Emmsy's onwards and upwards part three...laughter and tears, it's all here!

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Hold on, here we go again!

Hum,
Buzz,
Click click
Hum

Monitor blinks, glows
Processor thrums happily

Fingers fly across the keyboard
"Hi how are you?"
"I'm fine been waiting for you"
Smile spreads wide across my face

Her words appear slowly
Full of humor and warmth
A cyber smile, a virtual laugh
Silent yet I hear

Realizing it's time to go,
a somatic sensation warms me

"I hope to chat again soon"
"Till then good bye"

Click click
Buzz
Silence

I found this and thought of us!......

jools it sounds like your hormones are leaving your body and that you are 'crashing' a little bit be very kind to yourself and rest lots.

gracie i saw your dh is going away - i thought i oved on cd19 but dh went away on cd13...i still got pg and must have noticed my signs wrongly or something! So there is always a chance!

8 more sleeps

hello girls and welcome to cupcake nice to see you have moved over to the mad side

thank you all so much for your kind words, GG you are sooo right, getting a bfp is supposed to be fantastic, but i'm too worried to enjoy it so far. i will see if the midwife rings me next week, but will ring them myself if its not soon! think my doctors are just crap in general, i never even had a scan last time like most of you did during your mcs, in fact they never touched me apart from to take blood. moving house in a few weeks so hope i will get some nicer doctors.

bit worried cuz my achey boobs are no longer achey although they are big, and i'm not getting any morning sickness (apart from feeling a bit queasy in the afternoons sometimes). however i do seem to be wanting 'man food' lately, usually i only eat chicken and fish but i want proper meat and savoury stuff, and i've gone off sweet things when i usually have a sweet tooth. maybe im just paranoid

neeko how are you doing?

waves to everyone else xxxxxxxx

Hello Blue don't worry baout your symptoms; how pg are you? I'm 7 weeks tomorrow and mine have just started in earnest. My MS is lasting until lunch, then the tiredness kicks in!

A question - can i have sex?

scorpio i am 8 weeks, and fingers crossed!

i've read it is ok to have sex, i did some rsearch before we did! i was very cautious cuz was worried about hurting the baby (which apparently you won't). i'd say go for it if you both want to, it was good for us, in fact better than normal cuz everthing is that little bit more sensitive iykwim!

I really want to, have never worried before but am so terrified it will make me mc, but it really wont, will it?

I bet you have more symptoms than you think

Oh, meant to add - I got home to two letters - 1 was my booking in appt with the the MW and one was my maternity exemption certificate

If I ever get another BFP, I'm not going near a GP till I get to 8 weeks - what a waste of time They won't give me an early scan anyway, so what on earth is the point

no it won't do, remember your bean is safe in its little sac and is well cushioned. and if you were pg but didn't realise, you'd still be having sex anyway wouldn't you, so i really don't think it does any harm. i only read that you're not supposed to if your doctor has said not to.

i do have quite a few symptoms but not anything big, if i wasn't so baby mad i probably wouldn't have noticed them. i want to feel sick and horrible so i know things are ok! am i mad?!

oh jools have a great big hug

jools yeah jools is inda house! now I am going to give you a little lecture so sit, no lay down... you need to let your body and brain rest a little sweetie you sound knackered and your body has let you know
So glad you had a lovely time away and double pants to come home to the classic post
The crash really is the worse bit and you have been so blinking strong. I have a nicely ironed with spritzed lavender water white coat all ready for when you are ready
I may hang my bd hat up we have come to a sort of truce me, my body and dh! But the weirdest bit is how can I leave here!? I think I may have to be that weird great aunty who smells a bit funny that every family has stuffed in the corner in our cave.

barbie yeah on the job front so that means you will definatley get a bfp now I hiope your neck is ok I was worried about you yesterday.

