Hi honies im home!!
Sorry to hear your,re having a bad time Jane,you wouldnt be normal if you werent like that tho,i think its all part of the process but it must be awfull for you to miss her so and be powerless to do anything.I still cry when i think of you and Zoe so cant imagine how it is for you xx
D seems ok in the heat so far my dcs love the heat like me but dh doesnt and dd is ginger 
Ponyo yep a sw,people do prefer adoption cos its thought to be easier.
I am not normal and did enjoy all the excitment and unpredictability of cp and also maikng a difference,its not all removing kids i love working with parents to make improvments so they can all stay together.I hate adoption its sooooooo boring.
We decided to leave at 10.30 last night as we didnt fancy the m25 on good friday tbh. It was such a long drive home the girls slept but i couldnt as i was worried dh would nod off,id been awake since 6am.Dh took D and we got in at 2am and she slept until 7am,mne and Els ril 10 so we will have another early night.
Im with all of you on the unpredictable nights,D doesnt go back to sleep after her first feed so if thats at 5 im screwed.
Her first holiday was ok but she was hard work,she has got into a habit of feeding to sleep which is such a pain,she falls asleep sucking but then wakes up when you take it out,over and over,wont take a dummy and sometimes stil wants to suck when shes still full,anyone else having this?Any suggestions.
wiggles you nust be very worried at the moment about dh,poor you.I dont worry much about J now cos hes in cells,but he was assaulted whilst on the beat a while back and it really upset me.
Am really determined to shift this weight now going to do ww online and start gym again but concentrate on cardio. We have a wedding in June and at the mo i wouldnt go as would feel too self concious,not going to start until after hols with all the bbqs and chocolate.
Managed to get thru the entire week without pils visiting us on holiday,id like to think they got the message but prob not.Should be ok for next weekend cos we are going out on the sat.