Morning all! Im back! Hope you all had a good one, had a quick read, think i more or less caught up!
Sorry I missed your edd mermaid, hope you are doing ok? Read your post about your truce with your body, its such a personal & private decision, I fear I was a bit over zealous when you said it last time but Im secretly hoping it will happen for you when you stop thinking about! You cant leave tho! You will never be a smelly aunty, you will be our fairy godmother adorned in sparkles jewels, wisdom & wonder! Wiggle that wand baby!
Massive congrats mm! So happy for you hon, one of our old skool veterans! Sending sticky thoughts to you!
So glad you had a good scan annie - a teensy way to feeling more confident in all this eh?!
OMG you work with the swine flu man blue?!? Oh your very calm, Id be in self imposed quarantine! Its all freaking me out a bit tbh! Also, all good stuff about your scan, one day at a time, totally natural to be a big worry guts, we all will be!
Fab news about the nail spa job barbie, hope your past 1st day blues & settling into it now? Hope your throats feeling better too?
Welcome back to jools - I wrote little notes on my e-mail to keep up with you all, for you, i wrote 'stay slow'. That sums it up, mermaid is right, your bodys telling you to take time out so just chill! Hormones will be all over the place, go with the flow, we are all here for you sweetie..
So, on fri we arrived at The Portland at 8.15am & were whisked in for temps, bp etc then straight to the doc for DH pint of blood to be taken, he's a veteran donor, gives every 6 months so as he said, a walk in the park for him! Felt surreal seeing his blood in the bag! Settled up the £1000 outstanding with the secretary 'mad millie' who was actually quite sweet in person, then we did a real walk in Regents park, sunbathed on the grass as dh read the paper & went for lunch! Went back for my part at 1.15pm & I was pretty nervous, in morning doc said would be 5 needles & side effects could be fluey like symptoms! (great timing for that!) . Was all clammy & nearly broke DH hand squeezing it, 1st needle was in vein on inside elbow bit, the next 4 needles were 'subcutaneous' under the skin of lower inside forearm in a square pattern, he said these ones will sting a bit - OMG!!!! The pain was excruciating! It was like wasp stings, or when i got stung by a jellyfish! I couldnt look but David said my skin bubbled up & then could see it travelling down my arm in waves, he said it was like special effects from an alien film! My arm was so sore, felt like it was swelling twice the size & bleeding so we sat down for a while after & covered it up with tissue as was too wimpy to look at it then we had to travel home on tube & train with me clutching it up in the air! Sat on sofa feeling sorry for myself with arm propped on pillow all evening, DH cut up my dinner for me like a baby, & swapped sides in bed so wouldnt touch it! Yesterday was first day I could touch it, but its got massive red bumps like from stings, 2 have massive bruises but all worth it if it works!
On top of all that had another AF from hell, had to dash to every public loo on fri to check not coming through, tmi but am using pad & tampon & day 1-3 am coming through after an hour. Every few hours big cramps like mc, as I pass big clots, then ok for a few hours then again . Did ask doc if normal after multiple mc/erpc & he said yea but am a bit concerned, if hadnt done early tests would be convinced am mc.. Might check it out at docs. Had ultrasound in oct as part of tests & ultrasounds in jan for last pg but all ok so no cysts or endimotresis.. Was a real walking wounded all weekend, chilled out & did nowt so was lovely to be looked after by DH, just as im feeling a bit more me I have to come back to work!
Anyway sorry for the mega waffle! have drafted this in my e-mail so am not clockin up illegal surfing time at work! I'll be lurking! xxxxxxxxx