bluemoon hello sweetie sorry you are feeling so blue. I only tell those people who are there to support me in good and f***g awful times. Thats always my sister and mum, it does help.x

gracie I really really thought that you were up the duff after reading your symptons. darn af. Which bits of Cornwall did you love most by the way?

kate kick up your heels for your last week of freedom

scorpio you are sounding nicely full of morning sickness scan not far off now.

cupcake hello its odd moving but a good thing to do, I will keep my fingers crossed.x

blue ohh how weird I did thnk of all you Scotish folk when I saw that on the news and he's in your hospital. Hope you have had a nicel relaxing weekend. and that goes for vjayswottybigpants too

Right phew off to check on my babies in the greenhouse - ds has gone a little mad with a packet of seeds while I have been on here!

arrrrgggghhhhhh i hate work!

Not as in i hate working but i think i might of just made a big mistake signing with the nail spa i had a major wobble lunch time, sat and cried for ages to dh asking him for reassurance etc....I guess its just going to be hard in any job over here due to the culture difference...its going to be hard work which i dont mind but the things that the salon have in place all seem so anal! worked up about the long hours as well, ill never get a bfp at this rate ...i guess im just concerned that the other job would be better after all? but then i have to tell myself this is more money, better hours (just!) and will look better on the cv and i can have my holiday off too...on the plus side i had a whole afternoon of treatments in order to experience them my feet have never felt so good!

Hi jools are you sure my dh hasnt been around play fighting with you and damaged your neck too?

Im totally knackerd, did a test today and it was negative, not surprised as its only cd26....still v tired, boobs sore, dizzy etc but also having af like twinges so who knows....im even more desperate for a bfp now so i can leave work sooner!

I will get myself into a routine and start posting again soon, but love to you all xxx

Hi ladies,

Jools - that's just so pants coming back to the 'mail from hell' after your relaxing get-away-from-it-all holiday. EWCM is a good sign though - onwards and upwards .

barbielovelysoftandsparklyfeet - the first day in a new job is always the worst. I've wanted to leave on the first day of at least two previous jobs but it gets easier and if anyone can make it work you can .

Moon - would phoned EPAS and explain that you've had mc and ask for an 8 week 'reassurance' scan. I know its such a lottery if they are receptive to that but you can but try.

Gracie - so TEW is en route - damn her. You can kick your heels up at Kate's wedding now though .

Mollie - lovely to hear form you, hope your remaining positive and not throwing up to much .

Mermaid - how are your wee seeds?

Well news my end is I had a 6+3 scan this morning and there was a bean with a heartbeat . I had worked myself up into such hysteria that i was going to be another bad scan that I couldn't even post that I was going to it. Saw my Doctor last Wed and basically melted down in front of his eyes. Think the stress of last 8 months just hit me coupled with two days of brown discharge I was convinced I was on my way to third mc. Doctor (who is also my acup guru) wanted to hypnotise me there and then to calm me down but settled with giving me a good telling off (in a kind way) about relaxing and trying to be positive. Midwife did the same this morning when I said "well its fine today but could be gone tomorrow". I need to be positive and try and chill the fuck out about it all.

My morning sickness has kicked in which is reassuring but I just don't trust my body anymore.

The lovely MM has been holding my hand via text all week. I just didn't want to tell you guys until I knew for sure, I'm so bloody supersticious.

Anyway enough already, I'm going to throwup make dinner for DH and DS.

Love to all and sorry for me post

naughty naughty blue thought you had been a little quiet, you must have been going bannanas.Thank goodness you had mm around, waves at mm And yipee for your little bean and yes it is so so incredibly hard blue but you have to keep positive. It will be ok sweetie, just know it will be

barbie yep first day of new job is hard - the cultural differnces in Dubai are kind of extreme - so no wonder you are feeling in a quandry. It will get better and if it doesn't you can run away to all the summmer festivals.x

Its freezing here and we are having a bbq

Thanks mermaid, hope your getting some heat off the bbq . I forgot to say in previous post about you thinking of hanging up your bd hat. Are you sure? Its such a personal decision and one only you and your DH can make. You will never be the smelly old auntie, more like our Guide Leader all full off encouragement, wise words and tally ho's!

