Just MC...Long haul, short haul, ranting, weeping, laughing all encouraged. Oldies and newbies very welcome

[liahgen66]

Ok, feel a bit scared actually starting the new thread but here we are, for however long (or short) our time here may be.

Off you go ladies. Welcome () one and all.

buffy i too like the idea of a little brian

Gosh allthe8's that's a bloody long time can see why you are completely fed up of it.

I'll have a small red if I may, didn't sleep today. It's ok, i do sleep depravation well really, there are some benefits to a poor sleeper, dd3 didn't reliably sleep through till gone 18 mths i'd say.

Re my doula work, I did cancel the lady that was due then as i had my mmc and contemplated passing my others to colleagues but thing is as a doula you become so close to your families and protective that I want to see it through till the end. The lady today I've known 2 yrs now as she booked me for her 1st child in 2008, This is their last child and they are a wonderful wonderful couple. It meant the world to me to share it with them. There wasn't even a pang about me to be honest, it's not about me, it's all about them, and you just get lost in the moment. It's a fab fab job.

WE are still going with the sex every other dat theory and still no post erpc period so waiting, am booking docs for next week if no sign as they said 4-6 wks and at my age i can't really afford to leave it too long if there's a problem.

Hope everyone has a good weekend, my 6 yr ds is dancing in a student showcase on sunday to a routine he has completely choreographed himself so am really looking forward to that. His godmother is comng to watch and i haven't seen her since xmas so am really looking forward to seeing her too, she was my best friend before we moved to kent and now we don't see each other as much as we'd like.

Yum Yum Yum - I've eaten my portion - hope it works. Thanks clareanna. Have some wine, I've only got red but allthe8's may have white.

I'm logging off now to watch the second Coronation Street - that Becky is bugging me cos she's 2 weeks behind me in her 'mythical' pregnancy and I hate her cos she's still preg - yes ladies I DO know it's not real!!!

Bye for now. I can feel the tiramisu working already

clear Ooh i like that idea, have asked my italian friend if it's true but i don;t care if it's not, pass it over.

hmmm

liaghen crossed with you again - how do we do that - psychic or something.

Thanks for sharing about your work, it does sound wonderful.

Here's the red wine 9passes a glass) - enjoy - you've earned it!

xxx

hippy step away from Coronation st, not good news for Backy

oooh, wine, yes please

unbuffy I'm discovering what you mean about the pmt... it's here with a vengeance, now I know why I was quite so upset yesterday. pmt gives me waves of nausea too, cruelly imitating pg symptoms when I know there's no chance.

Still, have survived a week back at work, AF should arrive soon now, so maybe before too very long my sanity may return??? Happy weekend all. Off to get sloshed

waves to everyone

Agree about the Corrie thing. On the way to scan (when we found out) was listening to the Archers (My mother was driving. Not my fault) and there was a woman talking about having an abortion the next day. Next day was my erpc as it turned out. never trust fictional characters and thier pretend lives.

No wine still (it doesn't materialise when you wish, apparently) but have found some guinness if anyone's interested?

Have a feeling i'm stuck with Brian now

alba my pmt was totally bonkers- hope you feel more settled soon

allthe8s am also having mad first AF- so far 10 days of spotting or bleeding- argh - understand how you're feeling. Am personally now doubting my chances this month (eats more tiramisu)

liah did you know on predictive txt on iphone your name comes up as lush?! Congrats to your couple- a new baby is always a joy, and should be celebrated I reckon!

Am on cold train home and person next to me listening to irritating music- anyone want to keep me company?!

Hello all. I had an early miscarriage two weeks ago when I was 5 and a half weeks. I have PCOS and it is the first time I had conceived after a long period of trying.

We are trying again straight away so I am now in the TWW and think I am going to be hit hard if it isn't our month but taking each day at a time.

Hi redandyellow- sorry to hear your news and that you've found yourself here...
The Tww is horrid- fingers crossed for you
(passes you some tiramisu)

Morning all, looks like i missed out on last nights wine and cake

Welcome to redandyellow so sorry you have found yourself here. On the positive side we're an nice bunch of girls and always up for hand holding, wine swigging and chocolate sharing.

