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[Bucky2008]

OK, so how about we start of on a positive....

I bought the test.

I did the test.

BFP .

Job done.

FABULOUS NEWS for EI - so excited for you! Just popping in quickly and will be abck later. We're here to hold your hand if you need us

thanks ladies
im not hopeful for this one as i did another test this morning with FMU and it was BFN i have pains and im now expecting to lose this one too temp was very high this morning too so i was not expecting a BFN at all just looks like im never going to get there at this rate i know thats such a selfish thing to say given that i already have a DD and i am sooo grateful for that but its such a kick in the arse for this to happen again
anywho im gonna try to not bring everyone down with me if i can so rant over (for now)
xx ei xx

Ah no, Ei, I'm sorry.

We're here if you need us.

oh ei sorry it's not looking hopeful . You have every right to rant away.

Oh ei that is awful news . I'm so so sorry. Rant away. You are always such a happy soul and have certainly cheered me up many a time, if you feel down then we're here for you. Big >

Ei see how you go babe. You know you can say anything on here we have all been through it and understand (higs).

I however am officially mental. I did something today that is so psycho I am ashamed to admit what it is! Can you voluntarily section yourself? .

PnM how you doing chica? Haven't given you a special shout out in a while.

GG more champagne required LOL.

Hello to JB, DG and MOB too . How are my cyberneices and nephews doing?

Obviously I am forcing them to accept me as a cyber auntie. Humour me, I am one step from baby snatching....

EI Oh no, i am so, so sorry that it does not appear to be good news. PLEASE - rant away, you do not have to hold back here. It is not selfish to want another child - please don't feel like that. Look after yourself, and let us know how you are. XXXX

Bucky Ok, spill - what DID you do yesterday???????

Morning everyone,

Ei I'm sorry to hear about the bfn - as everyone else has said, you rant away as much as you want to. My arm is outstretched for all the cyber hand-holding you might need at the moment. Is your temp is still rising this morning? Is it possible FF put ov in too early for you? Anyway, biggest to you xx

Kia ora Bucky, I am doing ok thank you. But I am very intrigued by what you've been up to?! Why so loco?!! Oh, and I think I'm rude - I never said congrats on a good dr appt and for a successful referral and clomid prescription!! The wait does seem incredibly long but it sounds like you're already filling up your time before then!

Had a look at the company you used for van rental Caitni and dh was looking over my shoulder and we both think it looks fantastic! Oh, and your veg growing sounds amazing! I can't believe how much you've already made a start on - agree with you about blank lawns, ours has clumps of clover all over it that DH likes to mow over but I leave to grow for the bees! We have a huuuuuge Buddleia which I wont cut back either as it attracts a whole host of butterflys and bees. When do you get your AMH results? Is it Thursday?

Hows the ms doing MrsH? Your DD sounds very cute, its wonderful that she's taken to the idea of another baby so quickly

How was the party GG?? Hope you had a fab time

How's Jollycub doing JB? You too sound very industrious in the garden! May I recommend putting grapefruit skins in your veggie patch to keep the slugs off? (it would be a brill tip for ttc'ers as you can get the cm benefit of eating the grapefruit and then the slug benefit of the leftover skin.... except I can't stand grapefruit so dh has to eat them all! Also, marigolds planted between carrots keeps the carrot fly off them! Just call me Alan. Oh, and our garden isn't ma-hooo-sive meadow-big-enough-for-a-pony sized but it is bigger than average - in fact you could probably build another house on it and its a big suntrap which is lovely but mainly just grass so boring in that respect - bit like a pub garden I guess!

God, am I really waffling about gardening?! Serious work aversion going on!! Best get on now though.

