Emmsy's onwards and upwards part three...laughter and tears, it's all here!

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Hold on, here we go again!

Hum,
Buzz,
Click click
Hum

Monitor blinks, glows
Processor thrums happily

Fingers fly across the keyboard
"Hi how are you?"
"I'm fine been waiting for you"
Smile spreads wide across my face

Her words appear slowly
Full of humor and warmth
A cyber smile, a virtual laugh
Silent yet I hear

Realizing it's time to go,
a somatic sensation warms me

"I hope to chat again soon"
"Till then good bye"

Click click
Buzz
Silence

I found this and thought of us!......

Hi everyone- sorry to hear of the AF arriving MrsKate, and ginger, I know how you feel about feeling a little jealous.

I'm not sure where my head is at the moment. As I've explained on here ad nauseum, I had a mc on 20th April and passed the sac on 24th April.

My cycle is usually 28 days long, but I've not seen AF yet. To complicate things further, we had unprotected sex on 3rd May and 17th May (how sad, I know the dates! ) but I've no idea if these dates would fall into my most fertile time, as I've no idea what my cycle is doing- silly really that we did it before my first AF (although dh has now said that he doesn't actually want to TTC again so...)

But I have had what I can only describe as symptoms this week- some nausea, extreme tiredness, needing to urinate more often, emotional, bloated. But then I have also had AF pains. Plus, I got a -ive result from HPT on 17th May and 24th May.

Sigh, I'm so fed up. I wish AF would arrive so I stop fake-symptom spotting

Neeko hope AF doesn't get you. Big hello to everyone else.

Oh MrsKate! Thats so rubbish! You've had so many promising symptoms. I think me and you need a walk out with Dolly (the collie- Kate's dog) to clear the air a bit. I'm free all day tomorrow. Remember your DH is under a lot of stress at the minute too (its our department at work who are giving him that stress!)and he's probably just taking it out on you. Jools and MLS* are right, you rant on here as much as you like!

Ginger don't worry about us without any children, we're only slightly jealous! Sorry! You have just as much right as any of us to be jealous about pregnant women and new babies when that is what you what so much. Don't worry about upseting us, you won't. Just seen photos of your DS on facebook, he's gorgeous!!

CupofTea we've all been there, we understand how frustrating it is waiting for your cycle to settle down again. You rant as much as you like. I could quote the dates I BD'd this month too, so we're just as strange as each other! I'm not sure what to suggest, other than to get a load of cheap pregnancy tests (try babymad.com) and test every now and again to keep you sane.

MLS its lovely to see you in the medium pants crowd, and Annie its your scan tomorrow, i'm nervous for you, please come on here afterwards and let us all know.

Just popping on quickly ladies, will post properly tomorrow, all being well.

So sorry AF got you MrsKate, but just think, when you get your BFP next month/July you will have a nice Spring baby instead of a Winter one.

Big waves to everyone else.

To say i am nervous about tomorrow is an understatement, its been all i can think about at work. Im at work tomorrow until 1pm, then its a quick dash home to get showered and changed and head to the hospital ready for my appointment at 3.20pm. I need lots of hand holding please ladies.

I,ll be back tomorrow.

annie - just fired on PC to say I'll be thinking about you tomorrow. Really feel it will be a good outcome and you will leave clutching that scan photo to start your baby book .

Mrskate - sorry AF showed up, it would have been so perfect to have a honeymoon baby but as Jools says you can enjoy another month of being a newly married couple rather than a fretting anxious mum to be!

Vjay - just wanted to say Hi! and hope your birth plan comes together nicely . I think back to mine with a wry nae bitter laugh (all natural, bouncing ball etc v reality of 36 hr labour and emergency section ). Bring it on!

Hey to everyone else, I'm still hanging in there, still throwing up, still a bag of nerves and then some... Been seeing a hypnotherapsit to try and get some positivity and practical solutions to my anxiety and it is helping. Just find it hard to post as there's so many of us and I'm feeling a bit private and withdrawn just trying to get through each day.

Anyway I am so rambling and need to go and throw up my dinner - needs must

p.s. fingers crossed for everyone still on 1/2 ww...

Oh Annie I'm keeping everything crossed for you. I'm nervous for you but really there is no need for nervousness as everything will be fine & tomorrow evening you will be back on mn gushing about how fabulous your scan was & how amazing your little jelly-bean looks.

annie good luck tomorrow and here's my hand

Hi blue I know what you mean about feeling private, I just wanted to hibernate under my duvet for the first 12 weeks. The ms is such a good sign though. As for the birthing plan it's seriously just going to say EPIDURAL and I might add a 'please' it depends how I'm feeling

mrskate been thinking of you all afternoon, hope you're feeling better hun, open that wine and have a glass for me while you're at it

Well ladies I've now entered my 3rd trimester , it's the final stretch already, and I'm soooo not ready!!!!