CD 23 after erpc, the count down begins to my 1st period as my usual cycle length is 28 days. plenty of SWI been going on however not holding out too much hope this month would be nice just to get back to normal.

Felt a bit down at work yesterday, two invites for dinner both from pregnant ladies who are having their last day in the office. I declined both as I just cant sit through the oooh and aahhh's right now. No malice it's just too soon iyswim.

Up early, off to collect my engagement ring today! Also heading off to the biggest primark in London for a good old browse through..i could be gone some time

Have a lovely weekend all x x x

Hi all
Jumping on to update list - grabbed Thursday's, have done cycle days but have not yet read all the posts in between in case there is more news?

Sadly learned yesterday that I have had a second MMC, should have been 11 weeks, baby stopped growing at 9. Waiting for an ERPC. Am doing ok this morning, but know it will be a bumpy road in the next few weeks (and longer!) So have deleted myself from BFP list.

Will catch up on all the comings and goings - see you all later.

Saturday list:
Moofold ttc#2 UCL~33 cycle1 CD39
northlondonchoclover TTC#1 UCL28 cycle WTF CD32
Liahgen66 TTC#6 UCL26 cycle 1 (post mc) CD30
icedlemonmuffin TTC#2 UCL24-32 cycle10 CD28
RunForTheHills TTC#1 UCL30 cycle 14 CD26
yogamat TTC#2 UCL? cycle WTF CD26
vivcliquot TTC#1 UCL27 cycle 3 CD25
sunburntats TTC#2 UCL28 cycle 2 CD24
Tetleytea TTC#2 UCL28 cycle 3 CD24
Barrenbrook TTC#1 UCL 25-28 cycle 11 CD23
Albadetamble TTC#2 UCL25 cycle WTF CD23
LittleMiss72 TTC#1 UCL28 cycle WTF CD22
Hopefully TTC#2 UCL28 cycle 3 CD21
NoShouting TTC#5 UCL? cycle 1 CD20
Curlylox TTC #3 UCL 28 cycle WTF CD20
Goodluckbear TTC#1 UCL28 cycle 1 CD18
Zayja TTC#1 UCL24-26 cycle 11 CD18
Slimyak TTC #2 UCL 26 cycle 2 CD17
Tigger15 TTC#2 UCL26 cycle 9 CD15
Gi1da TTC #1 UCL28 cycle WTF CD 15
Tigerbear TTC#1 UCL26 cycle 7 CD14
Allthe8s TTC#3 UCL28 cycle1 CD14
SarahMumtoAlex TTC#2 UCL28 Cycle 6 CD12
dirtgirl TTC#2 UCL28 cycle1 CD10
clareanna TTC#2 UCL35 cycle 1 CD9
sakura TTC#1 UCL28 cycle1 CD9
LucyT66 TTC 1 UCL 33-34 cycle 3 CD6
Underneaththestream TTC#1 UCL ? cycle 1 CD6
Unbuffy TTC#2 UCL? cycle 1 CD5

PENDING STATS
westyorkshiregirl TTC#? UCL? cycle? CD?
Polyanna TTC#6 UCL27 WTF CD?
Malteser1981 TTC#? UCL28 cycle WTF CD?
slimyak TTC#2 UCL? cycle? CD?
sparklyrainbow TTC#1 UCL 28 cycle WTF
shinysideup TTC#2 UCL 25 cycle WTF
hippychick TTC #3 UCL? cycle WTF
lauraloo09 TTC#2 UCL? cycle WTF
CCBloom TTC#1 UCL? cycle WTF
Mummy369
meatntattypie
GinaFB

WTTC
Jollster TTC#2 MMC2 26/02/10 waiting for ERPC

GRADUATES
amyboo
totally
hoops997 BFP 11 July 2009
Stressy BFP 22nd August 2009
becky78 BFP 4th September 2009
LittleOneMum BFP 7th September 2009
Waitingisntfun BFP 19th September 2009
Chamois BFP 7th October 2009
Apples BFP 9th November 2009
Meita BFP 10th December 2009
CakeandFineWine BFP 27th December 2009
boodleboot BFP 2nd January 2010
LeeWT BFP 21st January 2010
TFLS BFP 22nd January 2010
Louisesh BFP 22nd January 2010
MrsRigby BFP 27th January 2010
TheKurgan BFP 30th January 2010
effilump BFP 8th February 2010
Sarahlou8 BFP 10th February 2010
samanthab123 BFP 10th February 2010
Cheepz BFP 16th February 2010

So very sorry to hear that Jollster. I hope you have loads of love and support around you.

