The WIMBEWAI(N)F Club

[Bucky2008]

OK, so how about we start of on a positive....

I bought the test.

I did the test.

BFP .

Job done.

Hey Mibbes its not really sinking in. I had to rush for a 7am train and it was non stop all day. I ate so much rubbish I feel guilty! I had a McDonalds milkshake for lunch and half a pork and apple baguette a bar of chocolate and two digestives for dinner and that is it! I have to make some effort to eat something that hasn't been processed to death tomorrow .

Caitni hun, you know I know how you feel. This is Month 31 for me. Glad you are not going loop the loop like I did. .

Hello to everyone. Where are you all today. Yoohoo MrsH you OK?

Hello ladies

Yes I am fine thank you Bucky. When I was pg with DD all I ate was processed food so it sounds like you are having a stroppy girl to me . Just get on the good quality ante natal vits, then you will balance it out. Oh and of your weight loss - there was not much of you to begin with.

Caitni I'm glad you're ok. I know it is just SHIT when your period arrives yet again, but we will all get there. I worked out today that I had 9 cycles to my first ep, then 3 months off, then a cp, then second ep and now 2 more cycles. I reckon that makes this about my 14th attempt. Let's hope that 14 is the month of the embryo with a sense of direction...

Right, am knackered so must go to bed (fertility wine is having an effect), but higs for everyone, our pregnant ladies and the non-pgs too.

MOB I forgot to say - your bit about turning the light off made me think of a line in a film "NOONE GETS LEFT BEHIND". What film is that from? Does anyone remember?

Sorry to put a damper on what was going to be a positive thread but it seems that this time it is over as quickly as it began . I woke up this morning to 2 large clots and am bleeding really really heavily. So, I am sure once again there will be no baby. .

Needless to say I am well and truly done now. Not sure if to go to the doctor or not, they are just going to say 'ah these things happen, lots of people have mc's and then go on to have happy healthy pgs' and I really don't want to hear that today. I might tell my boss though because I cannot face going in to work.....

Oh no, I don't know what to say.

Are you having pain or are you ok in that respect?

Massive (((((((higs))))))

No pain really. Apart from my broken heart .

I know that it's really really hard right now but it will get better.

Will be thinking of you lots today.

Maybe when you are up to it a visit to the GP would be a good idea. MCs do happen, but in your circumstances I would hope that they would maybe expedite your next consultant appointment.

Tak care

Or TAKE, even.

Bucky I am so sorry to hear you are bleeding hun . It is probably worth a visit to GP, given how long you have tried you at least want the PG to be documented and as it is a second MC and you have tried for so long in between they may do investigation, you never know, sometimes the NHS surprise us.. Sending you MASSIVE {{{cyber hugs}}} xx

oh Bucky I am so sorry . This must be heartbreaking for you and your DP. Sending you big .

Bucky I'm so sorry to hear you're bleeding . Please take time off to look after yourself. As others have said, I think it is definitely worth visiting the dr, if only to get it documented. Huge big hugs to you and your dp xx

That is just awful news . I'm so so sorry bucky

Are you ok this evening Bucky?
Anything we can do?

hi ladies
bucky oh god im so sorry to hear about your bleeding i definitely think it is worth a visit to the GP if not the EPAU near you! take good care of yourself, do alot of sobbing, have higs and kisses from your DH and nurse your broken heart im so so sorry i feel sick to the stomach with how unfair TTC can be
hello to everyone else xx
i will leave it there for tonight and check in tomorrow
xx ei xx

Bucky I am so so sorry to hear you are bleeding. As the others have said do go to the doctors it's worth having your experience documented. I hope you and DP have lots of support and cuddles together this weekend. I'm gutted for you.

Bucky Life is so cruel and unfair sometimes.
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Look after yourself. Lots of love to you both. XX

Hi everyone
I hope you're all ok.
I was rather hoping to log on and see that Bucky had stopped bleeding...
((((higs)))) to everyone who needs them.

Been thinking of you all day Bucky, big hugs again for you xx

Hi to everyone else, hope you're all ok? I've booked a transvaginal scan for wed so wish me luck for that as am dreading it.

Is it your hsg on Monday MrsH? Still awaiting the arrival of my period so I can book mine (cd30 today, no idea if or when I've ov'ed).

Take care everyone xx

Hi girls. Well it is well and truly over . DP is so sad it is unbearable and being pregnant for 2 days is pathetic . I went to the doctor and now do not qualify for NHS IVF because I have shown I am able to concieve. Should I choose to pay for it myself, it would most likely be pointless as I think it is me who cannot carry the pregnancy. I have had enough so I am done.

I am going for good, but could not have got through the last few years without you girls. I would love to keep in touch in RL. You have been the best cyber family ever and I am leaving all my baby dust for you all and hope you all get the dcs you deserve. If you would like to keep in touch please drop me a note at [email protected]

I'll miss you guys. I feel like somebody should be showing me my best bits . Take care.

