Emmsy's onwards and upwards part three...laughter and tears, it's all here!

[barbie1]

Hold on, here we go again!

Hum,
Buzz,
Click click
Hum

Monitor blinks, glows
Processor thrums happily

Fingers fly across the keyboard
"Hi how are you?"
"I'm fine been waiting for you"
Smile spreads wide across my face

Her words appear slowly
Full of humor and warmth
A cyber smile, a virtual laugh
Silent yet I hear

Realizing it's time to go,
a somatic sensation warms me

"I hope to chat again soon"
"Till then good bye"

Click click
Buzz
Silence

I found this and thought of us!......

Hi girls, im here all be very tired and still v emotional, today wasnt much better but it didnt get any worse either i am praying for a bfp this month so ill only have to work for the next 8! i have got to the stage where i kept knicker checking every hour for signs of af...i think i will cry if it shows at work, how sad is that??

Woke last night by pains in my boobs, today they are achy, so either af is on the way or maybe something else??? day 28 is thurs...

I just cant seem to get into a routine yet, i have been getting up at 6am walking the dog, leave at 10 to 8 and then return home at 7.30pm then the gym, not eating til late and then too tired for anything else but bed....

curley sorry for bfn, did you test too early?

blue i have been thinking about you over the last few weeks, glad the scan went well

Sorry girls i will make more of an effort tomorrow....tired smile from me as i go to bed xxx

Hey barbie hun, I could feel your thoughts over the past weeks and they have meant alot .

This is going to be a tough time trying to setle in and as you say, find your new routine and groove. Work takes soo much out of you expecially a new job so maybe cut back on gym/dog walking (I know Freddie needs his daily trip but do you have to do it so early ? and not getting back til 7.30pm is a long day, neither wonder you're knackered. I really hope it gets easier and am praying madly that your BFP is round the corner and you can be on the 8 month countdown..

4ever - you are one brave and determined lady and I continue to take my hat off to you and your lovely DH. So what happens now?

cupcake - you are the temping guru !

anniecam - v. at your 12 hours sleep. I may retire with DS tonight myself as have been feeling rough as a badger all day.

Gracie sorry to hear AF is heavy and sore. Really hope your window this month nails it for you.

Neeko - that's soo true about savouring your wedding day and taking a moment to stand still - take heed Kate .

Mollie and MM - hope you two are bearing up and feeling rubbish (but in a good way)

to all x

jools-Glad you are getting referred for investigations into your mc,s. Good that you have a PLAN.I hope they find the cause and its easily fixable.

4ever- You deserve a happy ending-as does every single lady on here-and im hoping the nuns can put a good word in with the big man above.

Barbie-Are you goung to test on Thursday if no sign of AF? You need to take things easy as working long days will take it out of you.

Blue-I needed my 12 hour sleep last night as yesterday i was so tired after my busy weekend, i felt like i was hungover, i felt rotten all day, really nauseous, which i find is ten times worse if im tired. Im going to take DS to bed tonight in next 20 mins or so, and retire myself.

blue you sorta have to become a temping guru when you use it as your means of not getting pregnant too as we have for the last 3 years... (though I do now wonder why on earth anyone would try not to get pregnant...but that's because I'm now obsessed by it!!)

Barbie I'm with you - I really want a bfp soon so I can leave my job! Here's hoping we'll get them soon.

No af yet for me, day 34 today which is usually my longest cycle length. I'm sure she's gonna come Friday when we're going to see Wicked in London

What a snoozy lot we are today! I'm already in my jammies!

Jools Sounds like a step in the right direction. Good luck with it all.

Barbie take it easy and be a bit nicer to yourself. It sounds like there's a good chance you might be carrying precious cargo so give yourself a break

Blue annie moon and co enjoy all that sleeping now because in a few long and impatient short months you'll be on here longing for those long sleeps cos your gorgeous baby has had you up all night!

Has anyone heard from MLS on facebook? I'd check myself but remember I'm a bit of a dinosaur where all that's concerned!

Have decided that TTC makes you tired. If anyone had told me at Christmas time that by May I'd become a grapefruitdrinking-brazilnuteating-waterguzzling-vitaminpopping-temperaturechecking-mucuswatching-co nception fanatic I'd have thought they were mad! Thank goodness there are so many other people just like me on this thread to share it with! Hope you're all well.

barbie no AF 4 me too. Tested yesterday so now late which is unusual. I feel exactly the same. Mad knickerchecking and not even pregnant yet. I don't think bfn can be wrong though as I waited till due anyway I'm praying for a miracle for me, you and cupcake if af doesn't arrive I'll test again when I get home on friday

Neeko don't ever stop posting, we love ur jibberjabber!

Kate you'll have a fab day. It's an amazing feeling to have so many people u love in the same room and all there for u

Jools a plan is good I'm so glad they are finally giving u the tests

4ever big hug for u having to go thru that ordeal but it will all be worth it in the end

Big waves to the lovely mermaid, Scorpio, vj, mm blue, moon mls annie and everyone else xxx

hi all

well im all pamper out today hair dyed and hair tial again and spray tan and had make up practice with sister . and ive just got back from church rehersal i was sooooooo nervous i dread to think what il be like on the day .

