Just MC...Long haul, short haul, ranting, weeping, laughing all encouraged. Oldies and newbies very welcome

[liahgen66]

Ok, feel a bit scared actually starting the new thread but here we are, for however long (or short) our time here may be.

Off you go ladies. Welcome () one and all.

ooops a BPF is closely related to a BFP by the way. Bountifully Pregnant Foo-foo?

Testing soon but being very very good to not try too early as a) can't afford more tests than have got in the cupboard and b) don't particularly want to see that bfn if I can avoid it. Would far rather test for confirmation if at all possible . But who knows what's going on at the moment. No signs of anything at all going on round here!

Here's some experimental chilli chocolate truffles I made on Saturday to pass out. Now, who was it baked yesterday [hopeful emoticon]...?

Hi Mumsie and Jules - glad you came here, but sorry it's a sad time . Sometimes it is a bit lonely in RL if those around you don't understand the loss. The ladies here have often been the only ones who get what I'm on about, slightly concerned that some may be mind-readers (mostly concerned for them, as I am quite insane and assume no one would genuinely want to read my mind).

Elmmum - bigs hugs, hope the day gets better.

And Bigmuther - big hugs for you too.

MrsG - hope we don't have to rename today "Day of Hell" (DoH for short) - have you got that meeting with HR today? Good luck for that, keep coming on here for a rant if you like.

WestYorks, your post just reminded me so much of me about two weeks ago. (Don't mean to pretend that it's the same, obviously not, but I think we've been in synch with a lot of stuff so whenever you write stuff I think - oh yes, she's one of the mind reader ones, she knows exactly what I'm thinking). When I got my second period post mc (and had obviously - despite PMT - convinced myself could be pg again) I started balling my eyes out in front of my fitness class. Fortunately all women. I literally said "I have to go home now because I've got my period", and cried and cried all the way home. I thought the first one was bad, but the second was worse (and heavy, and more painful). And it's so shit.

Hi to Jollster and Barrenbrook, and everyone else (I forgot to take notes from the weekend's posts, but I did read them all and I am thinking of you all). Unbuffy - experimental chocolate is right up my street, lovely.

Viv - what's the chat?? High fives for a French bean!!

xxxxxxx

Hello lovely ladies,
thank you all so much for thinking of me. Didn't go for the erpc, have a scan booked for next Monday to check what's what so FX. Won't go into detail as I don't want to stir bad memories but everything seems to be ok so far.
I too feel lonely in RL and it is greatly comforting to know that this group is here for support/hugs/advice etc at such a sad time. I feel lucky to have found you and think you are incredibly brave and generous to care about peolple you don't know when your own difficult experiences are still fresh and still healing within.
Anyway enough mushy stuff.
Hussy Cat update still can't find kittens, think they may be in the garage but it's full of junk DH's stuff, so can't look properly.

Hi everyone,

I went to my GP today, she is going to book me in at the EPU and it think they will give me a scan.

Im really scared just sitting at home waiting for phone call to see when to go up.

Big tub of caramel cracklepops on my desk, any takers?

Just read first page of this thread, Liahgen predicted twins before 999 posts... We're not far off now, so waiting for a flurry of BFPs or maybe redandyellow or floweringcurrant popping back in with exciting news from early scans!

I'm busy planning Easter hols lastminute skiing trip to cheer me up if BFN this month... Could become a very expensive year if I'm not up-duffed soon if this is setting the standard for cheer me up treats!

So sorry for those of you still going through early days of pain, confusion, sadness, fear and grief... Bubble baths, weeping, white wine* and chocolate do all help.
Putting on a brave face doesn't, so feel free to rant!