Curly - forgot to say hi earlier too (my head is so up my a*se today). Lovely to hear from you and your posts are always so bouncy. Sorry you've been down around your EDD date . Hoping your BFP is just around the corner .

no I have retreated inside with a glass of wine - and left dh and ds to burn cook the sausages thats not really brown owl material is it! bloody freezing here
curly I forgot, your hairdresser found 4 silver hairs thats an important distinction and you have surely earned every one

hi everyone . im having a great run up to friday but me and dh to be are fighting like cat and dog must be nerves .no chance of ttc at this rate lol.

i hope u ok jools been thinking of you .

On phone but wanted to say helloo . No af yet. Bit excited tho I shouldn't be!

bad curly just tested. BFN
sorry this is a very me post. hope everyone else is doing good. lovely to see you back jools I'm sending you a big hug and some calorie free double choc icecream xxx

ahh curly sorry for you bfn . i hope u ok xxxxxx

thanks kate onwards and upwards to next month
U must be getting so excited!!! Just four more days

Hi everyone.
First of all Blue - great news Had been wondering where you were. Really glad it was all good news. time to put on that cottonwool wrap dress from the last thread.

Welcome back Jools and listen to mermaid. She's the wise one and she's right. You need to stop pushing yourself. Just because you CAN cope doesn't mean you have to all the time.

Gracie Gutted for you on your AF Really thought this was your month. Good you're being positive and hopefully Scorpio will be right about next month.

Mermaid I hope you and DH come to the best decision for you. We need you here and I hope you'll stay. You gave me great advice straight after my mc and you always seem to know what to say.(I didn't take it but I should have and I promise to listen in future)

Cupcake Big step... Big welcome! Hope you'll be happy on this thread.

Barbie It's always difficult doing something new but particularly so when you're so far away from all your support (except DH) Just take things one day at a time. Fingers crossed there's a big fat reason for how emotional you are.

Moon You seem a bit more positive. Let me know if I have to order you about send you hugs and support some more. The shineyness of a BFP may be gone but the bean is there so hold on to that thought and order yourself one of those wrap dresses.

Mollie Thanks. Hope you're right! How are you keeping?

Scorpio No reason why you can't have sex (Suppose it's no longer BDing now you're pg)Unless your doc has told you otherwise. Maybe just go for shallow positions if you're worried

anniecam you sound tired but so happy. The scan was obviously worth every penny

Vjay That is a big milestone and you're almost there. Need to keep that bean cooking a while longer though.

Kate tick tock, tck tock. Not long to go! Admit it - you and DH-to-be are just fighting so you can have lots of make up BDing on honeymoon aren't you?

MLS are you out there? Haven't heard from you in a while and I'm missing you. Hope you're ok.

Phew! Big Bank holiday hellos to everyone else. Glad to see that Curly can't keep away now she's back

curly trebble pants but you can start planning for this month
kate must be those last minute nerves but its always nice to make up after a row.xx

Oops! sorry Curley Is there not still a chance? Did you test early?

hi neeko . im getting soooo exvited now about it

neeko oh did I? I'm not wise just bloody old
I love bank holidays we should bring back the 3 day weekend every week.

4ever this is in case you get into work early - hope you are ok, feeling fine and not itching and that ddh managed to give up a pint without fainting.xx

nite all.

kate it IS exciting. My mum gave me good advice before mine and I'll pass it on to you. Take some time in the day to stop yourself, look around and think "This is my wedding day and I want to remember it forever" The day goes past so quickly and it helps to actively put a lasting memory into your head. It worked for me. (She told me to do the same thing when in labour with DD, so you can save this idea for later too!)

Mermaid Unfortunately wisdom only comes with experience. Would you ever like to be sixteen again? I'd hate it. Night, night.