Just MC...Long haul, short haul, ranting, weeping, laughing all encouraged. Oldies and newbies very welcome

[liahgen66]

Ok, feel a bit scared actually starting the new thread but here we are, for however long (or short) our time here may be.

Off you go ladies. Welcome () one and all.

Hi everyone, especially anyone new. So sorry you have to find your way here.

I am in a bad mood, met couple friends for coffee this afternoon and they spent the whole hour talking about last saturday night when they were out, what they did, who they talked to, "oh yes him with the nice eyes" etc etc

I was so bored and more than a little pissed off i very nearly just got up and left. I did cut short my coffee but don't actually think they noticed, cost me bloody 8 quid too, (had dd with me, so drink for her too and snack)

and i am so pissed off with this waiting. day bloody 28 now and no period. Last time i had mmc, I fell in the post bleed time so no period but after normal mc period arrived bang on time. Where is it????? Am fed up of boring ttc sex every other day.

I just want my last pregnancy back. I want to turn back the clock. It's not fair. I even just want a bloody period, how sodding sad is that?

hippy how you get on with doc?

cross post hippy at least it doesn't sound anything sinister. Your doc sounds lovely.

I know it must be really hard being in with people who are having terminations, but I guess we never know why someone is doing it. This experience has, weirdly, made me even more pro-choice. Every child deserves to be as wanted as the ones I lost. Every single one.

We crossed posts liaghen.

Sorry you had such a crap day, how amazing that you fell preg so quickly after an mc. Can i ask did that go to full term or was that the other mc. Sorry to ask I just thought it would be very encouraging if you got preg straight after an mc and then all went well.

I understand you want your last pregnancy back. I so wish we could all just have them back - it's totally sh*t isn't it. So bloody unfair to have it all taken away.

I hope you soon either get AF so you can get on with trying or get a BFP - is that possible??

well we're certainly trying. If bfp's were given out for dedicated trying i think we would all be right at the top of that list.

My history is

1st pg (8 yrs trying) - dd1

2nd pg (conceived on mini pill) - mc@11 wks, erpc

(the split up with exh and abstained for a year!!)

Got back with exH,

3rd pg, (1st mth trying) ds1

Split up with exH, Had merina fitted postnatally

4th pg (1 period after having merina removed) ds2

5th pg (conceived whilst bf and so no period, ds was 8 mths) mmc@ 10 and half wks, erpc

6th pg (conceived straight after erpc bleed)- dd2

7th pg (conceived 1st mth after stopping bf in order to ttc)

8th pg (conceived after 2 mths periods returning after bf) mc@6 wks

9th pg (conceived after year) mmc@ 10 and half wks

Does that make sense?

in the 8 yrs ttc for dd1 I never got pregnant once

hippy I must ask my doctor about my pains - I wonder whether A&E docotor did something he shouldn't when he was fishing around my cervix with forceps

Hello urd, sorry you're joinging us here.

Liah, sorry you're feeling crap - I am also wishing for my period - never thought I would, but i just want to get to normal too.

Anyway, I shall mostly add to the sad mood - finding work very tough as the last time I was there I was going through all the scans/waiting to bleed before the miscarriage.

Dh and I also had a long discussion about swi. He is fine as long as he doesn't know it is swi, but I wish he would acknowledge that it is ok to swi and not just"see how it goes". I am too old to "see how it goes". grrr. But I seemed to get through to him, maybe.

However on the upside I had an erm dream with Simon Cowell in last night - maybe I'm ovulating??? (or mad)

Ok I'm going to try and end the day on a postive note. Ladies although I'm on a temporarily enforced ttc ban I am hoping to see some new graduates added to the list before we hit March - only a few days to go so I've got my fingers and toes crossed for you all. Actually that's quite uncomfortable so I'll just send lots of positive thoughts your way instead!!!

Sweet 'Simon Cowell free' dreams to you all - unless of course you want a repeat performance Pollybloodyanna!

Ohhh cowell... Something about his twinkly eye thing, and vast power.... Sorry, forgot where I was for a minute.... [embarrassed]

Malteser - good luck returning to work- can't imagine what that must feel like as a mw

postive day ended in tears... Sometimes the stress of being 'fine' and holding it all together gets you doesn't it? Went out with friends tonight and had a sob on the way home... Feel better now. Tomorrow is another day and even better it's Friday!

well I have got a term ladt with regular but comfortable ctx happening so hopefully i'll be off in the night to support this wonderful couple through thr birth of their 2nd child. I was there for the 1st too and am so looking forward to seeing them complete their journey.

clare try and get a good nights sleep. Take each day as it comes.

Thanks Liaghen for such a comprehensive report. Isn't it strange that you didn't get preg for 8 years and then loads of pregs even when BF & on mini pill. Your fertility is definitely a bit of a WTF thing.

Anyway, I really appreciate you telling me all that and I am going to focus on your conception of dd2 - directly after your EPRC - hope you don't mind, I just find it encouraging.

You really have been through the mill haven't you.

There are so many people on here who have had numerous awful experiences. I feel a bit of fraud having just had my first MC at 43. But I know that's daft and I am entitled to be on here and grateful for all the support.

Nearly the week-end now ladies.

ps. Liaghen are you a MW or a doula?

pollybloodyanna You little minx!!!!