(*red wine for me still tasted like vinegar till I got my first BFN... and others found the same)

big waves to all... whether you're hiding from the world or back to optimism and the joys of spring

MONDAY'S STATS

Moofold ttc#2 UCL~33 cycle1 CD62
Mummy369 TTC#4 UCL 26-30 cycle WTF CD57
Northlondonchoclover TTC#1 UCL28 cycle WTF CD53
RunForTheHills TTC#1 UCL30 cycle 14 CD49
yogamat TTC#2 UCL? cycle WTF CD49
sunburntats TTC#2 UCL28 cycle 2 CD47
NoShouting TTC#5 UCL? cycle 1 CD43
Tigerbear TTC#1 UCL26 cycle 7 CD37
Allthe8s TTC#3 UCL28 cycle1 CD37
dirtgirl TTC#2 UCL28 cycle1 CD33
clareanna TTC#2 UCL35 cycle 1 CD32
sakura TTC#1 UCL28 cycle1 CD32
LucyT66 TTC 1 UCL 33-34 cycle 3 CD29
Underneaththestream TTC#1 UCL ? cycle 1 CD29
Unbuffy TTC#2 UCL? cycle 1 CD28
shinysideup TTC#2 UCL25 cycle1 CD26
icedlemonmuffin TTC#2 UCL24-32 cycle11 CD25
HappyGirl1 TTC#1 UCL 26-28 cycle1 CD25
cinnamonswirl TTC#? cycle? UCL 23-30 CD25
albadetamble TTC#2 UCL25 cycle1 CD22
CCBloom TTC#1 UCL28 cycle1 CD22
Pollyanna TTC#6 UCL27 cycle1 CD20
BunnyBaby TTC #3 UCL28 cycle 1 CD18
Barrenbrook TTC#1 UCL 25-28 cycle 12 CD18
slimyak TTC#2 UCL 26 cycle 3 CD17
Zayja TTC#1 UCL24-26 cycle 12 CD16
vivcliquot TTC#1 UCL27 cycle 4 CD16
Hopefully TTC#2 UCL28 cycle 4 CD16
Limelight TTC2 UCL35 cycle 1 (post erpc) CD15
Goodluckbear TTC#1 UCL28 cycle 2 CD15
LittleMiss72 TTC#1 UCL28 cycle 2 CD13
Tigger15 TTC#2 UCL26 cycle 10 CD13
Curlylox TTC #3 UCL 28 cycle 1 CD13
Liahgen ttc#6 UCL 26 cycle 1 (post erpc) CD11
Malteser1981 TTC#? UCL28 cycle 1 CD9
westyorkshiregirl TTC# 1 UCL 37 cycle 2 CD 5
Gi1da TTC #1 UCL28 cycle 1 CD3

PENDING STATS

sparklyrainbow TTC#1 UCL 28 cycle WTF CD?
hippychick TTC #3 UCL? cycle WTF CD?
lauraloo09 TTC#2 UCL? cycle WTF CD?
Urd TTC#3 UCL28 cycle WTF CD?

meatntattypie
GinaFB
Elmmu
Spottysox waiting for MC scan 18/3

WTTC
Muser TTC#1 EP 18/02/10 on month 2 of 3 month wait
Jollster TTC#2 MMC2 26/02/10
MrsGazebo TTC#1 MMC6 Molar 8/1/10. On 3-6 month wait

GRADUATES
amyboo
totally
hoops997 BFP 11 July 2009
Stressy BFP 22nd August 2009
becky78 BFP 4th September 2009
LittleOneMum BFP 7th September 2009
Waitingisntfun BFP 19th September 2009
Chamois BFP 7th October 2009
Apples BFP 9th November 2009
Meita BFP 10th December 2009
CakeandFineWine BFP 27th December 2009
boodleboot BFP 2nd January 2010
LeeWT BFP 21st January 2010
TFLS BFP 22nd January 2010
Louisesh BFP 22nd January 2010
MrsRigby BFP 27th January 2010
TheKurgan BFP 30th January 2010
effilump BFP 8th February 2010
Sarahlou8 BFP 10th February 2010
samanthab123 BFP 10th February 2010
Cheepz BFP 16th February 2010
redandyellowandpinkandgreen BFP 6th March 2010
floweringcurrant BFP 8th March 2010

Afternoon all,

Updated the list for today, spring has sprung so it would be lovely to have couple of BFP's.

Question: OV pain, for the last two cycles post erpc it's been more painful than usual, is this normal.? Guessing not so have booked into the docs tomorrow for an examination something certainly doesn't feel right and I'm starting to get a little worried.

Been doing the swi since Thursday and have had the occasional twinge, never have before so it's ringing alarm bells now. anyone else had any experience of this?

