TTC after miscarriage thread 12 🌈✨💛💕

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@lovenaps so sorry to hear, that must have been heartbreaking especially after the reassurance of a HB:(

Mine are more similar to your chemical. Lines get strong and then fade. Last time they started getting lighter gradually whereas this time I had a very strong line yesterday (pic attached) and then today the bleed started unexpectedly. I tested today and the line is so much fainter so it happened very suddenly.

I’m hoping for a good outcome for you this time, 3rd time lucky hopefully 🤞🏻🤞🏻

Oh I don’t think my attachment uploaded properly but these were my tests (sorry they’re a bit yellow and gross). When you look up chemical pregnancies online people usually only get faint lines so I agree that a good progression/strong lines don’t guarantee a good outcome (yet I continue to obsess and test every time).

@HJA87 did you start to bleed on what would be your period or couple of days after?
I took a FRER at 8 dpo and got a faint positive, I’m so scared to test again :(

congrats @HalWin2221. Try to stay hopeful although I know it’s really hard. My bad outcome doesn’t mean you won’t have a good one this time.

I had my first positive on 11 DPO. I started bleeding today (5 days past my expected period date). It’s also almost identical to my last chemical last month, the only difference was I tested at 8dpo then. For reference I had my HCG tested and it was only 8 miu on the day I took the 12 DPO test and 20 miu on 14 DPO. I was assured that they were still in range and were doubling which was the important thing but looking back now, I knew something was off with them being so low. I did also have a really bad stomach bug which I had caught from my toddler 2 days ago and can’t help to think it didn’t help things.

@HJA87 thanks lovely. Sorry to hear that you’ve been through such a hard time, I hope you’re being kind to yourself. 🤍
ive had 2 miscarriages on my last 2 cycles and bled both times at 5 weeks (had bloods taken both time). I know it’s so hard to not blame yourself but it’s nothing you have done, it’s just one of those really shitty things 🙁 how do you feel about trying again?

@HalWin2221 regarding testing, if it’s stressful maybe try holding off. I had a mini panic attack before my daily test each day. I was then reassured for a whole of 10 mins of it was darker before starting to stress about the next day. None of this changed the outcome and I was dehydrating myself in the process to have a good sample to dip my tests in 🤦🏻‍♀️I actually reached a new level of crazy the other day when I kept 4 of my wee pots from previous days to compare the darkness of the wee and how it might impact the results. My DH told me I was losing it only to then join me on in rating the darkness of my wee when we got an inconclusive test one day. It’s both tragic and comical honestly.

I think maybe next time I’ll test until I have a clear positive and then wait past the point I always miscarry to test again. Could you try doing the same maybe? X

So sorry for everyone feeling down, I think baby loss awareness has affected us all maybe without knowing. I’ve spent half the day crying in secret and even tearing up in the queue in Asda and having to snap myself out of it. I’ve been having heavy bleeding along with large clots around the size of 5p’s so I know for certain nothing can survive that. Just annoying how I’ve had no cramps! I stopped cyclogest Friday morning as during Friday afternoon I noticed a couple wee clots so knew it was over. I stupidly took a test earlier and was still blazing positive so I’m hoping it won’t be a long road to a negative. Currently day 8 of bleeding and it doesn’t seem to be slowing any, still bright red. I’ve a scan in 8 days to confirm everything and hoping they’re not gonna make me have another miscarriage before doing even any simple blood tests. I just worry it’s me and I can’t carry anymore children. That’s my update and sob story over sorry 😂 just one of those days. Hope everyone is ok and coping well!

@HalWin2221 sounds like our situations are very similar then. I had 2 pregnancies in the last 2 cycles were I bled at 4.6/5 weeks. I had a very short lived chemical the month before that but that one wasn’t that hard because I started bleeding before I could get properly excited about the BFP. So I’ve been pregnant 3 times in the last 3 months basically 🤦🏻‍♀️I’m doing some tests now to try and see if there is something underlying causing it but the consultant told me that even though I’ve had 2 (she doesn’t know about the third yet) it’s still most likely due to bad luck … which isn’t helpful.

@Luna57 so sorry to hear that, sounds like we’re in a similar place right now 😥

I go from acting normal to crying/throwing things/punching the walls lol.

@HJA87 its so hard to not become obsessed with it though isn’t it! You’ve got to do whatever helps during that time.
I’m going to test tomorrow, then after that I’m not going to let nature do it’s thing, whatever will be will be! 🤞🏽

@Luna57 this week has been especially hard hasn’t it! Have you rang the epu to see if they could scan you any earlier? It is strange your not having cramps isn’t it!