Good morning everyone, I hope Friday is a better day all around. And Hippy thanks for calling me a spring chick - I feel much more spritely!
Am feeling a bit down in the dumps today as at the end of my first week back at work (am at home today) I have come down with a storming cold. MOST annoying because if I ignore the fact that I'm in the WTF zone, right about now would be the time to do the deed.. and I'm thinking that nose dripping and violent sneezing is probably not the biggest turn on? Dammit!!! [angry, yet pathetic emoticon]

Also wanted to say that I have only had the one pg, which ended in mc, and that's bad enough. So sorry that many of you have been going through the emotional wringer for a long time. I can't imagine how hard its been, but bloody hell, you are one bunch of strong, determined women (even if I'm sure it doesn't feel like it a lot of the time).

R - E - S - P - E - C - T to you all!

Apart from you Pollybloodyanna ... Simon Cowell??

Mind you, sometimes I think I'd go a long way to become a lady of leisure!

Beautiful little girl born at 7am 8lb 11

I am a Doula hippy

I too am focusing on conception of dd2.

Have good day all, off for nap now.

Hello all

Pollybloodyanna - I hope you get some resolution on your pains. I think we met on a miscarriage thread recently. Sorry to hear you are still uncomfortable.

Well, AF arrived yesterday for me. This is the first time I've actually been glad to see it. Although only 4 weeks since medically managed mmc I was beginning to think everything had stopped and was already thinking spose this is it, I never have a period again, it's all stopped...etc, etc, etc y'know the usual 3am sort of thoughts. Anyhoo, looks like I am still functioning so that's good and can start some serious SWI soon. DH has been warned .

Have been feeling really OK and together (well apart from the 3am thingy) until yesterday when a colleague said how I did the right thing stopping at just the one (I have a 23yr old DD) and at least I didn't have to deal with small ones now. To be fair she doesn't know I was pregnant and I was probably a bit hormonal but I very nearly lost it and started howling. Long deep breaths sorted it. Weird how little comments can set you off just when you think you're doing ok.

Lovely news liaghen66. What a fantastic start to the weekend!

I've booked to see a nutritional therapist next week. I just want to try anything to boost my fertility as I feel I am on limited time (43). Been keeping a food diary for a few days to show her (as requested). Started off very angelic with proper fresh wholesome food. Has gradually degenerated into OMG, did I really eat all that, I can't put that down. I'll let you know how it goes!

Here's to a better weekend all
x

Hi all, having a tearful day today, seem to cry at everything only early days yet I suppose. Going to London tomorrow for day with hubby and kids so hopefully will lift the spirits. Take good care all.xx

urd I think the tearful days are inevitable. YOU are allowed to feel this awful sadness. I say just go with it - don't hold back. Hope you feel better soon.

Didn't go to the school to do pick up so no shortbread teddies today - sorry to all. Expect someone else will bring you something nice soon.

shiny I'm 43 too. We'll get there together - ok?

Well done liahgen. I hope it wasn't too awful for you to see the baby being born. Sounds like it was more uplifting than sad.
Will have to chat one day about how you became a doula - it sounds like a fab job. But I'll let you have a sleep first .

Hi Urd would love to say it gets better - apparently it does - at the moment the only consolation i can give is it gets easier and the tearful days are not so hard to deal with.

Liahgen that sounds wonderful, although i imagine hard for you right now - especially with your history as outlined which i have to say sucks for you. You must be an especially brave and kind lady, i think.

Hi to everybody else, namechecking is getting waaaay to complicated and my ickle brian might explode! Hope you're all feeling a bit better today - roll on the weekend.

brain. . told ya.

unbuffy Have a vision now of you with a little sensible man standing next to you saying, in a squeeky voice, "Hi, I'm Brian!"

I know what you mean about name checking, this is the busies thread I've ever tried to keep up with. Just goes to show how bloody common these awful MC's are, I guess.

I think it does get easier, I found out 2 weeks ago that our little one had no heartbeat and had to have the eprc on the following tuesday. I'd say I'm defo coping better now than this time last week.

Hang on in there everyone - it's the week-end [half-arsed smile].

I coped relatively well until pmt set in (about a week ago). Then everything went crap again. Not trying to bring you down - just warning you of potential evil hormones waiting in the wings. Frankly, any coping is good coping.

Brian says hi too.

Damn, we've run out of wine. Anybody? Can swop for choc chip cookies...

Red wine for you and Brian (just a little glass for him cos he's only ickle.)

Yeah i know what you mean. I know that my hormones are kicking in cos my endo pain has started up - which is good in one way cos it means my body is getting geared up to try again. Now I just need my brain (see how it's spelt) to catch up.

In about a week I'll be on here shouting about everything being crap again and you'll know that the pmt has struck.

I have 2 bottles of wine - anyone want a top up???

Special hello to anyone whose just recently experienced the hell that is MC.

I am here with the wine, happy to share I am now on day 12 of AF - getting a little fed up now so have poured myself a large glass.

I am too knackered to the point my eyes hurt to name check tonight sorry ladies, DD1 was up last night all night crying with earache and trip to the drs confirmed infection in both She is better this eve so hopefully she will sleep better.

I hope you all have a relaxing Friday night and I am holding the bottle up for anyone who wants it........cheers ladies xxxxxx

Evening all
have just heard something which may not be true, but wanted to share it anyway...
Apparently in Italy it's tradition for mother inlaws to serve daughter in laws tiramisu when they want them to get pregnant.
So... Big wedges of tiramisu all round!!!!