Emmsy's onwards and upwards part five.....white coats and pee sticks at the ready for more BFP's

[VJaybigpants]

Here we go a shiny new thread.....

GG I take it from the late posting that you're still suffering? Poor you, hope it starts easing soon, are you still signed off work?
cupcake Welcome back, glad you had a lovely holiday
MLS How are you feeling my lovely, I've been thinking about you all weekend and virtually hair stroking
Barbie Get those bloody hours sorted!!!

Huge waves to everyone else hope you are enjoying the lovely sunshine
Not much to report here, spotting has stopped, just feel permanantly bloated and still throwing up most evenings. Only 4 sleeps til scan which I really feel I need so I can see if things are OK.

Morning Mollie, still 4 sleeps?? That scan is taking its time isn't it! Really pleased to hear the spotting has stopped. Yes I'm still signed off work till wednesday, I feel bad still being off work, but then I'm still up 3-4 times a night in pain so I don't think I'd be much use at work.

Morning MLS, thinking of you.

You stay off as long as you need too, remember I had 5 weeks off with m/s after the first 2 weeks of head down loo continually I forgot to feel guilty
You have to think of the baby not work

Wow Cupcake - what an epic post - I am in awe Welcome back

Mollie - I bet this has been the longest week of your life At least you are halfway through that week now and getting ever closer to that scan.

GG - please don't go back to work too soon.

No BD practice here - my back is so bad, I writhe around in bed at night and have to use the headboard to turn myself over - DP ended up in the other room to give me more space and comfort. I'm going stir crazy not getting any exercise, but I can barely walk !

Still thinking of you MLS - will send over some more vodka in case supplies are runing low x x x

Morning all.

MLS I hope you managed to sleep a little last night and that things are progressing. You are constantly in my thoughts.

mollie Big relief that the bleeding has stopped. I know it's impossible but try to put it out of your mind until Thursday and rest lots.

gracie at you still not sleeping. It looks like you will be off work for a while , like it or not.

barbie really glad you're going for the scan. Hope you'll have time to post the good news about your little bean before your hol begins. What are you looking forward to most about coming back to Blighty? Other than giving your mum a big hug

Cupcake Yay! You're back. I've missed your silly posts and your eternal optimism.We need it and you. Welcome home!

Curly That was a lovely thing to say Hope the news is sinking in and you're allowing yourself some tiny day dreams of future happiness.

MrsKate So sorry AF got you. It's heartbreaking isn't it? I was gutted last time especially as I'd had a very faint positive 9 days post-ov that I only shared with MLS Realise now that it was either a dodgy test or a very early chemical pregnancy. I've learned my lesson now and there'll be no more early testing. As MLS told me AF is heartbreaking at first but give it a few days and hope will rise again.

Annie Nice to see you. hope all is well with you.

Vjay glad the iron tablets are working but remember the won't turn you into superwoman. Take it easy, eh?

4ever Hope you're having a positive weekend and are peparing yourself for this months battle.

Big Sunday morning hellos to mermaid Blue moon Jools Sabs lion and all the rest of you lovely ladies.

I am starting potty training with DD today. So far she seems delighted by the Scooby Doo pants but appears to have the bladder of a camel whilst I have needed to pee 3 times since we started!

Have as good a day as you all can.

Jools I know I'm stating the obvious but have you been to the docs? Is there nothing that can help your back, physio or something?

Dh dragged me off to meltdown in the garden rather than in cyberspace, so feeling much better today. Just got the stage where I have no expectation of ever having a family, and then get really stressed out about all things I did to lay the ground for a family (like buying a house, staying in Wales, getting a job with a family freindly employer etc). It just feels totally pointless now, so when DH and I had a massive DIY provoked arguement I got a little melty about how this stupid stupid wreck of a house was causing so much agro when the only reason we bought it has vanished. Just getting to the stage where I want to sell the house, move somewhere else and concentrate on the career, and hope that in a couple of years I'll actually belive that holidays and shoes and a chic little flat are a better bargain than a family. Arg!

there, rant over. I know I'm being completely unreasonable and irrational about this, but even the bloody cat is pregnant now! This is just taking the p*ss...