Will be thinking of you tomorrow annie

Good to see you Blue and I can really understand the need to hide away a little, but don't disappear on us cos we worry about you

Vjay - can't believe you are 3rd trimester already - seems only yesterday we were both on an a/n thread together, and I would have been 39+5 today Can't get past what might have been at the moment - not enjoying work and I think it is because I shouldn't be there - I should be waiting to meet my LO

Joolsiam that cannot be easy for you. Thinking of you.

hello lovely ladies i am back! have spent over an hour reading all the posts i have missed since last thursday.

i have missed you all loads and have thought of you every day, its funny how you have integrated into my life! where are all the bfps i was wishing for you, well theres still time yet.

annie will be thinking of you at your scan, i sympathise with your nerves, my scan is 2 weeks tomorrow and i'm scared already.

sorry that af got some of you girls, it really will be your turn very soon.

well we are all moved in, part unpacked, but have been back at work so not much time to sort things out. got a few days off soon though so will get the rest unpacked then. my medium pants seem to have grown in the last few days, im struggling to do up my buttons on my trousers now. i hope thats a good sign, but wont rest til the scan. 2 people at work have guessed im pg, said it wasnt the belly, just i was very happy. does that mean im usually a grumpy arse?!

thanks girls you really cheer me up . love ya lots xxxx

annie here is my hand to hold for tomorrow hope everything goes well.

jools i hope you are ok i no this must be a really hard time for you.

im sorry its been me me me lately im sorry xx

mrskate dont be silly, thats what this place (and us) are here for. sorry you are having such a crap time, but remember this is just one small setback, and your day will come even though it may not seem like it. i know its easy for me to say when i'm one of the lucky ones, but please dont give up hope. i'm sending you a great big hug xxxxx

thanks moon ive had a think today that at least i can get pg and ive just got married and you are all right by saying what you are saying i dont know why i got so upset .

blame it on the hormones! even i still find it difficult thinking about my mc, i can well up in no time at all, and i have my bean to think of now, but it doesnt stop all the worry and occassionally the tears. it all takes time and dont feel bad for being upset, its just what you need to go through so dont rush yourself, its a big thing to get over, it probably never goes away, you just learn to deal with it i guess. we are all here if you need a rant

Hi all.
Annie My hand's here for you too. I'm sure it'll all be fine.

Jools That's tough. Thinking of you.

Moon welcome back!Glad you're into your new house and sounding positive.

Blue Nice to see you on again too. Hope you feel better soon. Don't worry about keeping up. Just post occasionally so us non-Facebook dinosaurs (me) know you're ok.

Vjay third trimester. Wow! Well done. Loving the birth plan!

ginger the pain of MC and associated feelings is the same whether you have no, one or 40 kids at home. we've all lost and all want another so I don't think any of the lovely ladies on here would judge you on that.

Cupoftea have patience. The witch will get you soon.

Mrskate Hope you're feeling a bit better now.

Gracie mrskate is very lucky to have you in rl.

MLS Will you have internet access on holiday?

Did an hpt today and it was negative. Gutted. Hope evil witch comes soon so I can move on.
Not much thread left...

Yes I've checked it out & there is internet access in the bar, would have had to cancel my holiday if there was no internet!

phew!

Oh Kate, I'm so sorry the witch got you. It's so unfair. I think it's hard on our menfolk because all they want to do is come up with a practical solution to make things better and there is nothing they can do. It will happen honey. I know it doesn't help much but I'm consoling myself at the moment thinking that the longer it takes to happen, the nearer to summer it will be next year and maternity leave will be even nicer

Sorry too ginger about your yuck day with pregnant ladies. Honestly some day we will look back while we bounce those babies on our knees, and will not be able to even imagine life before baby.

MLS I think I will make you my guru next month on using opks and everything else. I'm so happy for you, hope you get to relax soon - how many weeks is it now?

Annie good luck tomorrow honey. There's a hand here if you need it.

iggypiggy I'm glad the evil witch has left and you can get down to business

Neeko lurking at work, you naughty girl Don't give up on that BFP till the fat lady sings

cupcake thanks for keeping the list up to date, it's so exciting seeing so many come up to testing time Everytime I see your name and bakingqueen I get really hungry, and now that cupoftea has joined us, I'm really wanting a nice cup of tea to go with my cakes

Jools I've had a couple of cycles like that - it's so hard to keep trying. It will happen, it will it will. I reckon by the time Barbie comes to visit in September we will all be up the duff. I know what you mean about work. I hate it because I shouldn't be there, and I hate it even more because it is stressing me out big time and Ill probably never get pregnant at this rate. Grrrr

Hope you are not working too hard Barbie. Is your neck better?

blue you poor love. Have you tried peppermint tea, it really really helped me. Don't lurk too much if it adds to the anxiety, but know that we are here to talk about every single worry if u need it, and that we'll still be here in a few weeks time when you can relax and enjoy that bean some more

VJ there's lots of time for you to work out the birth plan and make sure it is right for you. You give me such hope because it seems like only five minutes ago you were wondering when it would ever happen for you. And now you are in the third trimester!!!

Moon lovely to see you back. When is the scan?

gracie hope you had a nice sleep

Lots of love to baby littlebellsmum lion mollie scorpio sabs MM Mermaid and 4ever

I took so long to write that post I think everyone's gone to bed

Just me and my little pants left... and a big glass of wine

curlywurlee I think I'm five weeks but it depends on what site I've Googled onto. Not that I spend all day Googling things like that.... much! I have my gp appointment next Wednesday & after that its going to start feeling real.

I'm still here . Just me & my insomnia

I'm still here too!

Hey MLS it won't be long now. I still can't believe a friend of mine didn't realise she was pregnant for three months!!! We count down every single day. Do you think your doctor will refer you for an early scan?

morning evening gracie