TTC after miscarriage thread 12 🌈✨💛💕

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@RaliaMusca oh no!!! What are you thinking? I really do feel for you because you just want a definite answer on what’s happening. I think it’s worse when you’ve had a scan too because you’ve seen a little fetal pole in the shape of a little baby and you just want everything to be ok.

@HalWin2221 aww lovely news on the wedding! I was 11 weeks pregnant on my wedding day. We only had 25 guests because it was during lockdown. That’s when we told our guests which was close family and friends that we were expecting our ds.

Hey lovelies my bleeding has for definite stopped my test is still a strong positive though not a dye stealer like last week so level must be heading down 👍🏼 I'm still going to ring EPU early next week and see if they will just check all is gone. We DTD last night and will probably just aim for every few days if anything happens great if not then I won't get too flustered about it as there's no way of knowing if I'll even O or not. I have a already purchased medichecks blood test that I only have about 45 days to use now. I'm thinking I might just to do it next week see where we're at as the hospital have said they will monitor my bloods from a BFP next time and I don't want the test to go to waste 🤔

The cramps have stopped again for simply being here. It's such a great comfort to have you just ride these crazy waves alongside.
The bleeding has gotten significantly less,.no clots passed, and the cramps have stopped. It's exactly like a week ago after which everything was still totally fine so I haven't lost hope altogether. I'll ring the EPU on Monday to ask for an earlier scan. Sooooo stressful, FFS!! 🙈

Sorry that first sentence got muddled up. I meant to say "thank you all for simply being here" lol

@RaliaMusca really hoping it had stopped for good, we will always be here to support however we all can. Sometimes it's just knowing you've told someone what's happening seems to lessen the worry.

Sounds like you coped fabulously on your journey despite all what's happening, so you should be proud of yourself for that too.

Hope all is well at your next scan.

@mummatara so glad you're finally over the last of it and can move on, sounds like a great plan with TTC and certainly less stress. What is your medichecks test for specifically?

@ChickenT2b good luck for tomorrows test 🤞🏼

@FfayeN it's a hcg test I bought it to find out if my level was increasing or decreasing but then MC was confirmed so never used the second one

One of the worst evenings... :(
Fell out with DH over something (and he is very angry with me) that was an indirect result of our losses. Our lives will never be the same because of m/c, I am not sure we will ever manage to have children... I am just sobbing... I don't have any energy left to keep going but I can't imagine a life without kids either.. 😪I feel bad for DH that he is stuck with me, he deserved someone better because I will never be happy again. It is too hard to handle 😭😭

@lovenaps oh hun, this is not your fault. Life will throw obstacles at you, one of the ones we are all dealing with here is sadly miscarriage and that's a hard route to navigate. It's completely normal for tensions to get high under those circumstances but that doesn't mean that he in anyway would want to be with anyone else. You have to believe in yourself, he is lucky to have you. It will happen. Big hugs from me, you're not alone 💕

@bunnykins123 thank you so much ❤. I swear I wasn't built for a life on this planet.. Other people seem to be so much stronger at coping with things.

@lovenaps So sorry you're feeling so down :( I hope you and your husband get to a better place soon x

@RaliaMusca I hope the bleeding has stopped for good this time!

@mummatara It's great news that your HCG seems to be going down. I remember mine took forever. It was high for ages and then one day the test was just blank. It's like it nose dived.

@lovenaps how are u feeling this morning? I hope u are ok. Loss is sooo hard..I think it's only just hitting my OH now. He's been signed off with stress and I'm sure it's fine to our previous losses. I feel I processed it at the time but I think he sort of brushed it aside and it's now hitting him. Have u had any tests done at all? I found improving my diet and taking supplements helped me, in that I was taking some form of control over my fertility as when u have suffered loss and are TTC everything can seem out of control. @RaliaMusca I was so sorry to hear about the bleeding. Has it completely stopped now? What a worrying time. @Luna57 how are u holding up? @bunnykins123 how are u doing?? I hope u are ok 💕 @Indianna2006 did u have a scan this week or have I totally made that up 🙈 @FfayeN @theblueflowers how are u getting on ladies? Hope all is well xx

@lovenaps I felt so sad reading your post. Baby loss and repeated miscarriage is so hard. Grief is hard. Life is hard and shit sometimes and awful things happen to good people.
As time goes on I think you kind of learn a kind of resilience. I know I have an I’ve been through an awful lot on the past 4 years. But I am strong and wiser for it. But so over grief.

you have to think. Adult life can be a bit like when your a kid and bouncing on a trampoline and you fall down an they carry on bouncing and you can’t seem to get back up.
but you must. You will be knocked down in life. Numerous time. But you have to think. Am I going to let life win. Nope. And you get back up and you try again. I think that want for a child drives you. But equally we all have those days when you wanna give up and express it as you have. It’s a fine balance.
i am almost certain you are stronger than you give yourself credit. 💖

@calimc83 No not yet, I have my dating scan tomorrow. 🙈🙈
It’s felt like such a long wait. And I just don’t know how I’ll fall at this last hurdle if anything was bad news. But trying to think positive mindset because otherwise I shall drive myself insane.
i have to work all day tomorrow as well 😩 until we both leave off early to go to scram as it’s late afternoon. So will I be concentrating at work. ABSOLUTELY not. Be in pure panic mode I expect.