Oh, before I go, temps are still up and down, knew my cycle was up the spout but this is getting ridiculous.

hi ladies
hope everyone is ok
im feeling a little more positive today as i have started to feel na little queasy and was totally off my tea this morning also i am feeling so tired aswell so fingers crossed that things are ok (im 5 weeks tomorrow i have to get past friday and i will be the furthest i have gotten so far)
hope everyone else is doing ok
xx ei xx

Hello everyone,

I've just had a look at your chart ei (stalker alert) and it looks very good indeed. My fingers are firmly crossed that that test was wrong and all is still well. Are you taking baby asprin?

PnM/alan Thanks for the grapefruit tip. Can't stand them myself either but might get a few for DH! Your garden sounds great - so much potential there, iy sounds like a wildlife haven.

bucky Jollycub is doing very well, thanks for asking cyber Auntie . She let out her first belly laugh today. Not for me of course who has tended to her every need and whim all day long but for DH when he got home from work!

Go on tell us what you did!

When is your next scan MOB?

It wasn't ha ha crazy, it was need committing for therapy crazy. I lied about something to someone about my first MC because I thought they would think I was stupid to have been so upset by it when I as only 9 weeks pg when I MC. I am so embarrassed about lying about such a thing now, but I was devastated about that MC at the time and I somehow felt I needed to justify how upset I was....So psycho in a PSYCHO way...

Fingers crossed Ei.

You don't need to go to therapy Bucky, I can totally empathize with your reasoning. Esp if the person you lied to doesn't know your full ttc history. Don't be or about it. Sometimes we feel the need to justify our feelings and I'm sure you had good reason to.

ei that is definitely a pregnant chart. How do you feel today? Have you peed on any more sticks?

Bucky tht doesn't sound particularly mental to me. Ttc is so incredibly personal I reckon we all get a bit tied in knots with it sometimes...

Mob when is your next scan?

PnM thank you for the grapefuit skin tip! I am craving grapefruit this week so it is very convenient!!

Caitni where does clover come from? Stupid question, but there is none in our lawn (a lot of shitty looking moss though) and I would like to put in some clover. Should I go to the park and dig some up???! Do you start your IVF thingy soon?

JB glad to hear all is well with you and the cub.

Not much going on here. I look really fat now and am continuing to interview (when jobs come up) so am really hoping noone notices that I am twice the girl I used to be. Right DD and I are off shopping so will BBL.

EI Am hoping that things are looking a bit more positive for you now. Your chart is looking great. Have you tested again?

Bucky That is not a psycho thing to have done at all. It is understandable . Don't feel about it. Now go out and do something "Bucky-like" that we can go at!!

PnM That chart is a bit all over the place, isn't it? . Hopefully a pattern will emerge as you go through your cycle.

MrsH Have fun shopping!

Big hello to everyone else not mentioned.

I have my scan this afternoon (am a bit of a nervous wreck). Will let you know how it goes.

Lots of luck MOB. I hope it goes really well.

hi ladies
mob good luck
well i tested again and it was BFN again so im not holding out any hope at all it was a CBD so it looks worse in writing hope all is well with everyone
xx ei xx

Afternoon ladies

Ei I'm so sorry for all your stress lady [hugs]. It's so when CBDigi tells you bluntly. But your chart looks good so I'm going to keep my fingers crossed that it's just rubbish hpts.

MOB best of luck for your scan - i hope your little boys are healthy and happy to stay tucked in for weeks yet!

MrsH am loving all the gardening on here at the moment - spring has most definitely sprung! My first seedlings are coming through and I'm inordinately proud (keep thinking the neighbours must think I'm odd as I check in our little greenhouse every evening when I get back from work ). Turns out now we've cut back the grass we've got heaps of clover, so I'm leaving it be, but I was thinking of getting seeds from the likes Suttons. Though I bet the Capital Garden Centre in Alexandra Palace would have something too (I heart that place!).

Bucky don't feel too at whatever you said about your first m/c. I personally think that a m/c at 9 weeks would be devastating enough but we all tell the stories we need to at times. It's hard enough talking about this stuff in RL anyway so feel free to tell us all on here.