Thanks for listening ladies, I will be back anon to say hello to all of you properly

aww Hoping the despair is horrible isn't it? I can't remember your history but have you had any tests done or anything? Hope you feel better soon. it'll all be worth it one day.

morning all....

Ive been to work and promtly came home again.

I was awake most of last night worrying about my scan, and just feeling a little rough so lack of sleep coupled with such long working working hours i thought f**k it when i woke up this morning i was planning on going to work for the morning and then leaving a few hours early but i suddenly started gagging really badly, thankfully it was early morning and nothing in my belly so nothing came up but bile (tmi) ...the same thing happened at work a few times....i felt terrible, tears in my eyes and stomach aching from all the heaving...so called up head office and said im taking the day off. Have been asleep on the sofa for a hours

mollie i have been planning on emailing you but with dh b day plans just havent got around to it, is scan day thursday? trying to re read you last few post to find out. Im feeling really positive for you, still going with the therory that its a boy who is going to cause you a lot more sleepless nights in the future have my hand, ill stroke your back in the evening while you are sick!!

hoping was worried that something had happened due to you not post.... i can totally relate to you. Last year i was the same, so when dh got offered this job it seemed a great new start, one where i could reinvent myself to everyone new i met over here. I didnt have to be the desperate childless lady. Instead dh and i became the fun, crazy, constantly pissed couple who was always up for going out, trying new places etc etc. I think part of the reason things worked out ok (so far, touch wood) is the fact i started to relax a bit. sounds terribly cliche but its so true. This is the one month that i didnt really care about falling pregnant as i have so much going on and now look at me.....chin up

jools poor you, my back is still achy on and off so can only imagen at you in constant pain. Can you get a pressure point massage or aroma message done? the oils in aroma will relax you while pressure point will get to the source of the pain [hopeful emotion]

neeko for some reason reading your post about what am i looking forward to when i get home, and the whole mum/ cuddle thing made me well up! i just want to get thursday out of the way and if its good news i think ill be looking forward to my parents and dh parents reaction when we tell them. Also looking forward to being surrounded by friends, people who have know us for years and it isnt any effort...the festival...summer evenings which are cool enough to enjoy...

bluergh feeling rough ill be back to finish later ....

Yay to Barbie being off work too, I don't feel half as bad if both of us are skiving! And spending the whole day in bed/on the sofa! We hve precious night time sleep to catch up on.

Jools your back sounds terrible, surely something can be done to help you?

Neeko good luck with the potty training! Sorry to hear about your chemical pregnancy/ dodgy test.

Hoping glad to hear you are feeling abit better and that you had your DH with you for your meltdown, I was wondering where you'd got to. I can't believe your cat is pregnant, I think "him upstairs" is really trying to wind you up!

Hello all

Thought I'd drop in with a quick update. Yesterday was a day of unspeakable sadness & mourning - silly me thought I could manage a trip to the shops in the morning but that ended in tears, literally. Spent most of the rest of the day in bed. Today I've had some bleeding so I think my lost angel will be leaving me very soon.

Thank you all so much for your kind words & good wishes, it means the world to me.

MLS being strong enough to post is a good sign. Sorry it's happening but hope it will all be over for you by Saturday as then you might be able to put a brave face on for your party. Sometimes being able to put a brave face on in RL is healing in itself.Take care.

Thanks Gracie

BarbieakaMrshormone sorry for making you well. Hope in some perverse way the gagging is making you more confident.

Of course I meant well up, not better

Aaaarrrggg just done a lovely big post and ds hit the delete button....

Here goes again...
glad you had a fab holiday cupcake, it's sounded lovely
neeko I am taking it easy, the iron tablets are working but I am still getting so tired.
gracie and barbie I will be joining you after tommorrow not working yey
mls take small steps hun, you are being so brave
jools get yourself off to the docs and signed off, then you can join me, gracie and barbie
mollie glad the bleeding has stopped and roll on Thursday for your scan
hoping hope you feel a little better today

Well I'm sat here bouncing on my birthing ball taking one of my many rest breaks today , this heat is sooooo draining!

