Should I prepare for the worse?

[JNicko]

Hi ladies. I'm currently 13DPO. AF is due on Wednesday. I got a vv faint positive at 9/10DPO. Iv had 3 consecutive miscarriages so my anxiety is through the roof. Going to call EPAU this morning as I can self refer. These are my latest test (the digi was taken yesterday at 12DPO) just looking for a bit of support, re assurance or for some honesty.

Sorry OP. Early pregnancy is stressful enough as it is without all this added worry. Hope it all goes well for you xx

I hope everything goes well for you, OP.

@JNicko please don’t come off the thread!

@LW678 I probably should. Everything I'm just over thinking. I know people only try to be helpful but sometimes it just sets a trigger off in my mind and that's it. I wish there was a pill I could take to make me sleep for 3 weeks until next scan.

@JNicko believe me I know exactly how you’re feeling after being there previously and here again. Life is being lived in limbo, I don’t understand how some women can carry on as normal and almost forget they’re pregnant!

@LW678 I think it's the MMC that's triggering me. Because I'm constantly re living what happened and thinking that obviously I could loose the baby and not even know about it.

Once you’ve heard a heartbeat then statistically you're ok

I really hope so x

@LapinR0se sorry I thought you said 'seen' a heartbeat. I haven't actually heard it yet

Seen/heard evidence of a heartbeat ❤️

Thank you for your re assuring words. It's made me feel a little better 🥰

@LW678 is it your scan today?

@JNicko yes all went well thank you. When is your next scan? Hope you’re feeling as good as can be

That's great. You must be relieved. Mines not until 28th of this month. I'm doing okay just constant on my mind.

@JNicko I do but I know soon enough the worry will set in. Hopefully that will fly by. In the mean time if anxiety gets the better of you can you book in for a private scan?

I may do yes. Just what the nurse said at the EPAU has put me off private scans a little

@JNicko that’s understandable

@LW678 well I have caved. Got a private scan booked at 12:20 today. Iv been so anxious. I think it's mainly because I'm around same time I lost my first to MMC. Hope your ok x

@JNicko good for you. I don’t blame you in the slightest. Going through a MMC brings so much worry. How many weeks are you now? X

According to what NHS said at the last one I should be 7+5. I'll be honest as long as there's a heartbeat I'm going to try not get too hung up on dates and measurements. Bricking it to say the least but I need to do it for my own sanity. Good or bad news x

I really hope you get good news, @JNicko

@LW678 well as expected. Baby has not grown and no heartbeat. Looks like another MMC. Waiting for NHS to call me now as private scanning place is calling them. I wish you all the best xx

Oh lovely. I’m so so sorry. That’s so sad and I’m sorry you are going through it again.

Sending you love.

I'm so sorry, @JNicko

That's devastating news. After all this, another loss.
Was your husband with you?

Yes he was. We are both devastated.