PnM at your temps but I don't think the fluctuations look as bad in celsius - certainly the first week of my cycle has up and down temps, and b/c I ovulate so early it's really annoying as it means some of pre-ov temps are higher than my post-ov temps (which annoys me as it's hard to see where ov actually is [sigh]). Still, when I spoke to Mr Needles and the fertility consultant about it neither were bothered as apparently they just want to see a general trend for higher temps post-ov...

Waves to JB DigiG RFN2&3 and everyone else. I'll check back later for news of MOB

xx

Hi ladies

EI I'm sorry to hear it was a BFN . I too still have everything crossed for you. What a few days it's been for you.

Caitni Am loving the gardening chat! Keep us posted on how your little seedlings are doing

Well, i had my scan, and twin 2 has grown, but he is still a fair way behind no.1. The sonographer said it gets critical when there is more than 20% difference between them - at the moment there is 14%. So it's not completely bad news, but it's not just the blip we were hoping for. I am seeing the consultant on monday, so i'll see what she says. I think she will just want to keep me on scans every 2 weeks, and monitor things. They also found today that twin 1 has less fluid round him that twin 2, so they will also keep an eye on that. I guess we'll just take things week by week, and hope that they can stay put for a while longer.

MOB glad twin 2 is getting bigger but sorry it wasnt better news for you xx hope all is well
xx ei xx

MOB I'm glad it was better news from the scan. I'm sure they'll just keep a really close eye on you from now on and I bet the babies get to stay put for quite a while longer. It'll just be lots of scans for you!

Ei what a tough time you're having. I hope you're ok. (((higs)))

Caitni thanks for pointing me in the direction of clover seeds. Happily I found a clump in the grass yesterday so I don't need to visit the garden centre again (I am quite the regular - 3 times this week already - although that's a fair bit to do with needing to find things for DD to do and they have fish ponds to look at). Not that I am getting to do much gardening. Our nanny is off sick and so I am looking after DD all day. Not great when I have interviews to prep for and an enormous list of things I need to do, but never mind...

Hope everyone else is ok. I am a bloater but that is nothing new.

Ei I may be wrong but wasn't it you who didn't get a BFP until pretty late with your DD? I think you need to get to your GP and get some blood taken. Your temps still look pg and with a CP surely they would be dropping or you'd be bleeding by now (since HCG doesn't get very high with CPs). Hope you get some answers soon.

Hi ladies

MOB I'm sorry that it wasn't straightforward good news for you, although I am glad that the boys can stay put for the time being. Perhaps posting a thread in the multiple births section may help? You could get some good MN wisdom from a woman who's been through this already...just a thought anyway. In the meantime, I hope you have a good chat with the consultant on Monday. It sounds like you're getting very good care anyway, which is also good.

MrsH I'm so glad you heart the garden centre too . I bet you DD just loves it (I loved going to the garden centre with my mum as a kid ). And good news about the clover too. Though sorry to hear about your nanny being sick, still at least it's nice and sunny so you're not stuck indoors!

Ei I'm so sorry that you're having all this stress . But your chart is one of the nicest preg charts I've ever seen (and yes, I've seen many due to my old FF chart stalking hobby ) so I'm still hopeful. Have you been in touch with your consultant? Have they given anyway advice as to what do to?

PnM I was just having a nosey at your chart (again ) and, if I look at it in celsius, then I think you may have ov'ed on CD 12. Did you have any other signs around then? Or am I way off the mark ?

Waves to all the other ladies

So I spoke to the nurse today and got my AMH results back and my results are normal - I got just over 20 apparently when they look for anything between 15 & 45. So relief for me (and my DH!). Now I just need to go to my GP and get the pill (how is that going to be!), get some blood tests on the NHS (HIV and Hep and a couple of others I can't remember ) and check in at the start of my next cycle so we can start planning when this is all going to start (and I'm [gulp] but all at the same time!).