my son ended his life, can I tell you about him

[Goldenboysmum]

its 2 years since my boy Tony ended his life. I have no idea why. the police came in the early hours of Christmas morning to tell me.
He was only 27, strong, funny, kind and loved by so many people.

He was living in Australia, I thought he might settle there, he'd been travelling but loved Australia. He surprised me by coming home on my birthday in 2019, that was the last time I saw him.

I dont know what else to say, except I miss him so fucking much, the pain is unbearable and I just don't understand why.

I am so sorry for your loss. He looks like
such a lovely man xx

What a brilliant smile in that photo. He looks like a real character.

Your story about the macaroni just made me laugh so hard. I'm so so sorry that you lost him. The good ones all go far too early, but we're lucky to have them for a short time.

Best wishes OP. I hope you manage a smile or two over Christmas remembering your beautiful boy.

Beautiful picture of a beautiful soul. There’s no words. Sending you peace I’m so sorry

I'm so sorry for your loss. What a beautiful photo & lovely the story about shite macaroni. Wishing you strength to get through this Christmas & hope for the future

So very sorry. The loss must hurt a lot.

i just want to reach out to you. I can’t imagine losing such a precious boy. He was beautiful.

I'm so sorry for your loss. He was a very handsome man and the story about the macaroni is priceless. He was obviously a very funny and witty guy. Sending you strength and love at this difficult time ❤️❤️

I lost my brother to suicide and like to talk about him too but I think people try and avoid doing so for fear of upsetting us. I think we need to talk, to remember, to keep them with us though. I love to hear others' memories.

What a beautiful photo of your son...and a blessing to have had him visit for your birthday.

Having a quiet think about your lovely boy.

He sounds like he had a great sense of humour. What a funny memory.

Beautiful man. I'm so sorry for your loss.

What a happy, lovely photo of your gorgeous son

Oh my goodness how heartbreaking

I’m sorry for your loss, devastating

Oh wow I'm so sorry for your loss. What a beautiful man. I'm sorry that you'll never know why but sometimes they don't want us to know why, perhaps to save you from more unbearable pain. I'm so sorry.

I’m so sorry, that’s truly heartbreaking. Such a wonderful picture of your beautiful son.

Suicide is so difficult to understand for loved ones and so incredibly damaging for those left behind. I hope you are able to find some peace tomorrow and take some comfort from your wonderful memories of your beautiful son💐

So sorry for you.

I’m so very sorry- what a beautiful boy he was.
Thank you for telling us about him- it must be so hard for you but it’s good to talk about him, I think that’s very healthy ❤️

So sorry to hear this OP.
Keep talking about him here 💐

What a gorgeous photo of Tony. I'm so sorry you have lost your son this way, I don't have many words. I had some friends who took their own life, I am not sure how their family's coped with it or came to terms with it. Lots of love xxxx

i thought when I saw your photo of your lovely son that he looks like the type of person you’d have a great time with in the pub and then I read on… obviously I’m right! This is so funny. What a sweetheart, you must miss him so terribly. I’m so sorry for your loss, the pain is hideous and feels insurmountable at times I know.

Handsome human. I'm sorry for your loss. And I'm sorry you don't have answers. Thank you for sharing about your son. I'm sure you're an awesome mum. I'm sat here this evening thinking about everyone who has lost someone recently. Not sure why, but it's sombre. I'll light a candle for him tomorrow.

Sorry I didn't know him, I'm afraid. I just remember his story in the press.
I'm so sorry you didn't get the answers you would have hoped for. It is so hard when you are so geographically distant when such tragedies happen. 💙

I'm so sorry OP you sound like a wonderful Mum and you must've been so proud of him

This is such a beautiful photo , your Tony was so handsome x
I love the macaroni admission ! Just what you wasn't expecting !
Please come and talk about him, share your memories , even just to talk ... biggest hugs to you xx

Thank you for sharing your lovely boy with us. I’m so sorry for your loss and pain.