Thanks for the welcomes back
jools I know; I was even shocked when I saw the length of my post! haha! So sorry about your back that sounds horrible

Hi MLS hope you are being well taken care of.

Hi Neeko - sorry AF was such a downer for you this month she is a bitch isn't she. Glad you have the potty training to take your mind off it all a bit though! Good luck

Hoping whereabouts in Wales are you? I live in Cardiff and how ironic and annoying about your fertile cat!!
I got back from hols to lots of pics of 2 friends' new babies on Facebook - very cute but it seems to be all I can think about today now.

Hey everyone, just came on for a quick one to check on MLS. What an awful day for you, I hope you are tucked up in bed and getting lots of real-life hugs from DH and Sadie as well as the ones we are sending you. Wrong as it sounds I'm glad the bleeding has started, I hope that on Friday you get the news that the physical part is over so that you can get on with the healing process. I'm thinking of you honey xxx

Just four more sleeps for Mollie and Barbie. Fingers crossed for you both

It's lovely to see cupcake back. Big waves to everyone else. I promise I'll catch up properly soon with you all!

Evening all! Just passing through....

Thinking of you MLS. xx

Morning all.
I see Gracie's still not sleeping. Would you like us to take turns at doing a nightshift to keep you company?

Vjay Lol at your DS pressing delete. I'll bet you were gutted. I see we are to have a heatwave this week although not so hot in Scotland. Happy hols to you. I'm also off now. What ladies of leisure we're becoming

cupcake at the new babies but give it a few months and you'll be posting your won baby pics.

MLS Hope you're coping and the worst has passed.

Hi to everyone else

own baby pics. I really should proof read

Morning all! Just wanted to say been thinking of MLS lots & hope you are finding some inner strength from somewhere hon... Sending hugs... xx

Big > to everyone else this v hot & sunny morn...! Dont wanna be at work, finally decorated front room on sat & backs killing me! Gonna be good with posting this week, so may stick to lunchtimes, but will lurk! Love, sticky thoughts & babydust to all xxxx

Bet you can't do it 4ever

He he what are you saying Neeko?! Mois?!? Morning to you lovely lady! I shall do my best anyway! x

Just updating the list - im way out on the last one! You may all wanna check! Have left those at end of cycle to adjust themselves!

Small pants
babyinacorner ttc#2 cd45 ?!?!?!
Sophable ttc#1 cd34 ?!!?
Kate ttc#1 cd32 ?!?!?!
gingermumi ttc#4 cd24
cupcakefairy ttc#1 cd19
mermaid ttc#2 cd15
Neeko ttc#2 cd 13
iggypiggy ttc#1 cd 12
Jools ttc#1 cd8
becks ttc#2 cd?
bakingqueen ttc#1 cd 7
4ever ttc#1 cd6
MLS

On a break?
cupoftea
littlebellsmum

Medium pants
Barbie
Curly BFP 4th June
GracieGirl BFP 30th May
Scorpio
MM

Big pants

Lionstarbigpants due 26/09/09
VJay bigpants due 26/08/09
Sabsbigpants due 26/09/09
Anniebigpants due 1/12/09
Molliemooma due 16/12/09
Bluesatinsash due 18/12/09

Hi Neeko & 4ever, thanks for thinking of me. I'm still waiting for it to pass unfortunately. At home alone with dd today & I feel like it is going to be soon. Dh has too much work on at the moment & couldn't really take the day off. He's in a meeting from 10 until 3 but I'm to call his secretary if anything happens.

Hey MLS are you in much pain? Do you have any friends who could come for Sadie if things get bad? Wish one of us lived nearer and could help. x

4ever my date's spot on so hopefully this will be a normal cycle this month. DH has just started a promoted post this morning so think I'll need to be creative about my mission this month.