@TheBirdintheCave @calimc83 Thank you both so much ❤
You not gonna believe what happened to me last night just before going to bed... By the way - it is not a positive test announcement. So I was feeling super low last night and decided to take a test before going to bed - late night's urine plus probably too soon since ovulation - not the best combination. Initially seemed negative but looking at it later on I could see a SUPER faint line that did not seem to have much colour in it - unusual but then again, very early plus it wasn't FMU so I went to bed feeling hopeful. Woke up this morning, went straight to my test to check it - the line is definitely there. Just looking a bit suspicious. I went and opened another test from this LOT - had two indent lines, one for control, one for test. Opened third one - the same. For sake... Honestly! Just give me a break life. I will need to contact the company and tell them about this.

Hmmm I don’t think my test is much lighter today 🤔 blood test today so I should get the result this evening

@LuckyMoonstone fingers crossed for you for getting better news tonight x

@lovenaps I hope things look more hopeful this morning? I second what @calimc83 says, if you feel more in control it eases the stress. Perhaps you could look together at how to improve your fertility chances through diet and supplements? Have you had testing through the GP? If not is there an option for you to go private? These steps can certainly make the journey ahead clearer and more manageable. I hope I'm right in thinking you have more options than accepting your fertility journey is over. Everyone deals with struggles differently, we are all here as a sounding board or to offer advice, so stick around 😘

@calimc83 I'm good, navigating DH through these early days is hard. Yesterday I snapped as he told me about 4 things I 'wasn't allowed to do' (going on a spa day next week was one of them). I (not so) politely reminded him I wouldn't do anything to harm the pregnancy and that I'd been here twice before so knew what I could and couldn't do and he needs to trust me! It will cause friction for the next few weeks, I know it's out of love and concern but also I don't deal well with the bossiness 🫣.
Also started the cyclogest...that's a joy twice a day!

@Indianna2006 All the best for tomorrows scan 😘.
@LuckyMoonstone they are definitely fading but ever so slow, I really hope todays blood test gives the answers you need xx

I joined this thread last month after my 2 chemicals at 5 weeks. Well, I just started my 3rd miscarriage in a row this morning. Its such a rollercoaster of emotions and I feel like it will never happen now 😩😩

@LuckyMoonstone maybe a little lighter I think? But I'd have to scroll back to your previous one. Good luck today ❤️

@lovenaps well mine is refusing to come near me. I think he understands my cycle more than he is letting on. I'm sorry to see how upset you were last night. Hope you are feeling better today. It's a horrible thing and I saw people lighting candles for lost babies last night on Facebook snd that sent me over the edge.

@Indianna2006 good luck tomorrow lovely 💕

@LuckyMoonstone ugh 🙈 it still seems similar doesn’t it. But who knows how quickly those sort of tests change. See what the bloods come up with later. So unusual though when it is so low it doesn’t want to seem to bugger off!

@FfayeN the first bit is so hard. And after any loss. It kind of almost ruins it. Is that fair to say even?! It just zaps the excitement out and there’s this weird tension of almost “if” and almost “well let’s just see” etc etc.
I still keep doing it now and prob will do ages.
If I talk to DH about future plans. I’m like if everything goes okay and we are a four with like this tone of a massive question mark. Just totally changes perspective.
your DH is prob just trying to be supportive in only way he knows how. Even though we find it annoying 🙈
it’s a tricky path to navigate after loss through all of it I think.
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@MrsCristianoX hope you’re okay lovely xx

@FfayeN Thank you so much.
I got quite a few tests done privately, everything came back normal apart one thing which they sad was not an issue but I found mixed evidence. Bought 'it starts with the egg' and was planning to start it if this October cycle does not work x Taking various supplements but might get more after reading the book.

@MrsCristianoX you literally posted that at same time as me. I was thinking I’d not seen your name for but an was hoping you was okay xx

@MrsCristianoX I am so sorry about your DH. Why do you think he is doing that if it's not a stupid thing to ask? I honestly hope things get better for you guys ❤

@HJA87 I'm so sorry 💔

@HJA87 So sorry ❤💐