@HalWin2221 on one hand, if the tests are getting lighter you can prepare yourself but on the other hand you then have to wait for the bleed and it’s agony. Once I start bleeding at least it’s a relief that it’s resolving and a start of a new cycle.

Im really hoping this is it for you and all of this will be a distant memory very soon x

@HalWin2221 i know, whereas before I just knew it was over the pains were awful and I don’t normally get cramps with af so this is strange. But what just came out of me there it must have been a huge chunk of what was in there.

@HJA87 sorry you’ve had to endure so many loses. This will be my 2nd miscarriage in 3 months. Must be very unlucky for it to happen 3 times in a row. Unlucky and heartbreaking. Will you try again if they can’t find a reason? I have been going through the numb and sobbing stages too. Some times you think you’ve come to peace with it and it’s one of those things and then it switches and you’re in tears thinking you can’t even carry a child, literally what our bodies were made for. Have you any children?

@Luna57 sorry that you’re having to go through this 🙁 I wish we could be those people that test and that means we get a baby at the end of it.

@HJA87 I’ve just annoyed myself that much I’ve taken another test 🤦🏽‍♀️ I’ve drank about 2L of water today and it’s stronger than yesterday, so it had reassured me for now!!

@Luna57 I'm so sorry you're going through this. We're all here for you. It's just so so unfair. Are you going to wait for your scan in 8 days or will you ask them for an earlier one?

I just got home from a lovely hen weekend. My bleeding and cramps completely fizzled out again last night. I'm a bit worried about my lack of pregnancy symptoms but I also know at 6 weeks it's early days.
It was actually lovely seeing my two pregnant friends, one of whom also had a MMC earlier this year. She's now pregnant with twins! I told everyone about my current situation and they were all so amazing and supportive. Makes me feel very fortunate to have such good pals.

@RaliaMusca so glad that the bleeding/cramping stopped & that you had a supportive bunch around you! 🥲

Well 10 dpo BFN for me ☹️ Keep trying to tell myself 6 months post miscarriage and 5 post chemical isn’t THAT long. But when you’ve been trying 1.5 years all in, it feels like it’s never going to happen 😩

@HalWin2221 good luck for tomorrow 🤞🏼

I’m out of tests and not up for wasting another £7 so probably better for my mental health to wait it out now! Xx

@ChickenT2b sorry about the BFN 🙁 I still hope that it’s just late implantation for you but if not, I’m sure it’s just waiting for the right egg 🤍 really hope you’re ok lovely x

@HalWin2221 have we a definite bfp?!

@RaliaMusca so glad to hear it’s all fizzled out, I’m sure it was scary for you especially not being at home as well. I don’t think they’ll scan me earlier. If i get a negative test and bleeding stops before I’d just cancel it no point using up resources but if not id like to wait it out and make sure nothings been retained. I told my mum and sister tonight. They’re gutted I never told them earlier for support but I’d just really hoped id be telling them of a new addition and not another loss.

@Luna57 😬 just got to see if AF comes on Friday now.
really sorry you’re going through this again 🙁 glad you’ve got a supportive family around you!

@HalWin2221 those absolutely look like more than just indent lines! I sometimes think men just don't really understand how the tests work- they are looking for a really dark line.

@Luna57 I'm so sorry you're going through this. Hope you are able to take some time to look after yourself x

@RaliaMusca really encouraging that everything is easing for you! Sharing with supportive friends can be such a relief.

@Indianna2006 we definitely want a picture! I really gives me hope x

@calimc83 honestly the anxiety has already taken hold, and I know that I need to do something about it before it becomes all consuming. I didn't test yesterday as I really want to wean myself off, but then woke today in a panic so obviously had to test. It's darker, but as a pp mentioned earlier, it reassures me for about 5 minutes! The loo fear is also off the scale!
This time I'm offloading everything to DH though, which is helping as he is just so positive about it all, so we sort of balance each other so out.

Oops, sorry @HalWin2221 I tagged you instead of @lovenaps, but perfect timing as those lines are lovely! Congratulations, hope this week flies by for you and AF is nowhere to be seen x

@theblueflowers the loo panic. Honestly. I've had the worst constipation (its been the same every pregnancy) to the point I bleed when I go to the toilet, it was awful yesterday and thought it was over already there was so much blood. Thankfully just my bottom...but Christ, it hurts so bad 🫣. Sorry TMI 😬 xx

@Luna57 never TMI here! That sounds like a nightmare though. Did it ease off for you at a certain point before?

@calimc83 totally forgot to say thank you for checking in! How are you doing?!

@theblueflowers thank you! I’m just going to try and be positive everyday and take it as it comes. I completely get you with the toilet situation though, my last 2 MC I was at the toilet constantly checking!

@HalWin2221 I'm rubbing myself raw 😫