 23:25

oh dear... I think ive read your threads, but I have a really bad memory at the moment... Dh does that to me aswell. If you get really bad, promise you'll phone out of hours GP? And dont drink, that will make it worse

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messyoldmess · 31/12/2006 23:26

Going to end up in the looney bin!

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QuootiepieTheHogmanayAss · 31/12/2006 23:27

you are not! Ive gone through all sorts, my DH is down out of hours GP all the time getting me all sorts, taken overdoses and im not there yet!

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messyoldmess · 31/12/2006 23:27

Sometimes I drink to numb things, but I know that doesn't really solve anything!

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QuootiepieTheHogmanayAss · 31/12/2006 23:29

dont drink. Please go to GP. Drink makes me so much worse... it will only make things seem much worse, and it weakens defenses and you end up a gibbering wreck (well, I do)

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messyoldmess · 31/12/2006 23:33

I am a bloody wreck regardless!
I know I must cut down & stop drinking, but too late tonight!

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messyoldmess · 01/01/2007 00:47

Going to make GP appt tomorrow.

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QuootiepieTheHogmanayAss · 01/01/2007 00:50

good. If you need something tonight, dont feel bad about calling. Have you anyone else you can call though?

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messyoldmess · 01/01/2007 00:55

No one else I can call, but I'll be okay for tonight, I think.

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mamama · 01/01/2007 02:45

Messy, I'm sorry your having such a hard time. I've been thinking about you. Hope things are closer to be sorted out.

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