< grabs the cracklepops and runs>

Doh.. just seen the stats updated

oo oo me can i have twins? [buffy starts whittling at rod for own back].

Someone had better hurry up and have a bfp soon, its been aaaages [whips out serious specs to examine stats list]. Hmmmm... last bfp 8th March! That's two WHOLE weeks ago. Who's at the top of the list, and what news? [Looks at Moofold, Mummy369, Northlondonchoclover RunForTheHills, yogamat, sunburntats, NoShouting, Tigerbear, Allthe8s and dirtgirl over the top of serious specs librarian-wise]. I'm starting to get twitchy about testing mesself, but there's all these folk above me on the list, and I must wait my turn ...

[Buffy looks at everybody above herself on list speculatively, trying to see if any seem bigger around the middle and are avoiding wine/blue cheese/men]

Waves to newbies, and to see you here. We'll all get onto the grads list in the end. Meantime, here is a good place to be.

[buffy tries to restrain manic chipperness and return to zenlike calm state. fails horribly.]

Hi Ladies, been lurking for a few days as have been on a rollercoaster of emotions. Feel totally and utterly shit today to be frank and it is hard to talk to anyone as no-one really understand the mental torture of that hope building and being snatched away. BF had baby at weekend (Which I am chuffed about btw) RTD came today (have given up trying to convince myself its implantation bleeding!) along with a letter from the hospital about a Rememberance service next month for dd2, born 10 months ago today. Off to cry into my jacket spud

I promise to come back later and be less self indulgent as I know sone of you ladies are having a tough time right now xx

updating the stats for Monday

Moofold ttc#2 UCL~33 cycle1 CD62
Mummy369 TTC#4 UCL 26-30 cycle WTF CD57
Northlondonchoclover TTC#1 UCL28 cycle WTF CD53
RunForTheHills TTC#1 UCL30 cycle 14 CD49
yogamat TTC#2 UCL? cycle WTF CD49
sunburntats TTC#2 UCL28 cycle 2 CD47
NoShouting TTC#5 UCL? cycle 1 CD43
Tigerbear TTC#1 UCL26 cycle 7 CD37
dirtgirl TTC#2 UCL28 cycle1 CD33
clareanna TTC#2 UCL35 cycle 1 CD32
sakura TTC#1 UCL28 cycle1 CD32
LucyT66 TTC 1 UCL 33-34 cycle 3 CD29
Underneaththestream TTC#1 UCL ? cycle 1 CD29
Unbuffy TTC#2 UCL? cycle 1 CD28
shinysideup TTC#2 UCL25 cycle1 CD26
icedlemonmuffin TTC#2 UCL24-32 cycle11 CD25
HappyGirl1 TTC#1 UCL 26-28 cycle1 CD25
cinnamonswirl TTC#? cycle? UCL 23-30 CD25
albadetamble TTC#2 UCL25 cycle1 CD22
CCBloom TTC#1 UCL28 cycle1 CD22
Pollyanna TTC#6 UCL27 cycle1 CD20
BunnyBaby TTC #3 UCL28 cycle 1 CD18
Barrenbrook TTC#1 UCL 25-28 cycle 12 CD18
slimyak TTC#2 UCL 26 cycle 3 CD17
Zayja TTC#1 UCL24-26 cycle 12 CD16
vivcliquot TTC#1 UCL27 cycle 4 CD16
Hopefully TTC#2 UCL28 cycle 4 CD16
Limelight TTC2 UCL35 cycle 1 (post erpc) CD15
Goodluckbear TTC#1 UCL28 cycle 2 CD15
LittleMiss72 TTC#1 UCL28 cycle 2 CD13
Tigger15 TTC#2 UCL26 cycle 10 CD13
Curlylox TTC #3 UCL 28 cycle 1 CD13
Liahgen ttc#6 UCL 26 cycle 1 (post erpc) CD11
Malteser1981 TTC#? UCL28 cycle 1 CD9
westyorkshiregirl TTC# 1 UCL 37 cycle 2 CD 5
Gi1da TTC #1 UCL28 cycle 1 CD3
Allthe8s TTC#3 UCL28 cycle2 CD1

