TTC after miscarriage thread 12 🌈✨💛💕

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New thread ladies sorry if I've missed anyone feel free to add 💗
@MrsCristianoX @Indianna2006 @TheBirdintheCave @mummatara @LuckyMoonstone @Luna57 @HalWin2221 @bunnykins123 @calimc83 @everythingzrosie @ChloeN @ChickenT2b @Chellooo @theblueflowers @RaliaMusca @Margo34 @Mariabombia @emhope @lovenaps @

@lovenaps thank you, I hope you are feeling a bit better this morning x

@HJA87 so sorry 🕊️ 🤍

@lovenaps well this is the month I'm not ttc due to meds. I don't know we are heading out today so will ask him then. I felt like just being with each other might help me last night but no not for him. I fell asleep then woke up to an empty bed. 🙁

@Indianna2006 I'm not great. Hit peak yesterday and felt sad I couldn't act on it but I've been eating sun flower seeds and super healthy for days so hoping blood comes back normal in November..keep us updated will be thinking of you xx

@MrsCristianoX I am so sorry, times like these are so important for getting support from DH. I feel sometimes people really isolate themselves when going through things but he needs to be there for you so you can be there for him ❤I remember you had to take a break in ttc but then got a little confused thinking you no longer needed to, sorry!
Also for what you said about the candles, true... That really made so many people emotional..
@Indianna2006 good luck ❤

@FfayeN @theblueflowers huge congratulations for you both, I hope all goes well...

@LuckyMoonstone I'm so sorry things are dragging on so long. Good luck with the bloods - I hope the levels have decreased nicely.

12dpo today and BFN (unsurprising given all the BFNs I've had over the past few days, but I can't seem to stop myself...). So almost certainly AF tomorrow and onto cycle 8 post m/c. Possibly. Or it's onto contraception again and giving up the whole idea of #3. I desperately need to have the conversation with DH again about exactly where he stands, but I'm scared to tbh. And so sad at the prospect of giving up at least a last few goes before accepting this year has been a blip....

@Indianna2006 I'm ok., a bit meh Just feel a bit unloved atm. Have been working non stop. Six weeks and counting. I'm on high dose statins and I need to see if they work to reduce the cholesterol otherwise I don't know what I'll do. Well I do know what I'll do bin them and start ttc again 😅

@HJA87 Sorry to hear that :( x

@LuckyMoonstone That's definitely lighter than last weekend.

@Indianna2006 All the luck for tomorrow :D Will you post a picture?

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Still no AF here. Took another test this morning but stark BFN. What the heck body!? 🙄🤦🏻‍♀️

@lovenaps I just thought him many candles do I need to light? Do chemicals count? It was all too much and I went to bed. Hoping the week flies in for you my lovely Xx

DH is taking me to Dublin today for shopping. Gotta get myself out of this form and have a bit of a fun. Whatever that means now

@MrsCristianoX enjoy your trip to Dublin, changing your surroundings even if for a short period can be so good for the soul!

@TheBirdintheCave sorry I can't remember but how many days late your AF is?

@MrsCristianoX hopefully them 6 weeks fly by. But they never do when your waiting. Each cycle feels like a lifetime doesn’t it. Especially when you have to miss a fertile week 😩

Thanks everyone for well wishes. Fingers and toes bloody crossed hey 🤞🏼Hoping all this sickness hasn’t been for nothing!

@TheBirdintheCave We will get a photo if all okay. I will update you all tomorrow. Obviously don’t want to post photos etc and be insensitive though. I understand it can all be hard.

@Indianna2006 photos of rainbow babies are much wanted on this thread 🥰 as are pregnancy tests and the hope that it will someday be all of us x

Thank you all and im sorry to read about everyone else’s struggles 😥

So the pregnancy test company said that indents disappear when tests used correctly... Hm... Clearly not always.

@HJA87 how are you feeling? ❤

@Indianna2006 I feel like I need to print off your words! I always feel really positive after reading your posts 💕 honestly, best of luck tomorrow - I'm totally routing for you (I know it'll be a fab scan!). I can only speak for me, but please do post pics. I'm quite the 'nub theory expert' so will have a crack at the sex of your baby if you want a guess!

