2WW... The longest wait

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Hi, I was just feeling a bit down in my 2ww and wanted to share a bit. I'm trying so hard not to symptom spot but it's impossible.

Im around 7 or 8dpo, I couldn't pinpoint the actual day as LH tests were inconclusive, CM got very watery one day and the next seem thicker so I'm hoping that's when I ovulate. I have sore boobs, slight backache, weird ache very low down in my abdomen, almost like an internal bruise. If I stand, sit or bend then I feel it ache.

Cervix is high and soft, creamy CM, little bit of nausea but that's probably because I'm working myself up... I stupidly did a test this morning which was a bfn so feeling even worse now!

I know everyone else feels the same way but I wish I just knew one way or another... I'm 35 so worried that's affecting my fertility too.

Thanks, just needed to vent a bit x

Do you think I should try push for early scan this week based on spotting? Or shall I wait for my midwife appt which is a week Monday, Don’t know what to dooo x

I think waiting for your midwife appt is likely to be fine but for your own peace of mind I'd def be pushing for an early scan - just explaining your history and that you've had spotting. Or is there any chance you could get a private scan to put your mind at rest?

@peasando yeah I think I’ll wait till my appointment, I feel really sick this morning and not a sign of any spotting since Friday so I’m feeling positive

How are you @Sauty? Xx

Hey ladies how are we all?

Hi @Helensss I’m ok thank you, no AF as yet, no testing, been very good so far. A bit of tummy ache so recon AF coming soon.
Of course I have the will power of a gnat so my Amazon rests are due today, ordered on prime for next day delivery 😂🤣😂

*tests not rests

@Sauty 😂😂 - let us know how you get on when they arrive!

@Helensss feeling really positive for you this time hun! xx

@peasando I am too! Fingers crossed, do you think midwife can help me with an early scan or should I go through dr?

@Sauty haha I’ve ordered so many tests of amazon in the past, let us know! X

I am such an idiot!!! I didn’t check out on my Amazon order 😩

@Sauty Noooooooooo!! 😫😫😫

@Helensss since you're seeing the midwife on Monday anyway I'd prob just wait and speak to her about it xx

@sauty oh nooo!!

@peasando ok I’ll sit tight! Xx

Joining in the 2ww here, I’m 7 dpo and feeling crampy but just feel like everything is a symptom...

Welcome @Ripleyfirst! We are experts now on symptom spotting, so if you want to share your story, we can probably help you calm your nerves. X

@Ripleysfirst hi 👋 x

Aw hey guys:)
So I’ve been having like cramps in my right pelvic area, but this happens a lot with me...

Off topic but I’m also in the middle of a rather awful time with my other half who’s just told me he doesn’t wanna deal with anyone else’s problems anymore:/ not the best start to a potential pregnancy.

@Ripleysfirst what does he mean by that??? X

Well I have anxiety and depression. And so I find it hard to joke about certain things, like him making out I’m lying about how something happened, saying I’m remembering it wrong (jokingly). I got upset asked him to stop when it happened on Sunday and he just lost it, stormed off and didn’t come back until last night when he told me he just wants to be selfish. And doesn’t want to raise kids in this kind of environment (which frankly I kinda agree on now, his rage really was out of proportion).
We’ve been living together a while now and I’m sort of relieved. If he doesn’t want to be in a shared life, then I don’t want to be in one with him:/
So we’ve split. And I’m still in the 2ww, and desperately hoping I’m pregnant because I’m 40 next year and panicking it’s my last chance.

Can’t believe I’m saying all this online but god I just needed to talk.

@Ripleysfirst sometimes you just need to get things off your chest.
Do you think you’ll reconcile? Not really sure what to say aside from look after yourself and sending love 💗

@Helensss I honestly don’t think so, he seems pretty decided on it:(

@Ripleyfirst, ok firstly - feel free to offload on us anytime we are totally not going to judge and we can be impartial with advice for you.
Secondly, I personally don’t baby won’t fix your relationship, it puts a massive amount of stress on couples and I’ve seen the strongest marriages fall apart after children come along. My hubby n I were really close before my youngest came along but when he’s in a bad mood or wanting to go see his mates etc, I get a right beef on about it and I don’t mind admitting it. However I do understand how you feel in terms of your biological clock - but 40 year plus really is very common for women to have children and if you are healthy there’s no reason why you couldn’t have a child in the next four/five years.
If I was you I’d be inclined to leave your partner alone, but knowing how I am I’d be wanting to talk to him just like you do now. Is your depression and anxiety medicated? Could you seek some counciling to help or some CBT?
It might help to download some apps on your phone for meditation and mindfulness to help keep you calm - in fact @helensss this will help you too so you don’t get too stressed out - I read an article in a magazine yesterday about it and even if you just take a few minutes from your day to relax, it’s a few less minutes within your day that you are stressed or anxious.

@sauty thats perfect advice!!! Hey @Ripleysfirst as all have said we don't by judge or anything I have opened up my soul to these ladies and they have been my rock though all my hated times xxx

@Sauty and @autismfamily thank you both, great advice there. I’m on medication and have had therapy for my anxiety so it’s definitely at a manageable level but not for him...
I agree I don’t think a baby will fix anything, getting a dog together already put loads of pressure on our relationship. I am leaning towards just moving on. If I am pregnant I have a good support network, and most of the women in my family have done it solo. And if I’m not then you’re right, I am pretty healthy and i still could in the next few years.
I’ve got a good stable job teaching which is quite flexible, I know I can do this on my own, I just was hoping I didn’t have to...

Also- symptom spotting again, had some brown spotting today which could be implantation? I don’t know.