PENDING STATS

sparklyrainbow TTC#1 UCL 28 cycle WTF CD?
hippychick TTC #3 UCL? cycle WTF CD?
lauraloo09 TTC#2 UCL? cycle WTF CD?
Urd TTC#3 UCL28 cycle WTF CD?

meatntattypie
GinaFB
Elmmu
Spottysox waiting for MC scan 18/3

WTTC
Muser TTC#1 EP 18/02/10 on month 2 of 3 month wait
Jollster TTC#2 MMC2 26/02/10
MrsGazebo TTC#1 MMC6 Molar 8/1/10. On 3-6 month wait

GRADUATES
amyboo
totally
hoops997 BFP 11 July 2009
Stressy BFP 22nd August 2009
becky78 BFP 4th September 2009
LittleOneMum BFP 7th September 2009
Waitingisntfun BFP 19th September 2009
Chamois BFP 7th October 2009
Apples BFP 9th November 2009
Meita BFP 10th December 2009
CakeandFineWine BFP 27th December 2009
boodleboot BFP 2nd January 2010
LeeWT BFP 21st January 2010
TFLS BFP 22nd January 2010
Louisesh BFP 22nd January 2010
MrsRigby BFP 27th January 2010
TheKurgan BFP 30th January 2010
effilump BFP 8th February 2010
Sarahlou8 BFP 10th February 2010
samanthab123 BFP 10th February 2010
Cheepz BFP 16th February 2010
redandyellowandpinkandgreen BFP 6th March 2010
floweringcurrant BFP 8th March 2010

Oh bugger Allthe8s so sorry you're having such a hard time. There's homemade Nigella's Chocolate&Guinness cake down here at the bottom of the list, with a side helping of Irish coffee to help it go down. And a big box of clean hankies too. In fact, its all boxed up as a takeaway, so here off with you to find a quiet spot to yourself. Look after yourself and DH, hope things feel easier soon.

HUGS Allthe8s so sorry your having such a tough time right now. Lots of TLC and that lovely virtual comfort package hunni x x x

allthe8s if there's one place that can understand that mental torture and will listen it's here- I think everyone has good and totally shite days. If it's any help I'm nearing the end of my tww and actually found myself squeezing my boobs to see if they were bigger whilst in the queue at a kids themepark. (which could have got me arrested in he USA!) The emotional rollercoaster is exhausting ( not just real ones!) I am pretty certain my RTD is about to start, but that doesn't stop me hoping against hope. Big hug to you. X

Stop me please! all this talk of testing has got me considering a quick trip to a pharmacy before we fly home... Have got a nice CB waiting at home to crush my hopes test with argh!!!

Allthe8s Sorry you're feeling shitty chick and that got you, sending you lots of love (and chocolate and wine)

Clareanna P*ssing myself about you groping your own boobs (and breathing a sigh of relief that it's not just me that gropes ones own bosom!!)

Mumsie123 Any news on the EPU appointment?

littlemiss Hope the docs appointment goes well tomorrow matey and that there's nothing to worry about. Good to go and get it checked out though if you have a hunch something ain't what it should be.

Hello to everyone else (barrenbrook waves then sneaks off with cracklepops)

But we're as hopeful for good news as you are Clareanna... Maybe HPTs less hideously expensive over there so testing would be a bargain ?

sorry to see you both at the start of the rollercoaster again gi1da and allthe8s

I sat through a meeting this afternoon trying to figure out if I felt sick from too many cakes, pmt or early pregnancy, mustn't get my hopes up!

As for the ov pain littlemiss, some people get it every month and others say your cycle can change completely after any pregnancy... I was getting cramps and backache a few days after when I think should have been ov. What's that about?

Thanks for taking the cracklepops, a few less of those and I'll stop feeling nauseous and getting excited!

All the best allthe8s - it can only get better from here on. Sorry to hear you're feeling it, all that at once sucks. And don't forget it's YOU that's having a tough time at the moment as well, y'know, so don't go away or we won't be able to look after you!

Clareanna every time I sit down at the computer i start groping me boobs. (well, it's something to do ) But that's in private, not in front of 60 million Americans... Testing is also occupying my thoughts heavily, can't decide whether/when to do the deed. But dh has gone to visit his parents until tomorrow lunchtime, and I said i wouldn't while he's away, so that pretty much rules out right now, first wee tomorrow, etc. Sooooo. Do I wait for the witch and keep getting hopes up, or do I just do it, dammit. Hmmm...