Really sorry Jollster I know words can't really help but thinking of you.

Af got me yesterday so can someone please put me at the bottom of the list.

Being on this thread is both good and bad - good because we all understand and haven't given up - bad because of what we have all been through and it's so sad and frustrating.

Saturday list:
Moofold ttc#2 UCL~33 cycle1 CD39
northlondonchoclover TTC#1 UCL28 cycle WTF CD32
Liahgen66 TTC#6 UCL26 cycle 1 (post mc) CD30
RunForTheHills TTC#1 UCL30 cycle 14 CD26
yogamat TTC#2 UCL? cycle WTF CD26
vivcliquot TTC#1 UCL27 cycle 3 CD25
sunburntats TTC#2 UCL28 cycle 2 CD24
Tetleytea TTC#2 UCL28 cycle 3 CD24
Barrenbrook TTC#1 UCL 25-28 cycle 11 CD23
Albadetamble TTC#2 UCL25 cycle WTF CD23
LittleMiss72 TTC#1 UCL28 cycle WTF CD22
Hopefully TTC#2 UCL28 cycle 3 CD21
NoShouting TTC#5 UCL? cycle 1 CD20
Curlylox TTC #3 UCL 28 cycle WTF CD20
Goodluckbear TTC#1 UCL28 cycle 1 CD18
Zayja TTC#1 UCL24-26 cycle 11 CD18
Slimyak TTC #2 UCL 26 cycle 2 CD17
Tigger15 TTC#2 UCL26 cycle 9 CD15
Gi1da TTC #1 UCL28 cycle WTF CD 15
Tigerbear TTC#1 UCL26 cycle 7 CD14
Allthe8s TTC#3 UCL28 cycle1 CD14
SarahMumtoAlex TTC#2 UCL28 Cycle 6 CD12
dirtgirl TTC#2 UCL28 cycle1 CD10
clareanna TTC#2 UCL35 cycle 1 CD9
sakura TTC#1 UCL28 cycle1 CD9
LucyT66 TTC 1 UCL 33-34 cycle 3 CD6
Underneaththestream TTC#1 UCL ? cycle 1 CD6
Unbuffy TTC#2 UCL? cycle 1 CD5
icedlemonmuffin TTC#2 UCL24-32 cycle11 CD2

PENDING STATS
westyorkshiregirl TTC#? UCL? cycle? CD?
Polyanna TTC#6 UCL27 WTF CD?
Malteser1981 TTC#? UCL28 cycle WTF CD?
slimyak TTC#2 UCL? cycle? CD?
sparklyrainbow TTC#1 UCL 28 cycle WTF
shinysideup TTC#2 UCL 25 cycle WTF
hippychick TTC #3 UCL? cycle WTF
lauraloo09 TTC#2 UCL? cycle WTF
CCBloom TTC#1 UCL? cycle WTF
Mummy369
meatntattypie
GinaFB

WTTC
Jollster TTC#2 MMC2 26/02/10 waiting for ERPC

GRADUATES
amyboo
totally
hoops997 BFP 11 July 2009
Stressy BFP 22nd August 2009
becky78 BFP 4th September 2009
LittleOneMum BFP 7th September 2009
Waitingisntfun BFP 19th September 2009
Chamois BFP 7th October 2009
Apples BFP 9th November 2009
Meita BFP 10th December 2009
CakeandFineWine BFP 27th December 2009
boodleboot BFP 2nd January 2010
LeeWT BFP 21st January 2010
TFLS BFP 22nd January 2010
Louisesh BFP 22nd January 2010
MrsRigby BFP 27th January 2010
TheKurgan BFP 30th January 2010
effilump BFP 8th February 2010
Sarahlou8 BFP 10th February 2010
samanthab123 BFP 10th February 2010
Cheepz BFP 16th February 2010

Crikey amazed I managed that on an iPod - bloody tiny screen!

