TTC after pregnancy loss - Thread 30 - huddle up and bring on the BFP's

[Lilimum7]

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Welcome to the 🐧 huddle. This is a wonderful supportive group for anyone ttc after the loss of a pregnancy or baby. Together we can get through the ttc crazyness xx baby dust to everyone xx

Hi ladies thanks for the thread and the tag.
@lilimum7 I was told to keep ttc through the testing...but consultant did feel it was likely my age causing the issues, before test results came back.
@hayleyfx great news!! Injection tips.. point the needle slightly upwards, hold your ‘fat bit’ until the syringe is empty then release, and do the syringe slowly, otherwise you get ‘heparin burn’ like a sting. It will go black and blue (and purple) no matter what but we do whatever it takes right :) oh... and buy big knickers ... anything on the bruise line will be a bit sore xx you’ll get used to it xx

Congrats on those bfp confirmations too.

My stats-
Age 40
ttc#1
Mc x 3 sept 17, Dec 17, May 18
Rmc referral diagnosed with Antiphosolipid Syndrome
Bfp no 4 Nov 18, started aspirin and heparin, currently edging to 7mths pregnant due in July.

Highly recommend acupuncture if your cycles are taking a while to stabilise after mc xx

@ImDreamland You are right. After a loss it is so easy to think that way. I hope there are no other issues for you but if there are you are doing the right thing to find out all you can. I’m still waiting for my daughter’s PM results so don’t yet know if what caused my daughter’s death is likely to happen again.. I got through all the milestones last time - I got my BFP, perfect 12 week scan, no issues at 20 week scan. I will not truly believe I’ll have a healthy baby in my arms until it happens and not a moment before. I know I’m not the only one to feel that way. Hopefully it will happen for us, all of us xx

So I woke up ridiculously early and tested again!!!
I'm over the moon!!!

Congratulations @ale2992 that's such fantastic news. Enjoy your news as much as you can and take each day as it comes! Xx

Lovely news @ale2992 xxx

Thanks @Laney79 and @Catconfusion xx

@UnicornsandRainbows1 yes we are! It's a miserable predicament- I'm trying to jolly myself on to think it might just be bad luck and that I have DS and he was a very easy pregnancy up until about 30 weeks!

Congratulations @ale2992 x

Congratulations @ale2992

Congratulations @ale2992 :)

@AliceRR fx for all of us!

@ale2992 congratulations! That's a good line.

Did another IC this morning and stark white again - it'sa one step 10mlu/ml so sensitive. Am 11/12 dpo so think that's definitely me out again this month. The month I so desperately wanted a BFP just like last year's first BFP this cycle. My BFP foe this cycle last year should be 15 weeks old now ......... and my 2nd BFP should make me 31 weeks pregnant now. I have nothing .......... life is just one big kick in the teeth. Got upset yesterday when in Tesco I stepped aside to let woman with her double buggy pass and she just gave me a filthy look rather than smile or say thank you even. WTF have I done to deserve this.

@ale2992 Congratulations! xx

@ale2992 Congratulations!

@InDreamland I just think some people are rude

I POAS this morning just to “check” I’m not pregnant and I was right! 👍🙄

I am going out for dinner with a friend later so timing is good for having a drink

@ale2992 congratulations! Such lovely news.
@indreamland I didn’t get a line on the ic until 12 dpo and even then you could barely see it. Have you considered being referred for counselling to help you with your feelings?
@hayleyfx how are you doing? Did you manage to speak to your doctors?

Would or have any of you order clearblue ovulation tests from eBay? I don’t think you can get “fake” ones 🤔

@InDreamland you haven't done anything to deserve this 💜 it's such a cruel, shit thing to have to go through. I totally understand that overwhelming, uncontrollable desire to be pregnant and to have my baby. We have to keep hoping it will happen and when that's hard, other people can hold our hope for us. I'm hopeful for you and everyone on here that we all get to hold our babies one day. Be kind to yourself xxxx

(brand new boxed ones I mean)

@AliceRR enjoy your meal out with a bottle of vino. So many people can be so rude.

@Mistymeow I hope I will be blessed with another pregnancy very very soon. I ran out of counselling sessions so no more. I could use my work one but they're not specialists in my fertility and mc issues.

@VenusStarr thank you x

@AliceRR I order mine from Amazon on a 2 monthly repeat delivery for additional discount. Never ordered them from Ebay so cannot comment on them.

@Lilimum7 thinking of you at your appointment today x

Congratulations @ale2992!

@ImDreamland Thanks. I’m thinking a cocktail! 🍹

They seem to be quite cheap on amazon actually. The CB advanced digital are £35 for 20 and the CB connect (connect to an app) are £37 for 25 so thinking of trying those x

I'm having a hard day today. Finding it hard to accept that this pregnancy is happening and keep doing tests even though they are coming up quickly and dark. No idea if an early scan would help this or not.

I also saw my friend with a baby who was due 2 weeks after me, a group of us were supposed to be going to the park before it got too hot but I just couldn't do it, cried in the middle of the street, me and another friend went somewhere else instead. I feel bad as its not anything against her but seeing her toddler interact with her baby just breaks my heart and reminds me so much that DD2 isn't here.

I hope you enjoy your meal @AliceRR.

Good luck at your appointment @Lilimum7.

Ladies I'm getting a bit anxious. I'm petrified this latest bubba is ectopic.

Over the past 3-4 days I've been noticing more pulling or sensation on my right side,..not painful as such just more niggly...I'm now winding myself up and convincing myself this time I'm having an ectopic. Anyone who's had ectopic, can you tell me what it was like? How it felt? I'm only 4+4 according to lmp (according to ovulation date I'm 5+3 apparently) but I'm definitely getting more sensation on the one side. I thought it had eased off yesterday but it's back again today...any thoughts? Anything I can do? Xxx

@Bluebelltulip Thank you. I’m sorry you’re having a bad day. Be gentle with yourself.

@Laney79 I know I’m my pregnancy (not ectopic) and even just sometimes during my cycle I have pains to one side. I even had pains in my shoulder and was convinced it could be ectopic by it was just my anxiety. Perhaps someone with direct experience of EP can give you more advice (and seek medical advice if you’re really worried even if only to set your mind at rest) but chances are everything is fine xx

@Yukka thank you for all the tips! Had the first Clexane injection today but the nurse did it for me - OMG it was so sore!! I’m seriously dreading doing it myself, I hate needles (unless they’re tattoo needles 🤣) so was freaking out. Will take all your tips on board and fingers crossed I can do it haha! 😬

@Mistymeow I’m okay thanks for asking! I’m now on daily injections, aspirin, high dose folic acid and other vitamins. Literally have a pill box now 🤣 the nurse is going to observe my injecting tomorrow to make sure I can actually do it haha!!

Feeling a bit less stressed now that I have my injections, tablets, etc. I really hope this treatment plan works. So nervous still but I’m doing everything I possibly can to help baby grow. My first scan is in exactly two weeks, I’m so scared... can’t believe I’m doing this all again - for the 6th time! 😁

@Laney79 so sorry for your worries. Hopefully someone who’s more clued up can help you, although with my son I did have a lot of cramping. Sometimes one sided. It scared me too but he was in the right place. Good luck xx