Littlemiss good luck for tomorrow

Mumsie hope you're feeling a wee bit better (vain hope I know) but sorry to see you here after the testing threads. 'Tis not the right way around. Good luck at the epu

Spotty CAN WE HAVE A HUSSEYKITTEN pleeease! Kittens to cuddle might be just what this thread needs. And virtual cats can't possibly make me sneeze, can they? (I love cats. My sinusesesses (sorry word went weird) unfortunately don't.)

Alba how are skiiing plans going ?

Hi Barrenbrook, Gilda, GLB, MrsG and anyone else who knows me (as they say) [frantic waving and pointing at self in loony fashion emoticon, think Catherine Tate on amphetamines]

BTW in case you hadn't noticed, I am no longer calm and serene. Much more back to my menkul self - somewhere between panic and something else i haven't quite worked out yet. fear? misery just in case? excitement? basically just plain old

Can someone explain the stats for me please

Standing out as a newbie!

jules

Hey Jules
TTC#? trying to conceive number 2 in my case.... this does not take into account any lost babies
UCL usual cycle length
cycle number - how many cycles have you been trying
CD? With 1 being the first day of your period (aka RTD RedTideofDoom)

Hope that helps

Hi to all.

unbuffy calm and serene? SOOOO last year darling....

And who was I chatting on here a couple of weeks ago about Married Single Other? Well blow me down, who do DS and I run into in the playground today? Only Dean Lennox Kelly.... well I never...

Off for Enders... tarra xx

PS forgot... barrenbrook ONE... JUST ONE. ONE measly bottle of Oyster Bay you left me at the Co-op.... some mate you are... lush....

allthe8's really sorry you're having a tough time. When I feel supersad I imagine what my lost DS2 would be doing to cheer me up. Usually he's cuddling me, and I'm cuddling him. Some may not agree, but I think these pure and precious souls stay around us and look out for us. It gives me comfort but may not be everyone's cup of tea. Big cuddles to you. I also got rememberance service letter but ours is in May.

unbuffy I'm another boob squeezer and am sure I'm peeing more and skin is better (mega symptom speculator)... Go on... You know you want to do it...

Howdy
Any Cracklepops or "experimenkul" choccy left?

Sqeeeeeeeeeeezzzzeeeeeee to all who are feeling pariculary trousers today.
I've brought Toffee Crips Cookies, Crisps and dips and 96 bottles of Desperado's to share.

ElmMum hoping your feeling better now.

SpottyGlad to hear that things are moving along for you,well, not glad ,you know what I mean

Thanks for all your messages today ladies, you have really helped xx I have dusted myself down and am feeling better now! Just need to decide if we are going to do as we are told as avoid ttc until after my surgery or just go with our hearts.....at least I have a little time to think it over now.......

Clareanna still laughing at the boob comment, that cheered me up no end...I must look like I am chewing the cud trying to see if I can still taste metal (which I can...?)

Ok......going to try and name check tonight as I have been gone for yonks..

Hi Jules

Stats are
ttc# (trying to concieve number....)
UCL (Usual Cycle Length)
cycle (1 is from first day of your period)
CD (Cycle Day)

Does that make sense??? Shout if you need anything else translated.......oh RTD is Red Tide of Doom (period)....we decided AF (Aunt Flo) was crap and horrid and eurgh!

Clareanna did you test????? Unbuffy hang in there with the POAS! Littlemiss on cycle 2 I had really bad ov pain which I mistook for period pain....I was doubled up on sofa with hot water bottle.....how you doing mumsie?? Nice to see you back Westyorkshiregirl me and you are in the same boat I think....Bigmuther I hope the last few days have been a little better for you, it took me a long time to take the cot down after we lost dd2 but I was so relieved after we did, looking at it everyday was doing me no good, we decorated the room to make a playroom instead and now it's all cheery and an extra space for dd1 and my mindees. How are you feeling now Elmmum? I was the same yesterday think it is the stress of everything you know? Hello to everyone else...GLB, MrsGazebo Gi1daand anyone I have missed!!!!!

x

Thank you jollster, it all makes perfect sense now!