my son ended his life, can I tell you about him

[Goldenboysmum]

its 2 years since my boy Tony ended his life. I have no idea why. the police came in the early hours of Christmas morning to tell me.
He was only 27, strong, funny, kind and loved by so many people.

He was living in Australia, I thought he might settle there, he'd been travelling but loved Australia. He surprised me by coming home on my birthday in 2019, that was the last time I saw him.

I dont know what else to say, except I miss him so fucking much, the pain is unbearable and I just don't understand why.

Gosh what a handsome young man, so sorry he couldn't find peace after his friends death, what a character he sounds, he looks like a cheeky chappy. So sorry you have lost your beautiful boy. I can't even imagine your pain.

So sorry OP, he looks like such an handsome, fun and kind person.
I lost my brother to suicide when he was also 27, many years ago. It's so devastating.
My mum always talked about him to everyone, although she was in so much pain, to help keep his memory alive. It gets easier over time, although your post has made my cry. ❤️ for anyone who has lost a child, parent or sibling to suicide.

💔 agree

Thank you for sharing OP. Tony was such a handsome young man. I can't imagine the heaviness that you live with. I am thinking of you tonight...I hope you are able to find a little comfort in some things. Sending you love, prayers and hugs xx

I'm so so sorry. What a beautiful boy. Please tell us more, I love hearing about him. I come from a family with a lot of mental health problems and I'm aware of how close I have come to losing someone I love more than my once. I know that if that happens I will want to talk, you sharing Tony's life makes it easier for us all to do the same

Gee, what a lovely looking man your Tony was. Please share more stories as I would love to hear about him x

What a beautiful boy and a precious photograph. I’m so sorry for your loss and also feel privileged to hear about Tony whose life should be remembered. I’m glad he got to travel and that he came home to surprise you. He sounds like a sensitive, beautiful soul.

I'm so very very sorry for the loss of your beautiful son. My thoughts are with you, sending gentle hugs.

I just wanted to say I'm so sorry for your pain @Goldenboysmum . I loved the funny story about him, it really made me smile. I wish you healing. I'm sitting listening to a Christmas midnight Mass on the radio and I'm thinking about Tony, keeping you both in my thoughts. Much love to you.

Such a beautiful boy and such a radiant smile. I am so, so sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts.

I have a friend who lost his son to suicide after a silly stupid argument with his mates, something on another day he would have laughed off, he was 21, it cost his parents their only child & them their marriage because the grief absolutely broke them both. Your son looks like he was a lovely young man who any parent would be proud to call their son.

My heart goes out to you and your family.
Tony sounds and looks like a lovely guy, a golden boy indeed. The most beautiful eyes I have seen.
I am sorry for your loss

Tony looks and sounds from your stories like a wonderful person. I am so sorry for your loss, sending you much love.

Op. Tony looks like a wonderful man.

I'm so fucking sorry you didn't have longer with him, and that events round his death weren't clearer.

Massive hugs, op xx

I am so sorry for you and your family. This is utterly heart breaking. I will be thinking of you and beautiful son today x

I'm so sorry. What a gorgeous cheeky smile he had. Its so hard to make sense of it. My exh dad took his own life and the pain and grief was unbearable. Your son looked like a lovely lad who was great fun to be with. Xx

I'm so sorry for your unimaginable pain. Your son was beautiful on the outside and from what you say he was beautiful on the inside too. Stand proud of him.

He sure was a looker OP. So sorry for your loss.

goldenboysmum

Thinking of you , Christmas is so hard . You'll see him again .
Thinking of you and your beautiful boy

What a handsome man!

'Mum your macaroni is shite' - brilliant. He sounds bloody ace.

Thankyou for telling us about him, and thinking of you today

Sending love

I’m so sorry OP - such a beautiful son xx
ilost my brother to suicide - it’s very hard on my mum especially xx

@Goldenboysmum I am so glad you shared Tony's picture-what a gorgeous smile.

I love the macaroni story-a great insight in to his cheeky humour

I am so so sorry for your loss and I can see that being so far away makes it harder to comprehend.

If you want to talk about him this is a great place to just be able to just post whatever comes to mind and comforts you.

Words are terribly inadequate but I am so sorry for your great loss

I can only imagine how difficult today will be for you, OP.

What was Tony like as a child? Do you want to tell us about his favourite things to do?

I am so sorry OP. I really feel for you. What a gorgeous lovely boy. so so sorry. Please feel free to talk about your gorgeous boy Tony only if you want to - I would love to hear about him only if you wish to talk about him