2WW... The longest wait

[guinicorn]

Hi, I was just feeling a bit down in my 2ww and wanted to share a bit. I'm trying so hard not to symptom spot but it's impossible.

Im around 7 or 8dpo, I couldn't pinpoint the actual day as LH tests were inconclusive, CM got very watery one day and the next seem thicker so I'm hoping that's when I ovulate. I have sore boobs, slight backache, weird ache very low down in my abdomen, almost like an internal bruise. If I stand, sit or bend then I feel it ache.

Cervix is high and soft, creamy CM, little bit of nausea but that's probably because I'm working myself up... I stupidly did a test this morning which was a bfn so feeling even worse now!

I know everyone else feels the same way but I wish I just knew one way or another... I'm 35 so worried that's affecting my fertility too.

Thanks, just needed to vent a bit x

@guinicorn I came off the pill 16 months ago and my body has only just settled 3 months ago!! last year it was all over the place and I did sooooo many tests. Had tests and my hormones were buggered but they are back to normal now, us women don’t have it easy (I also only have one digital in the house so I can’t do a cheap one or I would have) 😂 xx

I have to say having you guys to speak to is great and really helping. I was on another thread and omg they was so un supportive. I was asking bout my first test and they was like nope it's probably just pms all negative stuff. Then on here we are all rooting for each other. Xx

@autismfamily definitely completely agree, I joined one and they just ignored me 🙄

That's just plan rude. Was obviously not taught manners lol.
So last night and again now I have started to feel very nauseous don't know if it's stress or possibly morning sickness at night xx

@helensss oh no... Bodies are such frustrating things, did they do blood tests to figure out what was wrong? I had the implant for 15 months altogether and the last 2 months they put me on the mini pill as well because I still had heavy bleeds. I wonder if mh hormones are out of whack... I'm seeing the doctor in the morning so will run this all by him!

@autismfamily aww that's really sweet to say, it does feel so much better to have nice people to talk to and get things off your chest, it does help.

Well ladies we have our own little ttc gang now 😂 x

@autismfamily however icky the sickness feels I have my fingers crossed its for a good reason! x

@guinicorn good luck for docs! I had blood tests for my hormones as they were so crazy. My hormones weren’t right, but more tests in December showed all fine now and I’m regular yayy. When did you get implant out? @autismfamily hopefully Sickness for the right reasons and I love our group, it’s difficult to talk to people that don’t understand isn’t it xx

Funny u mentioned bloods I actually had to have mine taken on Monday to check everything was ok after the 2 miscarriages and the missed period. Got results and all seems ok they did check my HCG and showed as a negative which at first made me feel all hope was lost but then my friend reminded me that the bloods was taken only a few days after DTD so there wouldn't be any that soon.
@helensss it really is, even my closet friends who I love dearly don't get it both seem to fall at the drop of a hat and have never suffered a mc. Which I wouldn't wish on anyone but if I'm honest part of me thinks well why me and the green eyed monster comes out. God writing that makes me feel so bad. Xx

How's everyone's boobs today? Lol xx

@autismfamily doeant make you look bad, I get it, There’s no rhyme or reason to any of it, it’s mean that’s what it is.

My boobs are still really sore 😬 keep squidging them hoping they stay that way ha, fingers crossed it’s a sign xx

Same I also keep getting a burning like sensation on the sides but inside. Xx

*you shouldn’t feel bad I meant

Lol I got what u meant Hun xx

Destiny25 did you do the digital? X

@Helensss I did, showing 1-2 weeks!
My AF is due Monday so I'm testing again then to be certain not getting excited yet due to complications previously. Thank you for asking x

@destiny25 congratulations! That’s amazing!!!I’m due Sunday but too scared for a negative I’m going to try and wait to see if af shows x

Morning everyone how are we all today? Xx

@autismfamily still the same, boobs still just as sore, can’t stop obsessing, might have to buy a cheap stick, how about you?

@Helensss thank you 😊 hoping it sticks, already booked my first appointment 🙈
How you both getting on? When are you testing? Fingers crossed to you both.

exciting, I bought a first response so I might have to do that, I’m 2 days away so if there’s anything there it should show! 🤞🏻

@destiny25 congratulations Hun sending u lots of sticky dust xx
@helensss I have been a emotional reck today. I cried over someone dying on a TV show (I didn't even know who this person was. TV was just on in back ground and caught my eye) I put down the phone on a family member in temper because they "wasn't" listening to me. I have been crying most the day for one thing or another, I have even thought about booking a hotel room just so I can be by myself lol. I even cried while typing and seeing all the things I have done today lol xx

@autismfamily oh bless you! I know how you feel, hormones are no fun!I feel pretty stable in that respect today but who knows when it’ll change! Have you tested anymore? I’m 12dpo I think so I am going to do 1st response when I get home 😬 scared

I couldn’t wait! Is this a faint positive or am I going mad? X

Clearer photo I was shaking so much in the first!

@Helensss I can defo see that! Congratulations 😊 x