Kate you'll be gorgeous on the day!!!

i bloody hope so ive paid a fortune lol.

Ok, here's the updated list, correct it if I've made any bodges!

Small pants

CupCakefairy ttc#1 CD 34
Curly ttc#1 cd 30
Barbie ttc#1 cd 27
Jools ttc#1 cd 13 ??
Kate ttc#1 cd 12
MLS ttc#2 cd 8
Neeko ttc#2 cd 7
4ever ttc#1 cd 5
GracieGirl ttc#1 cd 2

mermaid ttc#2

littlebellsmum ttc#3 cd ???
babyinacorner ttc#2 cd ??
bakingqueen ttc #1 cd ???

BFP

Anniecam BFP 28th March
Molliemooma BFP 6th Apr
Bluesatinsash BFP 14th April
Scorpio BFP
BlueMoon1981 BFP
MM BFP

Big pants

Lionstarbigpants due 26/09/09
Vjaybigpants due 26/08/09
Sabsbigpants due 26/09/09

Well done gg

It's lovely to see so many in the bfp list.

Sorry AF got u this month. We'll be joining those bfps soon tho

Lets hope so Curly. I think we should all get pregnant on Kate's honeymoon. That includes you Kate! Honeymoon's are always romantic times to get pregnant, and who says it has to be your own honeymoon??!!

Good plan gg

So where are we all off to on honeymoon Kate? Hope ur DH to be doesn't mind

Night all

Im out this month again

Woke this morning to v sore boobs but when i went to the bath room there was pinky discharge on wiping (sorry for tmi) i cant stop crying....

Its not just about having to work its about feeling a failure. This time last year i was having my coil out and so excited, 2 weeks til the wedding and everything to look forward too...now i just feel so let down by my body and i know this job is going to take out out of me too. I cant face going into work and spending another day bored shitless surrounded by people who dont understand, i know its going to be so tough.

I wish i had internet access at work so i could at least talk here at lunch break (i only get one hour all day! 9 til 7!!!) but sadly i dont

Sorry about the me me me post but i have to write it down before work and to try to compose myself....

Off to reapply the makeup now, tear stained isnt a good look xxxx

thats a great idea gg . im going to wales you are all mopre than welcome to join me curly

im sorry you are upset barbie big hugs xxxxx

barbie I expect you are at work now but thinking of you in the land of bunions and corns sending you a hug anyway. It is the worst feeling in the world being let down by your body especially with the world at your feet. (opps feet again)
Roll on your holiday.

I'm off to buy a new kitchen yipeeeeee! never thought I would get exited about how a drawer closes

Poor Barbie, here have a hug, I'm sorry AF got you too. You'll have to join us in getting pregnant on Kate's honeymoon, I know Kate will be home by the time we next ovulate but she won't know if you don't tell her, we can pretend! Its near enough.

Mermaid enjoy kitchen shopping.

Barbie are you sure you don't work for the NHS??? Me and Kate get two 30 mins breaks in 12.5 hours and don't always get that! But at least we don't have to work 6 days a week, that's a silly amount of hours.

Kate I'm getting excited now!!

im been up since 6 i cant sleep ive just wtached dont tell the bride and cried lol as its me in 2 days arrraaggghhh!!!!!!!!!!

Barbie So sorry that AF got you but you're stronger than you're giving yourself credit for and things WILL work out for you. Would never want to advise anyone to stay away from MN (especially when I am such an addict) but maybe only having limited time to post will allow you to switch off enough to have your BFP next month? Hopefully once you get used to it you'll even learn to like your new job and those people who don't understand will become friends. Take care. sending you a big hug.

Mermaid LOL at the drawer excitement
Morning to everyone else. Gracie Well done on the list but it's a new day and that list needs doing again!

Chill Kate It'll be great!

Kate you listen to Neeko it will be great!!!

Here's the list for Neeko.

Small pants

CupCakefairy ttc#1 CD 35
Curly ttc#1 cd 31
Jools ttc#1 cd 13 ??
Kate ttc#1 cd 13
MLS ttc#2 cd 9
Neeko ttc#2 cd 8
4ever ttc#1 cd 6
GracieGirl ttc#1 cd 3
Barbie ttc#1 cd 1

mermaid ttc#2

littlebellsmum ttc#3 cd ???
babyinacorner ttc#2 cd ??
bakingqueen ttc #1 cd ???

BFP

Anniecam BFP 28th March
Molliemooma BFP 6th Apr
Bluesatinsash BFP 14th April
Scorpio BFP
BlueMoon1981 BFP
MM BFP

Big pants

Lionstarbigpants due 26/09/09
Vjaybigpants due 26/08/09
Sabsbigpants due 26/09/09

How long before we send out a search party for MLS ???

omg im day 13!!!!!!!!!! no bd yet as we have been falling out and dh to be hurt his back night. and ive been on nights so i guess no luck this month unless it happens soon

Kate you need to be resourceful and inventive!! Get on with it!! Just don't tell him its day 13 else he might crack under the pressure!!