TTC after miscarriage thread 12 🌈✨💛💕

[FfayeN]

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Hcg has gone up but only from like 79 to 82, so in the space of a whole week that’s bugger all difference really. So they’re giving me another blood test in a week. Which is annoying to drag it on even longer but it does give me hope that it’s going to start dropping. I said to DH, it could be that it rose during the week and now it’s dropping off, so I could’ve Actually missed the peak if you get what I mean. I feel like if it was a proper ectopic pregnancy large enough to potentially rupture then my levels would be going up much more. Christ they’re gonna end up just leaving me to it and I’m going to be sort-of pregnant forever 🤣

@Mariabombia I'm sure you are so stressed.. and it is stressful. How many weeks are you now?

@LuckyMoonstone I did ovulate with a blood level of 84 but OPKs were useless (ovulation confirmed by a scan)

Hope everyone else is doing ok..I feel like I've missed so much Xx

@MrsCristianoX 5 weeks , I feel rubbish :( how're you doing love?

@Mariabombia feeling like rubbish in the early weeks is good so I've everything crossed for you❤️

I'm good. Just finished AF. Feel like a new women after 3 days of healthy eating! I'm pretty disgusted with myself for letting myself eat rubbish for so long Xx

@Mariabombia I think the yellow discharge is normal? I want to say it needs to turn yellow to form the mucous plug to keep little bean in. Does your trust offer a reassurance scan?

@LuckyMoonstone Ugh it's such an agonising waiting game for you! I really hope it'll all be clear for you soon.

@HalWin2221 I'm around 5+2 or so, hopefully we'll see something on the scan this coming week.

Sorry I meant I'm feeling rubbish as in stressed rubbish. I think I may be more hormonal than usual so that's probably not helping the worrying. I'm going to call epu in the morning to ask about this browny yellow discharge. I'm worried it's blood :(

Ahh I know what you mean, it's actually so nice to eat healthy consistently, I start craving veggies after a few days of bad eating. Can't beat a pizza and maccys though lol. Xx

@MrsCristianoX forgot to tag you 😘

@MrsCristianoX hope they will offer something when I call them or reassure me in some way. I'm stressing because it's turned browny colour this aft argh :( not all day but patches. hope it's normal

Thank you everyone for their reassurance I have made peace with what may happen, I can’t control the outcome. I might be quiet on here for a while because I feel like I’m just sounding like a broken record with this on and off bleeding. But then again I might need some questions answered as no one else knows about this pregnancy. Every so often I feel like I should tell my mum she’s so supportive and we’re super close but I really don’t want to burden her with grief. Feel like dh is feeling stressed and worried with it all too and the closest person he could talk about this to is his sister which isn’t great as her ivf failed a few weeks ago and although she would put her feelings aside for him it just wouldn’t be fair to put this on her as well

@Mariabombia McDonald's ❤️ don't even 🙈
That's why epu exists..it's nerve racking phoning but they are normally so lovely and understand the worry. Keep us updated. My trust does offer a scan but I know everywhere is different Xx

Both cardiologist and neurologist said to me ttc was no issue. It's just with the 2 miscarriages it's taken longer than it should have. And I've been reckless with my diet. So my fault for the break in ttc 🙁

@Luna57 ❤️

@Luna57 don’t feel like you have to be quiet for us - especially when this is your only place to vent right now. Early pregnancy can be so lonely so if being active on here helps please carry on! My I had my second MC I didn’t tell my mum until after and she wished I had told her sooner so she could be there for me (not that your having a MC but you get my point! 😊) - if you have that relationship and you want to tell her, you should! I hope your DH is ok too! ❤️

@MrsCristianoX I feel like they may say 5 weeks is too early to scan which is fair enough I guess.

Please don't be hard on yourself about that though, ttc is a hard journey and I've resorted to comfort eating many times when everything else is basically off the table lol. You'll be back ttc in no time xx

@Luna57 I debated whether to tell my parents as they were both heartbroken after my MMC. But I decided to tell them just because I know they want to be there for me. If my daughter was ever in this position, I'd hope she would tell me too.

It's so hard navigating other people's feeling, isn't it? I also have a friend who lost a baby at 20 weeks and I wasn't sure how to tell her because I felt like my grief didn't even come close to hers.

@Mariabombia oh god yea for sure. But they booked me in for 6.5 weeks when I rang at 5 weeks xx

@MrsCristianoX ahhh okay fingers crossed they'll do that then. At the moment I'm feeling so pessimistic like I won't get that far. I need to try chill but it's so hard isn't it x

@Luna57 oh gosh im so sorry you didn't get a definitive answer from your scan. As others have said, 6 weeks is so so early. It's good that you are measuring where you thought u should be. A few days can make all the difference. U could always try a private scan in a week or so...try not to stress too much, I know that's so much easier said than done. We're all here for you 💕 @Mariabombia how are u doing this evening? Pregnancy after loss is so hard. I've also not had sex, been to the gym either this time around. With my first I was still doing spin classes up to 10/11 weeks 😣. I hope the discharge stops asap, if defo call EPU in the am and see if they can scan u. Thinking of u xx

@Luna57 hope you’re feeling okay❤️ sending lots of love xx

@FfayeN think I’ve nailed getting the ferti lily in🙌🙌 I think I was holding the middle bit which wouldn’t let me flip it🤣

@ChloeN nice one! Good luck getting it out again 🤣 xx

@FfayeN Im leaving it in as long as poss 🤣🤣xxx

@LuckyMoonstone I think that sounds promising! The fact it's not jumped up significantly, hopefully the HCG will clear up on its own accord. How are you feeling overall?

@mummatara how are you getting on lady? 💕

@Luna57 that's what this group is for! It's a place to vent, moan, get advice but ultimately support each through the highs and lows 💕

I can’t keep up with you ladies but just dropping by to say hello and you got this 💪🏼

3dpo over here, if I actually ovulated at all. All the signs (LH+, cramps, CM, sore boobs) but temp is really not rising very much at all. Anyone else have a slow temp rise?
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So I’m not sure how I’m supposed to ttc when dh pulls out so that’s me done here 😞