@calimc83 hi lovely 👋👋👋 I'm okay, plodding along. Still consumed with it all but hey, what can you do. DH is having dna frag test next week and I'm having a hyfosy at the end of my next period. From there it'll be a decision about when to go ahead with ivf I guess. So gutted we are at this point but I'm just not sure if trying naturally is worth it due to my high NK cells. I wish I understood more about it but articles are so conflicting online. How are you doing? When's your 20 week scan? Will you find out the sex? Xx

@TheBirdintheCave oh hun it's so frustrating what that happens. What cd day are you now? My guess is that you O'd later than you thought.

@MrsCristianoX I totally know how you feel when you see a peak come and go with no attempts. I guess you just need to keep telling yourself that the reasons you aren't attempting this month is for the good of your health and then when you get back to it, hopefully that will kick start everything again.

@LuckyMoonstone best of luck today! I really really hope the HCG is going down 🤞 keep us updated!

@curliegirlie so nice to hear from you! How have you been? Does DH know you have had a few attempts in your fertile period?

@HJA87 I'm so so sorry to hear of your 3rd loss. Big hugs 💕

@lovenaps going from sobbing to numb to sobbing again 😥I think when it happens once you think ok bad luck but when it keeps happening it just feels so unfair as I’m sure a lot of you have experienced. Doesn’t help that someone in the very close family just announced they’re due when I would have been due had it worked out last month. Feel so bad for DH too. I told my family early this time because it was hard to hide the emotions last month so now I have to give them the bad news too😩

@HJA87 same due dates are just so cruel! You're so right to be saying it feels so unfair.
Thinking of you today ❤

@lovenaps how many dpo are you? Have you tried with a FRER or different brand? I sometimes take the test apart to be able to see if it’s indent or actually a line 🙈 obvs not with strip tests though, hope you’re ok!

@LuckyMoonstone keeps my fingers crossed you get some news that means you can move on today! 🤞🏽

@lovenaps aw love :( I'm so sad to read your post from last night , so sorry you feel like that. I honestly understand how you feel, the amount of times I've says to dh he's be better off without me because of all of this. The thing we need to remember is no one is at fault in this brutal process and both parties are grieving. I am exactly like this though, I blame it all on myself ❤️ hope you're feeling a bit better today.

@HJA87 so sorry to hear that :( sending you such a big hug. Hope you're being supported xx

@calimc83 & @FfayeN how're you both getting on ♥️

@Indianna2006 Definitely post a photo! :D

@lovenaps 15dpo now.

@bunnykins123 If I hadn't had the O pains and hadn't been temping then that's what I'd be thinking too 🤷🏻‍♀️

I've added my chart. Two temps had to be discarded (the # ones) as I woke up with fevers on both of those days due to a cold. I didn't temp days 9, 10, 12 and 13.

I am very sorry if I come across as a drama queen here. I can give you a break from myself if needed as my constant complaining might be draining people.

I want to share something else from today if that's okay. So I spoke to the company and they said that indent is meant to disappear if the test is done properly. I decided to take another test today (SMU) just to check what happens now. There is still a line, I think it actually has some pink in it... I used the same urine sample to test with another test that detects 20 MIU/ML, there is also a super faint line (fainter than the one with 10 MIU/ML as it should be).
Waiting for DH to go to toilet so I can try it on him just to make sure it is NOT an indent... I could be around 9-10DPO today.
Slightly shitting my pans as I've been having left-sided pains recently but I had them last month too.. And I think the month before! Just less intense last month but it is still not super bad.
If this a pregnancy please let it be a happy and healthy living baby ❤🙏🙏🙏

@bunnykins123 thank you! They said to ring them if I haven’t had a call by 6pm.
I am bleeding more this morning but to be honest I use the term bleeding loosely. It’s quite dark and has stuff in it 😳 sorry haha. But I hope the ‘stuff’ is the last of whatever this is leaving my body