Bucky xx

bucky im so so so sorry things have ended like this i for one will miss you on here!! if you dont mind i will add you onto my email list and drop you a line from time to time to see how you are xx
xx ei xx

Bucky I am so still so sad for you and your DP . I'm also depressed to hear of the advice you've had from the NHS . Please don't be hard on yourself, as you're not to "blame" in anyway for what you're going through. A session with a private consultant, who really knows what he/she is talking about, could be the best way to weigh up your options at this point. But I appreciate you've made a hard decision and I'll definitely drop you a line as I want to keep in touch in RL (if you want to meet for lunch or a drink anytime I'm around). to you and thinking of you both.

PnM Well done for booking the scan, it sounds scary but I'm hoping it's quite straightforward (MOB am I right in thinking that these scans are part of checking that IVF is fine? I'm thinking I've read about them on the Scanhealth website...).

So I've officially fallen off the wagon tonight (we had some family over for an early thanksgiving turkey meal today so couldn't resist the champers and wine on offer ). While I'm not feeling [very] tipsy, I am feeling like you ladies mean such a lot to me. I don't know what I'd do without this place to express my feelings, but also to listen and learn from all your experiences, positive and negative alike. I may not have my BFP (yet) but "meeting" you all on here has added so much to me and my DH's ttc journey. And I still think we'll all get the dcs we so want and deserve (and Bucky that includes you too).

OK enough of that, back to the pink champagne I'm drinking...

Bucky I am so sorry that this has happened and I do get how completely weary of it all you must be. TTC is just unbearably cruel sometimes. I am really sad that you're going - we will all miss you, and I will email you as I would hate to lose touch after all the things we've shared on here.

PnM my HSG is on Thurs (CD10 for me). I am really dreading it as I have read that it is painful and more so if you have one tube and/or if your other tube is blocked. Oh heck. I have read a study that says that it does lead to an increase in ferility (so much so that the study did refer to possibly using HSG before IVF to increase natural conception) so I am just concentrating on that part. Your scan should be fine - maybe a wee bit uncomfortable but that is all. I know it is undignified letting people stick a probe up your hoo-har but it won't take long and when you get pg and have your baby you will get utterly used to flashing your bits!!

MOB How are you feeling today?

Caitni I hope the hangover isn't too bad! I have reintroduced myself to beer this week - am surprised how little it takes to make me start slurring! How was the tinned pumpkin?

Ei is everything good with you?

Hi ladies

MrsH Not too sure I could handle beer (even when drinking regularly two pints would have me slurring and all that!). Remarkably, I didn't have a touch of hangover yesterday which is obviously my body's way of saying "please have wine more regularly" . Really interesting about that HSG study, I'll be hoping that it works for you! Will also be hoping that it's not too painful...

Hi MOB how are you doing? Have any symptoms like morning sickness kicked in yet? I hope the days are passing quickly until your scan on the 10th.

And big hello to everyone else - hope you're all doing fine (and not frozen with this cold weather!).

We had a great weekend, the tinned pumpkin turned into lovely pumpkin pie though I was so stuffed from the turkey dinner that it was a challenge to even have any! An American friend is hosting another thanksgiving meal this Saturday, so we've
yet another turkey/pumpkin pie feast to look forward to. And we're off to see Malcolm Gladwell give a talk tonight - since he's my favourite New Yorker writer I'm well excited!

Just got my blood test results back:
LH 4.1
FSH 7.8
Progesterone 29

And apparently these are fine (though the progesterone one is perhaps a touch on the low side but does show I'm ovulating). Just waiting for DH's SA results (which he should get tomorrow - wish we'd just had them sent straight to us instead of to the GP's now!) and then I'll get an app with the GP to get a referral for the next stage (probably an HSG).

Won't officially feel fine until the SA results come back but at least things are moving along...

Just a quickie to say "yay" for your test results Caitni.
I had always understood that anything above about 10 was fine for progesterone so 29 does not sound at all low to me.
Bring on the SA results!

Oh Bucky I am so sorry that you have decided to go for good, although i completely understand. I'll drop you an email. Hoping that happier times are around the corner for you. XXX

MrsH LOL at a HSG improving "ferility" - is that a cross between fertility & virility?? Sounds good Excuse me laughing at your typo,(no offence intended) just made me chuckle. In all seriousness though, i hope it goes well and is as pain free as possible. It will be a good step forward, and will answer some important questions for you, which will allow you to make informed decisions.

PnM Glad you got the scan booked. As Caitni says, i have had several of these now, and they are fine. It is undignified, and i found it can be slightly uncomfortable, but i found it fascinating to see my insides! As with what i just said to MrsH, it is a good step forward for you as well.

Caitni I'm no expert, but those results look fine to me! The progesterone indicates you have ovulated, and the FSH shows that you still have lots of eggs available, as it is not having to work too hard to produce one. Here's hoping for good SA results for your DH tomorrow.

EI How are things with you this week?

I'm getting a few symptoms now. Mainly incredibly sore boobs, that wake me up in the night if i turn over and lie on them! I have also had some nausea over the past couple of days, and heartburn this evening. I'm only 5 +3, should i be getting all this yet?? The symptoms are great though - as they reassure me that maybe i really am pregnant, and, at the moment, after the past 18m, i am welcoming every wave of nausea.