Just realised I think I have gone a little mad. I have an awful cold and am just realising how absolutely desperate I am to SWI on the chance that I can be pg again. Have been far too ill and snottily unattractive to entice dp over the last couple of days and am now feeling desolate that am missing potential window. (God before this all happened I didn't even think about such things). Just feel that once af comes it really is all over. I don't think I've come to terms with the mc yet, as though if I can avoid af it's like the mc never happened and I am still pg like I should be. Does that make any sense? I'm just setting myself up for a kick in the teeth in about a fortnight aren't I?

Apols for being totally negligent at name checking, I have an awful memory and a miniscule screen, keep worrying about missing some of you so instead I miss all of you! Loving the tiramisu tradition as well as little brian. Wishing everyone a peaceful Saturday.

Jollster, I'm so so sorry. I know there's no words that can make it any better.

Oh jollster that's shit, I am so so sorry.

Jollster honey,
I'm so sorry you are going through this again.
It is shite beyond believe.
Thinking of you xx

I'm really sorry to hear your news jollster. Such a sad thing to have happened again. Thinking of you.

Jollster- so sorry- can't imagine how you are feeling, what awful news

I am currently hiding in a changing room having had a total panic attack. Shopping with hungry toddler, too many bags and no pushchair- (how stupid?!) in busy cafe, dh turned up and disappeared to get a table, toddler threw massive tantrum on floor, I dropped my tray AND NO ONE HELPED. Just lobbed ds at dh and had to make a run from it before I started howling . Normally this is the sort of situation I take in my stride and find funny/ easy. Now I'm hiding in a cubicle typing this in an attempt to sort my brian (!) out and calm down.
(wipes tears away, deep breaths...)
am clearly not right at the moment

Jollster I'm really sorry too (I think we spoke on another thread). That is such a shitty thing to happen.

Gi1da I think I am feeling the same as you - thinking that only another pg can erase the mc for me. I am also desperately swi although I am still in the wtf cycle and have no idea if I am even ovulating. dh is not being at all supportive about the whole thing - told me off for feeling sorry for myself this morning.

hope everyone has good weekends anyway.

clareanna deep breaths. You will be fine. Some deep breaths, then go back out, have a cup of tea and go home. Maybe buy yourself something indulgent on the way home.

Pollybloodyanna I know how it feels to think only another pregnancy can solve things. But please don't pin too much on that. It might help, but you might also end up very scared about how the new pregnancy progresses and it can bring its own problems.

My enforced ban on trying again is actually really helping me deal with things properly this time, rather than just rushing on to try again as I did last time. Not that I think you shouldn't try again straight away, just don't think it will be a cure all.

Oh dear clareanna just take a very deep breath and walk out with your head held high. Poor thing! Cake and tea for you immediately!

Spare a thought for my poor dear friend who had a moment of public shame this week. Standing in a cafe/deli queue at busy lunchtime and tutting from impatience. Looks at woman behind to share a moment of god how long is this taking. Woman behind looks a bit strained and pointedly looks down at floor. Friend looks down to see that her slip has fallen right down and is hanging around her ankles. Fuck. Pretends aloofness and casually steps out if it, reaches down, picks up and carefully folds before placing in handbag. Move along nothing to see here. Endures further wait till gets to cash desk. Chap at till says "so what've you got there love?". Friend suddenly thinks he must have seen her put something in bag and has shoplifted so completely loses cool, gets slip out of handbag in a fluster trying to explain that her underwear simply misfired and it's been one of those days, and she doesn't normally wear a slip but last time she wore this skirt someone told her it was a bit seethrough and and and blither blither etc. Poor chap goes bright red and says "er no, I just meant what did you have on your tray.."

Muser thank you for wise words re ttc right after mc. I know it makes sense. Will do my best to take to heart. Pollybloodyanna you too. Gonna be tough though, sorry to hear you are going through this too. Guess that kind of makes us what-the-fuckbuddies?

Very best wishes jollster and (((())))

Clareanna hope you've found your way out by now! It's funny how the littlest things can drive you to tears...